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Jazz
15-11-2011, 07:46 PM
Urm well, i'm not good at explaining my situation short-hand so I will just kinda explain.

Over the last few years I was bullied quite badly by people at school, this started to really get me down at school. Then in year 10 my parents split up, thiscompletelybroke me inside, and I started to get really low, I never had concentration and I got quite violent [Not with people, with myself and stuff]. Over the last 2 years I have gotten worse and worse, I now don't tend to leave the house and refuse to go into college. I also get so anxious I start to think that there are people watching me, I cover up anything I can see myself in (Mirrors, windows.. etc) and just panic all the time. I'm either so low, or flip out and be overly hyperactive all the time, so I can't really balance my feelings out.. there either one extreme or the other.

It's so hard to cope at the moment with college and all these things going through my head, I just don't know how long I can handle it anymore.

I don't know how to explain it to my parents.. they really don't understand. My dad never talks, and never shows any form ofemotion and he wants me to be 'normal'. he doesn't let me wear hats outdoors, because they look silly and he thinks the feelings going through my head are just teenage hormones.. even though now i'm on medication for it (they don't seem to work very well) and I have to go and see these people once a week for my psychosis. But I can't speak to my mum either, she makes such a fuss over everything, she has issues like mine withanxiety but she refuses to take medication, or try and get help.. shes also likes a drink. I don't know who I can talk to, if I can't talk to my own parents.

I also haven't told them that my gay, which is getting on my mind even more!

Does anyone have any advice on how I could explain to my parents, or tips on how I can control my anxiety/depression?

Its pretty hard posting this but I think that its time I tried to get some help by people of a similar age who have maybe experienced similar situations etc, rather then trained people who don't understand that well.

+rep for any good advice etc

Jazz ~

beth
15-11-2011, 08:01 PM
i really think you should drop samaritans an email www.samaritans.org a lot of people think they're only there for suicidal people but they're great to talk to and offer unbiased advice. i would also suggest going back to the doctors and discussing yr dosage, if it's not working they have to up the dose or change the medication. finally, just as a bit of advice: however bad you feel, try not to let it affect yr education.
i was really low at one point of my life and college really changed my life for the better. so however hard it may seem, push yrself towards that goal. yr education is everything.

also i think before you make any decision to come out to yr parents or whatnot, i would recommend emailling samaritans or talking to the doctor and getting yrself sorted. you don't need such a big change in yr life (yr parents reaction towards you) when everything else is up in the air.

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