lust
13-09-2006, 12:34 PM
i'll start at the begining.
in year 8/9 i was ill alot [& yes i was actually ill], i missed a hell of alot of time of school which made me get far behind, when i actually went into school i found it very difficult to catch up & i couldnt handle going in, so i didnt also i was having problems with my best mates at the time, so it made the sitchuation worse, to top it off, i didnt want to go in due to family problems at home, as stupid as it sounds i was scared to leave my mum at home alone [i wont go into it]. the problems at home have got alot better and thats no longer a problem. at the end of year 9 i wanted to leave my school to start a fresh somewhere else but y'know what its like, i never actually found a school & im now out of school.
now my friends, i do have friends, but being out of school i don't see them/speak to them as much as i should/would like to. its hard to see them aswell as they live quite far away. i have friends out of school but they dont really live close. [i basically live in the middle of nowhere, kinda]
also i have a bit of a self esteem problem, im quiet, shy, i have no self confidence, i hate the way i look. and that problems just getting worse, i dont actually like going out because i basically look awful. :/ and thats kinda stopping me from going back to school as i dont wanna start a new school where i dont know anybody.
this wasnt really a thread asking for advice, well it was it was kinda like asking for tips to get my life back on track a bit & maybe some suggestions of what i can do during the day until i go back to school as being at home if really driving me mad, i havnt left the house for about a week now "/.
in year 8/9 i was ill alot [& yes i was actually ill], i missed a hell of alot of time of school which made me get far behind, when i actually went into school i found it very difficult to catch up & i couldnt handle going in, so i didnt also i was having problems with my best mates at the time, so it made the sitchuation worse, to top it off, i didnt want to go in due to family problems at home, as stupid as it sounds i was scared to leave my mum at home alone [i wont go into it]. the problems at home have got alot better and thats no longer a problem. at the end of year 9 i wanted to leave my school to start a fresh somewhere else but y'know what its like, i never actually found a school & im now out of school.
now my friends, i do have friends, but being out of school i don't see them/speak to them as much as i should/would like to. its hard to see them aswell as they live quite far away. i have friends out of school but they dont really live close. [i basically live in the middle of nowhere, kinda]
also i have a bit of a self esteem problem, im quiet, shy, i have no self confidence, i hate the way i look. and that problems just getting worse, i dont actually like going out because i basically look awful. :/ and thats kinda stopping me from going back to school as i dont wanna start a new school where i dont know anybody.
this wasnt really a thread asking for advice, well it was it was kinda like asking for tips to get my life back on track a bit & maybe some suggestions of what i can do during the day until i go back to school as being at home if really driving me mad, i havnt left the house for about a week now "/.