Yazatron
11-06-2008, 09:04 AM
I don't know what's wrong with me. I've had such a hard time for the past six years with my family. And now it's relationships. I thought I found the right guy, lost my virginity to him and then he ignored me for four weeks, so I dumped him but it's only just hit me how everything is falling apart. I had a huge row with my family yesterday and I've had privileges taken away from me and I haven't even done anything severely wrong. They're angry at me because I'm not mature enough and they don't even know me anymore.
Anyway, it's gotten to the point where this Sunday just gone, I've lost my appetite. I haven't eaten a proper meal since then, I just haven't been hungry. I keep crying and I feel like there is a hand reaching out of me for help but no one is there. I know I sound like a whining little emo but I'm in such desperation here. I'm worried about my health because its messing up big time. I feel so exhausted, fatigue. Everything is going slow and looks like a really vague dream. But its unusual for me to not eat because I'm a normal, well-balanced eater and eventually my rents' are going to notice and that'll be another thing to argue about. I've already spoken to them and they just say I'm pathetic. I don't know what to do anymore. Have I got depression?
I still feel the will to live, though I do wonder what its like to die and how people would respond but I'd never do it because I've come so far in life. I was depressed last year to the point where I lost all my interest in all my ambitions and talents but I got back to normal. But now it's all coming back again but in a more harsher form. I still have all my interest in my hobbies (thank God!) but this is getting to me more emotionally. I'm worried about my health.
Anyway, it's gotten to the point where this Sunday just gone, I've lost my appetite. I haven't eaten a proper meal since then, I just haven't been hungry. I keep crying and I feel like there is a hand reaching out of me for help but no one is there. I know I sound like a whining little emo but I'm in such desperation here. I'm worried about my health because its messing up big time. I feel so exhausted, fatigue. Everything is going slow and looks like a really vague dream. But its unusual for me to not eat because I'm a normal, well-balanced eater and eventually my rents' are going to notice and that'll be another thing to argue about. I've already spoken to them and they just say I'm pathetic. I don't know what to do anymore. Have I got depression?
I still feel the will to live, though I do wonder what its like to die and how people would respond but I'd never do it because I've come so far in life. I was depressed last year to the point where I lost all my interest in all my ambitions and talents but I got back to normal. But now it's all coming back again but in a more harsher form. I still have all my interest in my hobbies (thank God!) but this is getting to me more emotionally. I'm worried about my health.