Mrs.McCall
24-09-2006, 05:09 PM
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Suddenly I realized what I had already knew self-consciously. It was over, he couldn't love me back. That is when I knew, my life was over.
Starting a new school is never easy, hell it is the hardest thing in the world. I joined Lockston Andrews High in Year 10, I was tense and nervous. My Daddy's job had bought me there and it ultimately bought me to my fate.
"You don't want to be late for your first day" my Mum said, smiling softly. She knew I was nervous, no, petrified. I was dragged away by my fathers work and I had nothing left, no friends, nothing. I traipsed downstairs, the fear hit me. I was pale, I had never known fear like it....
I walked into the classroom and I was left there, I stood staring at everyone and then one boy walked over to me. He had beautiful blue eyes that glistened in the soft morning light. His smile could light a thousand cities, he was beautiful.
"I'm Jonny" he smiled. He grabbed my arm softly and led me over to the table where he and his friends sat, I sat down nervously and they all introduced themselves and I told them about myself. Jonny seemed very interested. He sat, in awe, listening to my every word and I loved it...
Two months had passed now, I was settling in, made alot of friends things were going great. I was even invited to a party!
"I can't go, my parents are away on business" I cried to Jonny.
"Hey, you can stay at mine, so long as you don't mind sharing a bed" Jonny's words were so helpful. Deep down I knew being in the same bed as him was all I had ever wanted since I first saw him...
"That was some party... not!" Jonny joked after we arrived back at his.
"Yeah it sucked really, shame, I was dead excited" I replied laughing. Jonny started suddenly undressing. I sat watching, shocked at his wonderfully toned body.
"Oh you don't mind do you?" he asked. I just shook my head, what I really wanted to do is dive on him...
Jonny and I lay beside each other, I turned around, we were face to face. My heart was pounding, I knew this was my only chance. I looked into his huge blue eyes, they were like pools of love and I kissed him passionatly. He kissed me back, you can probably guess what happened next and it was magical...
"Hey Jonny, are you OK" I asked in school, smiling.
"Listen to me you little queer, come within an inch of me, I will kill you" Jonny's reply shocked me deeply, it also hurt me. He had been so sweet and lovely and then this happened. I asked people why he was in a 'mood' they said he seemed happy, especially since he had just started going out with Aimee. It then hit me. He had a girlfriend, I'd had confused him. I had always been so sure about my own sexuality. For weeks Jonny and I barley spoke and all I did was hate myself and, even more, hate Aimee...
I couldn't believe what I was doing, I was with Aimee of the roof, I had her by the scruff of her collar, people below me were screaming. Jonny was begging me to leave her alone. And then he did something surprising, he made a confession:
"I am so sorry, what we had, what we did was amazing but I was scared. I didn't want to fall in love with you but... I did". I was shocked, I was just so angry still.
"Then why did you go with her?! We could've been special!" I wanted answers and I got one I wasn't expecting.
"We couldn't, I don't love you like I love her, we couldn't of been together, it wouldn't have worked, I'm sorry".
Suddenly I realized what I had already knew self-consciously. It was over, he couldn't love me back. That is when I knew, my life was over. I dropped Aimee on the roof and moved closer to the edge.
"I'll see you in heaven, Jonny, hopefully the Angels will bring us together". I jumped. As I flew in the air, I smiled. I wasn't trapped anymore, I was saved. I fell to the ground, the pain had gone. I could hurt no more.
I hope you all enjoyed that, it was a tragic story which was entirely factual. I look forward to your comments :)
Suddenly I realized what I had already knew self-consciously. It was over, he couldn't love me back. That is when I knew, my life was over.
Starting a new school is never easy, hell it is the hardest thing in the world. I joined Lockston Andrews High in Year 10, I was tense and nervous. My Daddy's job had bought me there and it ultimately bought me to my fate.
"You don't want to be late for your first day" my Mum said, smiling softly. She knew I was nervous, no, petrified. I was dragged away by my fathers work and I had nothing left, no friends, nothing. I traipsed downstairs, the fear hit me. I was pale, I had never known fear like it....
I walked into the classroom and I was left there, I stood staring at everyone and then one boy walked over to me. He had beautiful blue eyes that glistened in the soft morning light. His smile could light a thousand cities, he was beautiful.
"I'm Jonny" he smiled. He grabbed my arm softly and led me over to the table where he and his friends sat, I sat down nervously and they all introduced themselves and I told them about myself. Jonny seemed very interested. He sat, in awe, listening to my every word and I loved it...
Two months had passed now, I was settling in, made alot of friends things were going great. I was even invited to a party!
"I can't go, my parents are away on business" I cried to Jonny.
"Hey, you can stay at mine, so long as you don't mind sharing a bed" Jonny's words were so helpful. Deep down I knew being in the same bed as him was all I had ever wanted since I first saw him...
"That was some party... not!" Jonny joked after we arrived back at his.
"Yeah it sucked really, shame, I was dead excited" I replied laughing. Jonny started suddenly undressing. I sat watching, shocked at his wonderfully toned body.
"Oh you don't mind do you?" he asked. I just shook my head, what I really wanted to do is dive on him...
Jonny and I lay beside each other, I turned around, we were face to face. My heart was pounding, I knew this was my only chance. I looked into his huge blue eyes, they were like pools of love and I kissed him passionatly. He kissed me back, you can probably guess what happened next and it was magical...
"Hey Jonny, are you OK" I asked in school, smiling.
"Listen to me you little queer, come within an inch of me, I will kill you" Jonny's reply shocked me deeply, it also hurt me. He had been so sweet and lovely and then this happened. I asked people why he was in a 'mood' they said he seemed happy, especially since he had just started going out with Aimee. It then hit me. He had a girlfriend, I'd had confused him. I had always been so sure about my own sexuality. For weeks Jonny and I barley spoke and all I did was hate myself and, even more, hate Aimee...
I couldn't believe what I was doing, I was with Aimee of the roof, I had her by the scruff of her collar, people below me were screaming. Jonny was begging me to leave her alone. And then he did something surprising, he made a confession:
"I am so sorry, what we had, what we did was amazing but I was scared. I didn't want to fall in love with you but... I did". I was shocked, I was just so angry still.
"Then why did you go with her?! We could've been special!" I wanted answers and I got one I wasn't expecting.
"We couldn't, I don't love you like I love her, we couldn't of been together, it wouldn't have worked, I'm sorry".
Suddenly I realized what I had already knew self-consciously. It was over, he couldn't love me back. That is when I knew, my life was over. I dropped Aimee on the roof and moved closer to the edge.
"I'll see you in heaven, Jonny, hopefully the Angels will bring us together". I jumped. As I flew in the air, I smiled. I wasn't trapped anymore, I was saved. I fell to the ground, the pain had gone. I could hurt no more.
I hope you all enjoyed that, it was a tragic story which was entirely factual. I look forward to your comments :)