ChloeDust
28-11-2005, 03:59 PM
Gah i don't know what is wrong with me at the minute but i'm not getting much sleep and i toss and turn and wake up about 3-4 times and then finally feel comfortable at like 5:30am when i have to get up in an hour.
Once i'm at school i find it hard to have conversations with people and i feel awkward around most people i also feel really lonely and down. Like today in science i was absolutely knackered and i was just sitting there whilst the teacher was explaining something and i wasn't taking in anything that he was saying and i didn't hardly talk all lesson, i also feel like people are looking at me like im some sort of small weird (my height gets me down a lot too)
Anyways for the past few months or so i've just felt really lonely and depressed and i feel seperated from other people, i'm not sure wether it's just puberty, time of the month, hormones or me being so un-affectionate (i never hug anyone, not even my family or give them a kiss :'( ) i just wish i was affectionate but i can't show it and i get all embaressed and shy like a fool, i wish i was confident but im not and it really depresses me.
It also makes me cry a lot and i just burst into tears for no reason, like i feel like crying now, i also don't know wether it's because my dad lives away and i hardley ever see him and it upsets me but i can't show my love towards him, oh heck im crying >.<. -shuts up.
Any tips or anything people cause im fed up of feeling this way, i feel like i've got something really badly wrong with me. :'(
Once i'm at school i find it hard to have conversations with people and i feel awkward around most people i also feel really lonely and down. Like today in science i was absolutely knackered and i was just sitting there whilst the teacher was explaining something and i wasn't taking in anything that he was saying and i didn't hardly talk all lesson, i also feel like people are looking at me like im some sort of small weird (my height gets me down a lot too)
Anyways for the past few months or so i've just felt really lonely and depressed and i feel seperated from other people, i'm not sure wether it's just puberty, time of the month, hormones or me being so un-affectionate (i never hug anyone, not even my family or give them a kiss :'( ) i just wish i was affectionate but i can't show it and i get all embaressed and shy like a fool, i wish i was confident but im not and it really depresses me.
It also makes me cry a lot and i just burst into tears for no reason, like i feel like crying now, i also don't know wether it's because my dad lives away and i hardley ever see him and it upsets me but i can't show my love towards him, oh heck im crying >.<. -shuts up.
Any tips or anything people cause im fed up of feeling this way, i feel like i've got something really badly wrong with me. :'(