Everythings gone wrong :(

[sarey]

Kai so basically this is whats happened:
My parents divorced when i was 4, my nan died 2 years ago, and i so wish i could join her, ive been diognosed with depression, and im not treated, i have had selfharm for 5 years, i havent been to school for a year and i get physically/mentally/verbally bullied at school, everythings ruined, my sisters school is down the hill, my sister cuts herself now, and she is smoking, my mom is drinking alot, she has depression aswell, my grandads gettin engaged to my nans so called best friend, and shes taking my grandad away from me, I JUST SO WONT TO DIE, i mean i get told im a mistake and that i should just go hang myself, and that im worthless, but i dont know, should I? I mean im just a fat physcotic mental child.
I dont know what to do! Has anyone got any advice :(
My selfharm has got worse, ive started doing it on my wrist now, and last time i almost passed out, jeez can someone help me! :(:eusa_wall :s :@ :(

[JackHb]

You should go to a doctor and ask them for some proffesional help. Maybe try visiting sites like teenhelp.org where other people with similar problems will talk to you and proffesional helpers will guide you.
Maybe talk to your best friends in real life and tell them how you feel and they should try and help you.

Have you tried visitng websites or calling helplines?


* Childline
www.childline.org.uk
Free Tel: 0800 1111 (24 hours a day, 365 days per year)
Textphone: 0800 400 222 (9.30am to 9.30pm weekdays - 9.30am to 8pm weekends)
* Samaritans
www.samaritans.org
Tel: 08457 90 90 90 (24 hours a day, 365 days per year)
Textphone: 08457 90 91 92
* Young Minds
www.youngminds.org.uk
Tel: 0207 336 8445 (9.30am to 5.30pm weekdays)
* CALM - Campaign Against Living Miserably
www.thecalmzone.net
Free Tel: 0800 58 58 58 (Daily from 5.00pm to 3.00am)

[sarey]

No, ive tried that, iv had pro help before, they just quited on me, so i stopped all help, and now i just so wont to die :(

[Lycan]

www.suicideforum.com - there very good... very supportive and they don't give up

[VPSwow]

I agree hope you get it sorted m8

[sarey]

Thanks, thing is earlier on i was gonna commit suicide, but my mom came back from my grandads, so you know,i had to put the tablets away and the rope back in my room. :@

[JackHb]

Thanks, thing is earlier on i was gonna commit suicide, but my mom came back from my grandads, so you know,i had to put the tablets away and the rope back in my room. :@

Commiting suicide is pretty pointless, you need to face your problems and deal with them, as soon as you do that they will get better. Imagine all your friends and family who would be affected if you commited suicide.
I assume your only young? You have your whole life ahead of you, to go to college, get a job etc...

[sarey]

Sure, what friends? *Looks down* Ive got NO friends, my family, well lets see if they will miss me, yeah im young, under 16 but over 12. And suicide aint pointless, its the escape key. Its the ONLY key ive got right now.

[VPSwow]

Talk to your parents about how you feel and dnt take the escape route it seriously is pointless

[sarey]

No suicide aint pointless, plus i only have one parent, my mom, who has enuff on her plate already.

[Catchetat]

commiting suicide doesn't solve the problem

seek for advice from councilors or talk to your friends.

if you're looking for an escape key, think about the people living in China or Africa? They're suffering from AIDS, and yet they want to live

but YOU. your state isn't as bad compared to them, their living standards etc and you want to die? seriously, suicide doesn't help..

I'm sure there are other ways in managing your case.

Why not seek help from social workers?

[superkat]

Kai so basically this is whats happened:
My parents divorced when i was 4, my nan died 2 years ago, and i so wish i could join her, ive been diognosed with depression, and im not treated, i have had selfharm for 5 years, i havent been to school for a year and i get physically/mentally/verbally bullied at school, everythings ruined, my sisters school is down the hill, my sister cuts herself now, and she is smoking, my mom is drinking alot, she has depression aswell, my grandads gettin engaged to my nans so called best friend, and shes taking my grandad away from me, I JUST SO WONT TO DIE, i mean i get told im a mistake and that i should just go hang myself, and that im worthless, but i dont know, should I? I mean im just a fat physcotic mental child.
I dont know what to do! Has anyone got any advice :(
My selfharm has got worse, ive started doing it on my wrist now, and last time i almost passed out, jeez can someone help me! :(:eusa_wall :s :@ :(

You've been here before and you solved the problem before. Try the same strategy.

[sarey]

I.. I dont know anymore. :(

[Billabong]

Look suicide isn't the answer to anything. Think about your mom, think how she would feel. IT WOULD RUIN HER LIFE. Her child dead because of suicide, she would blame her self. Everyday she would wake up and wonder why you had to kill yourself.

Come on don't do it!
Join a club, meet people, make friends.

Stop thinking of the past and what youv lost and think of what you could have if you try!

Dont commit suicide, youll ruin other lives!

[Antony]

Sarah, I've known you for a long time now. And i knew you did selfharm etc and i tried to help. When i've just heard you were about to commit suicide, Get in contact with me and we can have a chat and I will help you in every possible way I can. Please get in contact with me again, We will get you through this. Commiting suicide is going to do nothing than cause others pain and suffering. Remember none of this is your fault and you musn't blame yourself for it.

[sarey]

:( Ant ever since my nan died everythings gone wrong! and u know that too and i dont know i just wont to die and get outta this stupid life :( U know what iv been thru, and i bet u know it is my fault, i dont wonna be here nomore, its stupid, i dont like it I NEVER HAVE NEVER WILL! Ill friend request u on habbo, but iv been banned so ill be on messenger. Suicide is my only way out, cutting myself isnt working nomore.

[sarey]

Also, my mom wouldnt blame herself, she wud be happy, my family wud be happy everyone wud be happy, they say im a mistake, they say the first years without me were PERFECT, so now im undoing the mistake of being BORN. >:(


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[superkat]

Also, my mom wouldnt blame herself, she wud be happy, my family wud be happy everyone wud be happy, they say im a mistake, they say the first years without me were PERFECT, so now im undoing the mistake of being BORN. >:(

You may think they would be happy but seriously they wouldn't.

[Billabong]

You think they wouldnt morn your death, cry or think about you everyday!
They would!

Don't do it to yourself or to anyone you know, its not the answer!

[JackHb]

If your mum has enough on her plate now, imagine what she would have to go through if she found out her daughter had committed suicide.
Do you really think your Nan would want you to commit suicide?

[Grimmauld]

Hang on and don't sucide, there is no point, live life while you can. When " HE " thinks it's time for you to pass, he'll make his move on the board, from then, enjoy life even though it's miserable. I wish you the best.

[sarey]

I dont know anymore, i really dont, ID PREFER TO NOT SUFFER IN THIS LIFE NOMORE, i dont like this! everyday i get this stupid crap that im a physco and that i should just go die! well maybe i should maybe i should just go hang myself or jump out my window and slit my wrists while in the air, i just wont to leave this world forever and ever and NEVER COME BACK. Ill be suicidal for the rest of my life ! :(

[Chaz]

I dont know anymore, i really dont, ID PREFER TO NOT SUFFER IN THIS LIFE NOMORE, i dont like this! everyday i get this stupid crap that im a physco and that i should just go die! well maybe i should maybe i should just go hang myself or jump out my window and slit my wrists while in the air, i just wont to leave this world forever and ever and NEVER COME BACK. Ill be suicidal for the rest of my life ! :(
no, you wnt.
you should ring childline or something about this. thry CAN help and WILL make a diffrence, hang in there buddy. you'll be alrite!

[sarey]

But what if one day i ACTUALLY do it chaz :( what if it actually works, then what? I CAN commit suicide, i just think before doing it what will happen after...

[sarey]

Okay someone named 'Rach' fricken said this is attetion seeking, seeking advice i am yar? so you know what, IGNORE THIS THREAD, IGNORE EVERYTHING! Im just an attetion seeker yar? yar, rachel is always right. So lets just do as she thinks. Bye!> : (

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[NIKKEE]

OK, so some parts DO sort of sound attention seeking, like, you really didn't have to tell us what you were planning on killing yourself with
(rope and pills?) :rolleyes:

But, you're obviously depressed, and If you really want help I don't really see why you're posting on a forum where no one can really do anything.

And most people are right, if you're mums got loads to deal with right now, you commiting suicide, is well, pretty selfish.

And yeah, whoever it was said about those kids in africa and what not who are aids orphands and they WANT to live, girl, my mum and dad split up when i was 3 and my uncle died 3 years ago with a brain tumour.

It's just something you get over.

I used to wish my mum and dad would get back together more than anything i wanted them to.

But now i'm glad there not :S all they did was argue.

It makes sense for them not to be together.

And there more fun individually aswell.

And sorta give you more money :P

But that's not totally good, anyway, i'm just saying the more you think about how bad it is the worse you'll get, because you seem to keep TELLING yourself you're depressed, just try being happy.
And that sounds dumb, but it kind of works.

For me anyway.

Hey it's nice to have someone to support you on a forum, but when someone says something negative, it IS your own fault.
If you didn't want criticism you should have sent an email to the samaritans or something.

I know someone who did that, said it sort of worked for her.

And also, saying something like, UGH JUST FORGET THIS THREAD IM GONNA GO KILL MYSELFZZZZZZZZZZZ won't really do anything, it's dumb.

'Cause how are you gonna get anyones sympathy if you're not nice back, it doesn't even seem like you're trying.

Get a psychiatrist, and don't die.

You've got so much to live for, like meeting the right guy, i'm presuming you're a girl...

and having babies and getting the job you always wanted.
and a perfect house and car.

try even asking to move school, if you can.

just, don't kill yourself,
it's SO not worth it. :)

[Grimmauld]

Then be a selfish moron and go suicide, more air for us. It's your choice, but remember, there's no way back.

[NIKKEE]

Then be a selfish moron and go suicide, more air for us. It's your choice, but remember, there's no way back.


She's so right ^^^
well, maybe not the part about the more air for us...
>_>

[Grimmauld]

You're fussing over your life because you're not getting what you want or don't like the way it's going. Well compare your life to ones who hardly have one! Poor and homeless. I know life's a b****, but that's just life, enjoy it while you can or just be selfish and go suicide.

[sarey]

Kai. Dont worry you two, i will. :) Time. Time. Your the ones who are saying go do it, so yeah i will, just give me time to write a suicide note, and say to my friends on here that im leaving the pc, or say my pc is breaking, i dont really care about your opnions, if antony reads this, you know what ant, you keep being 'busy', and rach if your reading this, YOUR WISH HAS COME TRUE. :L I dont care if suicide is selfish, my lifes mistaken, my mom could of aborted me, but nah she was selfish to have me, i put her thru hell, so lets bring her to heaven. :) Anything else people would like to say too me? Cause theirs proberley a WHOLE loada people whod like to say im an attetion seeker, physco, weirdo, mental, idiot, selfish ect ect, so come on then, gimmi a lil wrath.

[Fiddle-Sticks]

This might sceem cruel, but it makes me feel lucky. You mightent understand, cas I thought I had things really bad.

[NIKKEE]

Kai. Dont worry you two, i will. :) Time. Time. Your the ones who are saying go do it, so yeah i will, just give me time to write a suicide note, and say to my friends on here that im leaving the pc, or say my pc is breaking, i dont really care about your opnions, if antony reads this, you know what ant, you keep being 'busy', and rach if your reading this, YOUR WISH HAS COME TRUE. :L I dont care if suicide is selfish, my lifes mistaken, my mom could of aborted me, but nah she was selfish to have me, i put her thru hell, so lets bring her to heaven. :) Anything else people would like to say too me? Cause theirs proberley a WHOLE loada people whod like to say im an attetion seeker, physco, weirdo, mental, idiot, selfish ect ect, so come on then, gimmi a lil wrath.


Well, it's really up to you if you kill yourself, but can't you think of ONE TINY REASON to hold on?
Your internet friends?
'Cause I really do think you will regret it... Although you can't because you're dead.
Have you even tried talking to your mum about it?
Alot of people are giving you some really good advice, and ONE person told you to kill yourself and ONE person said you were attention seeking.
The rest never, And stop trying to make people feel guilty by saying all that stuff. It won't work.
And btw... Your mum woulda just HAD an abortion or left you on someones doorstep or whatever if she never wanted you... But she kept you... Of course she loves you.
Maybe she can see your dad in you, and so shes angry at him, not you.
Tell her you love her.

[NIKKEE]

and
BTW
It's obvious you want help and don't want to die.
'Cause if you were gonna do it, you woulda done it by now.

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[NIKKEE]

Oh
and no offense
but it's no wonder you don't have any friends, because if you're like this in real life then even I wouldn't make the time of day for you.
It's selfish that when people try to help you and give you good advice you don't take it and throw it back in there faces.
And it IS good advice, though I don't see why im waisting any time on you, maybe it's because i feel sorry for you.
But if you're not willing to listen.
Then I'm gonna shut the hell up.


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[Proof!]

Lol you think everything goes wrong.But doesnt really :p I mean at the moment im having a hard time lol But I can fix it :) Im sure you can.And also NIKEE does make a bit of a good point, dont throw things back in people's faces things will probably go worse for you.If you do things like that.

[Pulchritudinous]

I don't think want you want to kill yourself, I think you just want to be saved.
Soemtimes we might put ourselves in a bubble, just to see if someone might burst it.

You have problems, there isn't a doubt about it, but there isn't anybody in the world who doesn't have problems!

Don't be stuborn and tell your mum you love her, she probably feels worthless, and looking for reasons as to why she feels so depressed, but it isn't you, it's her.

I really think you need to see a doctor to give you your self worth back, you say you get bullied at school, but you bully yourself out of school.
You physically harming yourself, and mentally telling yourself your not worthy.
Don't create issues for yourself, you're finding the slightest reason to hate yourself, if you want to overcome depression then start finding the slightest reason to love yourself.

[Lycan]

I don't think want you want to kill yourself, I think you just want to be saved.
Soemtimes we might put ourselves in a bubble, just to see if someone might burst it.

You have problems, there isn't a doubt about it, but there isn't anybody in the world who doesn't have problems!

Don't be stuborn and tell your mum you love her, she probably feels worthless, and looking for reasons as to why she feels so depressed, but it isn't you, it's her.

I really think you need to see a doctor to give you your self worth back, you say you get bullied at school, but you bully yourself out of school.
You physically harming yourself, and mentally telling yourself your not worthy.
Don't create issues for yourself, you're finding the slightest reason to hate yourself, if you want to overcome depression then start finding the slightest reason to love yourself.

isn't that what nikkee said ??? , ether way i agree with nikees triple post

[-Wolverine]

Kai. Dont worry you two, i will. :) Time. Time. Your the ones who are saying go do it, so yeah i will, just give me time to write a suicide note, and say to my friends on here that im leaving the pc, or say my pc is breaking, i dont really care about your opnions, if antony reads this, you know what ant, you keep being 'busy', and rach if your reading this, YOUR WISH HAS COME TRUE. :L I dont care if suicide is selfish, my lifes mistaken, my mom could of aborted me, but nah she was selfish to have me, i put her thru hell, so lets bring her to heaven. :) Anything else people would like to say too me? Cause theirs proberley a WHOLE loada people whod like to say im an attetion seeker, physco, weirdo, mental, idiot, selfish ect ect, so come on then, gimmi a lil wrath.
Most people were trying to help you but yet you keep saying "Ok i'm gonna commit suicide since you 2 are telling me to."

They were trying to help but you kept being stubborn. "/

[NIKKEE]

Most people were trying to help you but yet you keep saying "Ok i'm gonna commit suicide since you 2 are telling me to."

They were trying to help but you kept being stubborn. "/

Thas what i keep saying!
LOL
Yeah... If you won't read mine read his...
He a smart man :D

[-Wolverine]

Thas what i keep saying!
LOL
Yeah... If you won't read mine read his...
He a smart man :D
Lmao thanks. ;P

[NIKKEE]

Lmao thanks. ;P

Ya welcome ;)

[Tyed]

Awww I Dunno If Other Has Said This "Cba Reading Hole Of The Thread"

Awww Some People Are So Attention Seeking FFs Ur Mum Has Enough On Her Plate ,,, U Dieing Eint Gonna Fhking Help... Geeez..

If U Say "Ur Commiting Suicide Or W.e And No1 Can Help U... Why Post On A Forum Just Go Fhking Do It" [ Which U Probly Eint Got The Gutts To Obviously If Ur Life Is Soo Rubbish..Geez... This Eint Being Nasty Or Enything But Sometimes People Are There Own Enimies

[NIKKEE]

Awww I Dunno If Other Has Said This "Cba Reading Hole Of The Thread"

Awww Some People Are So Attention Seeking FFs Ur Mum Has Enough On Her Plate ,,, U Dieing Eint Gonna Fhking Help... Geeez..

If U Say "Ur Commiting Suicide Or W.e And No1 Can Help U... Why Post On A Forum Just Go Fhking Do It" [ Which U Probly Eint Got The Gutts To Obviously If Ur Life Is Soo Rubbish..Geez... This Eint Being Nasty Or Enything But Sometimes People Are There Own Enimies


Huh?
Well the pars I understood made sense.
Though thas what everyone keeps sayin.
But yes... It IS rather attention seeking.
Thas annoying when people do that, GAH LADY/MAN...
Go get help... :rolleyes:

[SupaIGA]

Umm, 2 things written all ovet this;

1. Attention seeking
2. Fake

Ahem,
Hiet

[sarey]

My mom knows now, she was ... understanding.. *that took me around 5 minutes to think of the word and write it* I meant i told her about my selfharm carrying on, she thought it stopped.. ill proberley tell her about my suicide thoughts later on.. like later later on, just what if she puts me in one of those hospitals? i dont wonna go ther, ive always been scared of that place from what ive heard/seen. Im sorry i thrown it in your faces, but yeah im stubborn that way. When i read over the posts, i seen that most of you were using reverse physcoligy.. *doesnt work on me* I always know what someones tryin to do if they use it, i dont attetion seek, ive been doing this for 5 years now, and i DONT attetion seek, i just wanted to talk to someone, and not feel as lonely as i felt. Why do you think i cut myself privatly? Ive NEVER cut infront of ANYONE, only one time on cam when i had auto accept on, and another time infront of my mom which proberley shocked her i was just angry with her and cut my hand infront of her, she looked so scared of me, but u know we made up we hugged, and all that.
So now, ive lost my bestest friends, they hate me.
But after all, its just a pc right? Their not exactly REAL friends like proper real life friends.. Im sorry if this thread made out it was 'fake' and 'attetion seeking', but i never lie, if i did lie, i would of thought of a better lie than this, i dont think anyone would lie about suicide, not even the evilest person on earth, its just sick.. i mean pretending your gonna kill urself, people would be really worried about you if u just said: Im killing myself and then go off the pc and just laugh and u know.. sick. Thanks for everyones support/help/posts im sorry if i wasted your time on this, i suppose i need to find something that keeps me here... I mean if ive been here for 13 years, i can find a reason to be here for another 13 years, ect ect.
Thanks again everyone, im really grateful.
I hope i didnt make any off you give a negative thought off me.

[NIKKEE]

DUDE!
Im so glad you told ur mum :]
And she was understanding?
Brilliant!
Of course you can think of something...
I mean what is it you REALLY REALLY wanna be?
Try thinking about that, it helps ALOT!
and I mean, are you and ur mum ok?
And if ur friends arent ur friends anymore then they werent true friends to begin with and you dont even need them. :]
You sorta sounded.... happier in that post?
Or was that just me?

[-:Undertaker:-]

Things can only get better - remember the song !

[sarey]

She was understanding.. i couldnt believe it though, i just wanted to hug her and cry cause the truth finally came out, she said to me:
She would be extremley upset if i had commited suicide, she asked me if i would of commited suicide like would i do it, i said.. yes..
she almost started crying, and she said please dont do it, i love you, i started crying cause shes never actually said that for a long time, I mean we say it at night cause if something happens the last words she has of me or i have of her is sayin love you or i love you.. (sensative), but recently she hasnt really been sayin it, so i bursted into tears and she said do u wont me to take u to hospital so u can talk to someone? i said no.. but shes gonna get in contact with my social worker, ill tell her the truth.. like in full detail cause i said to my mom:
Mom.. i think i have depression because i keep wanting to commit suicide, and wanting to kill myself
she said its proberley just you at home because its been a long time
i said no.. ive been feeling this way since my first attempt (3 years ago)
her face was almost broken.. she thought id got over it, but when i told her, i felt a vibe.. as if she was about to say go away or something but she didnt, she was their for me and she said she would arrange an appointment with my social worker, so as usual i went in here, played music and just cried, i dont know why.. emotions.. lots of them aswell.
Me and my mom are okay now, since shes got depression she understands what im going through, if i have depression (ill proberley be examined by a physcoligist if i do tell my social worker this) ill get through it.. ill just fight it, i mean my mom has right? and shes gone through this for around 9 years now, and with everything shes been through, im sure i can do it aswell.
I did sound happier in that post as it worked out well.. i was just relieved i told her.
Your right aswell about the friends part, they werent true in the first place, thanks for everything :)
Thanking:
Depression!, Katrina, JackHB, Onizuka, Chaz-, Nikkee, Habboshost.com, HotelMental, Pulchritudinous and -:Undertaker:- for your care and support through this time. Especially Nikkee, thanks so much!
Sarah

[NIKKEE]

Awww!
You are so very welcome.
I'm glad you and your mum are ok.
Yay, I'm kinda glad if I did actually manage to help :]
And it looks like things are gonna be ok for you now.
Real good.
:]
Good luck with it.

[alexxxxx]

I hate to say this, but I think this is all made up. It sounds too *fake.*

If it isn't, well done for talking to somebody and not taking "the easy way out"

[sarey]

Thats your opinion saiteko, but only I know whats happening, and i know whats fake and whats true.
And this is not fake, if it was fake, id be pretty sick in the head to lie like this.
Ask antony04, he has seen my selfharm on cam before, and he KNOWS for a fact that i dont lie about my selfharm/suicidal thoughts - If he knows im suicidal.
Nik, u really did help me, aswell as loads of others, im really grateful, i was just wanting advice on what to do, since i wanted someones opnion on it.
And i guess i got what i wanted, anyway me and my mom are gonna go watch tv now, Nikk, ill Pm you about something. x
Thanks everyone.
Also, thanks antony for all you've done.
Sarah

[alexxxxx]

Thats your opinion saiteko, but only I know whats happening, and i know whats fake and whats true.
And this is not fake, if it was fake, id be pretty sick in the head to lie like this.
Ask antony04, he has seen my selfharm on cam before, and he KNOWS for a fact that i dont lie about my selfharm/suicidal thoughts - If he knows im suicidal.
Nik, u really did help me, aswell as loads of others, im really grateful, i was just wanting advice on what to do, since i wanted someones opnion on it.
And i guess i got what i wanted, anyway me and my mom are gonna go watch tv now, Nikk, ill Pm you about something. x
Thanks everyone.
Also, thanks antony for all you've done.
Sarah

I'm sorry, but it does sound a bit like your an attention seeker.

[sarey]

Well, i SEEK advice, not attetion sorry.
I dont exactly go on cam to people and slit my wrists, or go to everyone OMG IM GONNA CUT MYSELF WANNA WATCH? ;l
I just seek advice, my friend antony has seen my cuts on cam before because he didnt exactly believe me at first, until i shown him, and obviously hes now helping me.
Plus i PM'd you about it, i DONT seek attetion, why the hell do you think i cover my cuts? and cut away from people? I seeked advice on here, and i got it, and now im gonna be talking to people to get me help.
If thats named attetion seeking, then i spose im an attetion seeker.

[splatttt]

I dont know how you feel but im not being insensitive but Self-harming is a form of Attention seeking

Look i hope everything works out for your though

[sarey]

Selfharm is NOT a form of attetion seeking, jesus crist were do u people get this crap? selfharm is a coping mechanism, selfharm is a way to release anger on urself, selfharm is done PRIVATLY and COVERED UP after cutting urself/burning urself/harming urself, i dont see how thats attetion seeking, maybe you should RESEARCH selfharm and get ur facts right before posting stupid pathetic posts on here.

[NIKKEE]

self harm is what people to do when they're depressed, it's not attention seeking if you don't tell anyone, but if you do what my friend does and show every one, then you're attention seeking.

[Pulchritudinous]

Well done on cheering up a little, I agree with your mum you should be back in school, not just for social reasons but educational reasons too of course!

I hope you have stopped cutting yourself now and if not please stop because you'll seriously regret it later on in life.

[sarey]

I havent stopped cutting myself because its addictive, and its given me too much from the past, ill never learn if i dont do it myself, i cant stop, its just too hard, but good news is i havent cut for a few days now.

[JackHb]

I dont know how you feel but im not being insensitive but Self-harming is a form of Attention seeking

Look i hope everything works out for your though

That is not true, many self harmers do not go around showing there wrists to everyone, they will cover them up and try hiding them.
If they are doing it for attention seeking then you need to ask yourself why, they must be calling out for help to be doing that.
Unless they are just that pathetic to do it to try and get attention and there is nothing wrong with them.

[Embean]

Do you really think suicide is the answer? Well if you do .. I can just tell you. Your wrong! Like many people have said, your family would be so hurt if you did. Its a really selfish thing to do, I know I may sound mean saying that but its the truth and one time you have got to face it. It may seem like your life is wasting away, but because your young. You won't understand how much you have got ahead of you. I used to self harm myself, I was only 14-15 .. but I had to face what would happen to me in the future if I carried on. You need to get help, you said the pro quit on you. But have you been again? Have you had a different doctor? You need to seek help immediately. Try calling childline, read magazines, they can help. Send in your problem to the magazine, they will say all the same things we have said on this forum. So do the things we've told you. Your going to blow your self esteem right down to 0 if you carry on putting yourself down. When you eventually get to go back to school, hold your head up high and don't let them bullies taunt you or whatever the pathetic children are doing. Tell your head or a teacher in a private room, where nobody else can bother you at school. Somewhere where you can actually feel safe to let out your history like you have on here. They WILL understand. Join a group, go to clubs. If you have an activity outside school that can take your mind off all the things that have been happening to you. Try buying a punch-back or have something that you can smash up time and time again, to release your anger if you have any to let out. It really does work, trust me. I've been there, I've done that. Talk to your mum about how you feel, shes your mother, she will understand. Tell her all the affects that can happen to her if she carries on drinking, and that its really upsetting you - your thinking that something bad could happen to her if she carries on. Because deep inside, I'm sure thats what your thinking. When you join groups or after school clubs [e.g Youth Club] there will be more people there for you to have a chat with, get to know people. You will make friends more easily that way. So hold your head up high and look on the bright side of things. I really truely, hope I helped. Good luck! -Emmy <3

[Arisham]

Well, I am glad you have re-thought your decision -Illusions.
Your next aim now is to try and stop cutting yourself and you said you have not done that for a few days, well done. To be fair, to stop addictions, you normally need encouragement. I am also glad that you and your mum have come to understandings with eachother. Going through what you have gone through is the worst thing is a teenager's life. In your first post, you said something about being called a mistake. Well, that term used in that context was out of order and very self-fish.

I dislike some of the posts made from some users, about the attention seeking and "I don't care if you die". I guess it shows that some users here don't have respect for others. Although they may be your own opinions, they are better off in your head than one a forum!

This sort of reminds me from the US move, "Thirteen", which is about a girl who goes through many changes and has this scenario like you did. I leave one message and that is that...

"No matter what situation you are in, bad or worst, you don't think upon the decision of taking your own life but live your life not by the past but by the present in which you will overcome the bad situation which haunts you".

Remember the famous quote and you will overcome everything. My respect goes out to you -Illusions.

[eggd2]

suicide is contagous

[sarey]

thats... thats actually a very good quote... and sayin im a mistake isnt selfish, as my mom tells me im a mistake. my sister says the first 2 years without me were perfect, and im responsable for EVERYTHING that goes wrong. Ur post was... comforting Arisham, thanks.. anyway, im going to my dads house for a break tommorow/today, so that should do me good, but all depends, hes still the brainwashing lying stealing cheating father he always was.
Bye everyone, ill post next monday when im back and tell you how it went <3

[baby-wabbit123]

suicide is jus a sign that you are week

you say that your mum has alot on her plate and you dont want to bother her but jus think how she would feel if she lost you aswell!!!

you dont want to give her more stress because if you commit suicide now then it is just selfish !

if you want to fight the depression and if you want tohings to get better then your gonna have to stay strong and ask for help and accept any help that you are given

look i hope it turns out ok for you and please dont take your life because things will get better!

xx

[NIKKEE]

woof
we still going over this? :P
thought everything was ok
gah
suicide doesnt mean you're weak
don't kill yourself
blah blah blah
look at us on a forum trying to help
blah


LIVEEEE :]

[sarey]

Well.. im not going to broadcast what i did last week, a couple of people know, but one seen it happen, but im alright, im doing a bit better than before, im getting help too. :) So im glad about that, we can stop posting now, this is like a month old or something. lol... anyway take care all, cya.
Post if you want to reply to this, not anything else, because its pointless, im getting help, and i thank you all for encouraging me in a way. Even though the recent incident clenched i needed help, and i did so, and everyone realiesed my true feelings, and everything.
So now my mom/sister is worried about me, and their ... kind off spending more time with me, and my sister is hugging me, saying she loves me, talking to me more, stuff like that. I think shes more worried than my mom, but i can tell her about my thoughts and selfharm because she understands me better than my mom. :)
Thats a plus.
Well, i should get some sleep, or try too, sleeping patterns are ruined once again. :( Bye.x