Hating but Loving [Child Abuse Story]

[-=rooty987=-]

[Opening]

I lifted my head, off my tear stained pillow. Yet another sleepless night of tears and pain. I stood up, my legs feel weak, slits in the back of my knee. I stumble in front of the mirror, staring – silently staring. Looking at myself, so ugly, so pathetic. Bruises from what he had done – my father. I hate him – yet I love him.
Razorblades lay on my bedside table, he hurts me – so I hurt myself, crimson blankets
on my bed, crimson thoughts in my mind, such a world of pain…

[Chapter 1]

I stir my breakfast, stirring, stirring, he stands there. Looking at me, full of rage – yet I had not done anything. His demon eyes fixed on me, moving slowly to my breakfast bowl. He slowly hovers towards me, his footsteps – so deadly. I freeze, don’t move, he fixes his hands on the back of my head. My head submerges into the bowl – I can hear him shouting.
‘GO ON! EAT IT!’ He screams. I gasp for breath, but I only inhale milk and cheerio’s. He lifts my head out of the bowl, I feel ashamed, why is he so mad with me? What have I done? Why does he hate me? These thoughts cross my mind everyday.

You guys liked my last story, so i started another. Should i carry on with it?

rate ect

Love Dan
xxx

[Janumz]

Wow, that's fab Dan.. well done.. Yes, I think you should carry on with it =] 10/10

[=Jen=]

Kinda sounds like my dad, cept the cutting thing.
my father. I hate him – yet I love him.

continue it!!!! +Rep

[Jinxxed]

Wow that's great, continue it :)

[=Sean...]

I am really starting to think you are some 37 year old trying to find a "special" friend.

If you are really 12, see a doctor.

[Janumz]

I am really starting to think you are some 37 year old trying to find a "special" friend.

If you are really 12, see a doctor.

He is 12 - I've seen him on webcam and done voice.

And why should he see a doctor? =/

[-=rooty987=-]

I am really starting to think you are some 37 year old trying to find a "special" friend.

If you are really 12, see a doctor.

? I'm 12, and what the hell are you on about?

Love Dan
xxx

[Jinxxed]

I am really starting to think you are some 37 year old trying to find a "special" friend.

If you are really 12, see a doctor.

Actually I think your the one who needs to see the doctor, get your facts right :eusa_hand

[-=rooty987=-]

Thanks people!
Love dan
xxx

WOO 900th POST

[Yayse]

wow!! please carry on with it ^-^ seems brill so far! 10/10

[=Sean...]

Actually I think your the one who needs to see the doctor, get your facts right :eusa_hand
He writes about gay lovers and then one ends up killing himself then he writes about being abused and saying he has razorblades by his bed. He needs counselling...

[Roboevil]

He writes about gay lovers and then one ends up killing himself then he writes about being abused and saying he has razorblades by his bed. He needs counselling...
... Coincidence maybe. I don't think you should continue, love would be a much better thing to write about ;).
Not child perversion.

[Pelfe]

no Way Please Continue Its Brilliant It Shows How Well Somebody Can Write A Story Thats So Realistic Love Rach xxx

[Airbus]

Just another emo story :-\
Add monkeys to it and you can deffinately carry-on.

[Jinxxed]

He writes about gay lovers and then one ends up killing himself then he writes about being abused and saying he has razorblades by his bed. He needs counselling...
Jesus, it's just a freakin story, if you don't like it then don't read it !

[-=rooty987=-]

I'll carry on, these are just stories, not about my life. Do you think Roald Darl won a ticket to a chocolate factory?

[=Sean...]

I'll carry on, these are just stories, not about my life. Do you think Roald Darl won a ticket to a chocolate factory?
You are getting these thoughts, so you must be thinking about it

[Jashmine]

Dude, some people happen to like certain stories? If they want to see how well they write angst or horror or anything like that, they can! A lot of authors write about things they've never experienced. Although they may not make the best stories, they are still good! You don't have to be thinking about something to write about it.

[=Sean...]

Dude, some people happen to like certain stories? If they want to see how well they write angst or horror or anything like that, they can! A lot of authors write about things they've never experienced. Although they may not make the best stories, they are still good! You don't have to be thinking about something to write about it.
First off, a twelve year old writing about gay lovers is different from a professional writer writing about horror stoires. He has also admitted that he has kissed boys in the past.

That last sentence is absolutely stupid. How could you not be thinking about something but know what to write? Where would the thoughts about it be if they weren't in your head to think of them?

[Jashmine]

That line meant: He thinks about something in the sense of writing a story, not in the sense of it being real life.
You read something, like the style and test it out. I don't know if that's what happened, but it CAN.

[Charizard.]

Wow, Another great story, love the emotions and thoughts. Continue it!

[-=rooty987=-]

Look, i don't want my stories turning into bloomin arguements, look, i won't carry on, just to keep the select few happy.
Infact, i shall not write these stories anymore, seeing as it is upsetting people.
Love Dan
xxx

[Jashmine]

Noo, write more :( I love it.

[-=rooty987=-]

I dunno if i should, some people think these stories are about my life.
Next time i'll write about a world of cheese tree's and roads made of muffins, and see if people think if that's about my life aswell :rolleyes:
Love Dan
xxx

[Jashmine]

:o NoNo, that's MY life...
Keep writing what you write best xD

[-=rooty987=-]

The sun shone over the tiny village, the cheese trees swaying the candy wind. I skipped along the muffin roads, I leant out, and took a chunk out of the cheese tree, it tasted so good.
This is the story of my life, cheese trees, muffin roads and sherbet candy wind. WOOOO.

Isn't it great ^_^

[Jashmine]

Sherbet candy wind!!!!!!!!!!!
-dies-
Im jealous :( I wany muffins cheese and sherbet.
What about coke? Do they have coke rivers as well?!

[-=rooty987=-]

I am glad that the people that were trying to be smart have shutup. Anyway, they have the write to post opinions, but people don't need to argue over my story.
Infact, people are trying to tell me to go get help.
Hope you 'smart' people enjoy my candy story, and as you might say 'YOU'RE 12 YOU SHOULDN'T BE WRITING ABOUT CHEESE TREES!'
Love Dan
xxx

[=Sean...]

Here's something from your profile

Location: In a world of dirt and hatrid. ....




It bothers me because you write everything in first person point of view. When someone writes it in first person, they are placing themself in the story. Try writing in third person if you want me to stop thinking that you are a demented 37 year old. You wrote about a gay love story in first person, you admitted you have kissed boys, and you have wrote a story that includes child abuse? What's next, you admit you are abused?

[-=rooty987=-]

The reason i write in first person, is because it makes the reader more interested.
When you say, i hate you, it grabs their attention. I find it easy to write in 1st person, in all my stories i write in this way.
Love Dan
xxx

[!star--girl!]

Skibs. ignore them if they think it's about your life.
Your writing is great so keep on with it!

Please?

[-sFusion-]

keep going! 10/10

[FrozenWhisper]

... Coincidence maybe. I don't think you should continue, love would be a much better thing to write about ;).
Not child perversion.
I dont mean to be mean but he's writing about stuff that happen everyday. Not all stories can be happy ever after stories.
Also for the guy that said if you write in first person you are writing about something that happend to you. I wrote a Rasmus fan fiction bout a girl called Lola Rose with long black hair falling in love with (yummy) Lauri Ylonen.And belive me.I might want it to be but my life is NOT like that. :( anyway 10/10 pleassssse keep writing.
Oh and I've kissed a girl.BUT IT WAS IN DAREDEVIL.