depression

[Gina]

loads of people use the term depressed in everyday like uno like ugh feel so depressed
or u look depressed

would u say uve ever been depressed
or diagnosed with depression or self diagnosed

when does it change from being sad to depressed

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[buttons]

ya ive been depressed, through ages 14-20 i would say
im loads better now i think im recovered at least 90% i do get relapses but much better at managing it
don't think i was ever actually diagnosed with it, i was diagnosed with BDD and social anxiety but have been told i probably have depression, i never went back to my gp after that tho to discuss it further or anything, but i saw my medical notes last time i was at the gp and it says i have a history of depression so idk lol

idk how to explain depression though, like you can be sad but it usually only lasts a few days but depression lasts a lot longer, like i say it lasted YEARS for me and it was basically a manifestation of all my negative thoughts and experiences in life just one thing after another got to the point i basically didn't see a future for myself, not just in a sense of wishing i was dead, but i just couldn't see what my future would look like, if there would ever be anything positive in my life, nothing to look forward to, basically no optimism or hope for things getting better. like the world wasn't made for me to be happy etc. difficult to explain i guess but it was a mix of just nothingness sometimes and other times overwhelming feelings of dread, sadness every minute of every day. but everyone experiences it differently i think. i also wouldn't take care of my appearance or try to improve my life in anyway because i didn't see the point, everyone would still hate me anyway and i didn't need grades since i wasn't going to live long enough for a job. shit like that. it's really really difficult to get out of that mindset when you're in it. feel like i wasted 6 years of my life basically where i could have been doing amazing things meeting amazing people.

[despect]

I have been depressed and I have been diagnosed as depressed, I still take tablets for it now so yeah. I was first diagnosed with depression 6 years ago when my nan died and it just got worse from then. It's like every negative thought you have in your head becomes such a big thing and it makes you feel so shit for so long. I'm not even ashamed to say that when I was at school I was bullied so much about things mostly my sexuality.. It was weird because I didn't really know I was gay I just knew I was "different" to everyone else but anyway I was bullied for so long and it really made me hate myself and I hated other people too so as you can imagine I've always had confidence issues but now I think back I'm I wouldn't say glad it happened but because of that happening it made me stronger in the long run because people making fun of my sexuality made me realise who I was and how I wanted to live my life. It gave me that boost that I needed to be myself no matter what.

My depression has also made me realise that I wanted to help those with depression and going through dark times and make them see that they aren't alone, hence me working in mental health now.

Life story right there.

[Empired]

I was diagnosed with depression but the thing is I wasn't sad I just felt nothing. Was never particularly happy, sad, angry, anything. Just kinda went on existing.

I don't know what made me better but there was just a point where I was like hey I'm ok now. So I must have improved gradually until I finally noticed once I was much better.

[Cerys]

Yeah I had a whole bunch of problems but nothing was ever officially diagnosed. Even tho i was in a proper critical condition at my worst point I was failed by the system and never got any sort of help. (They couldn't decide which council should help me so at first wakey city council were like no u need to be at leeds so I got sent off to them, but then they were like nah its wakey for u so I got sent back. Kept on going for a few weeks until they told me they could do nothing lol)

I dunno when or why I got how I did like I couldn't even begin to explain it now. I do feel almost better though but every now and then I just get so down and think nah this is just a lie this isn't how I truly feel, like I'm just hiding it so I don't put my fam through it all again. I dunno tho only time will tell ! !

[Nick]

nope not depreesseedd

[Sho]

i was diagnosed with depression when i was 17. i think where i am now is as "better" as i will ever get, though. my depression is caused by abnormal thyroid hormone levels so the meds i'm on to treat my low thyroid activity, in turn, controls my depression too.
jennifer's post pretty much sums up what i went through before my meds along with locking myself in my room and avoiding everyone, pushing friends away to the extent they gave up on me etc.

[Chris]

I've not been diagnosed with it ever. I can't imagine what it's like either, if it's anything like it's portrayed on soaps then it seems awful :(

[-:Undertaker:-]

think i'm nearly always depressed lmao, been like that since 16 or 17

just gets worse when i have nothing to do

[nat965]

Never been diagnosed with depression, but I do feel it may head that way in the near future.

[Shar]

I have relapses from time to time but I'm so proud of myself each time I manage to get through it. It's never easy.

[Prosiary]

Diagnosed, finding it hard to manage it along with my anxiety, in the middle of therapy which I haven't felt an effect from yet though.

[despect]

Diagnosed, finding it hard to manage it along with my anxiety, in the middle of therapy which I haven't felt an effect from yet though.

From what you told me before it should be going on for longer and it should if it does go on longer start taking effect. Sometimes it does take a while but it will happen!

[Futz]

I'm not sure, I'm reluctant to call what I experience depression because I wouldn't want to wrongly compare it to people who know they have depression.

My experience with the closest thing to depression is that a feeling of nothingness/void comes and goes every few months for me since I was like 16. Before that, I feel like I was just happy being a kid.

For a few months I'll be what I deem my normal self, I'll have positive and negative experiences but I'm overall just content and okay, I can react emotionally to events with a range of emotions like anger, happiness, sadness.

But then the next few months I'll feel just indifferent about everything, it's kind of like a feeling of nothingness, a void, like you're not really a full person and you need that to be filled to go back to being okay and actually feeling anything. This feeling makes it extremely difficult to do anything you know in your head you want to do but you don't have the mindset or the motivation to do it.

It's annoying because it'll make me stop doing things I love doing, I like recording/editing videos, riding my motorbike, play guitar, playing video games, be good at my job/put effort into my uni work, watch series I love and read books I enjoy. When I start feeling empty inside, that seems to stop and I just end up on my laptop, staring at a blank browser.

At the minute I'm starting to feel okay again after feeling pretty dead since last August so I've started getting involved a bit more.

I have to say though, my friends are some of the best though and we all experience some level of this every now and then, we're all supportive of each other and do our best to get each other out of the dark.

I think the main thing that makes it manageable (for me) is that I know it will pass and I'll go back to being okay. Unfortunately, this sometimes isn't the case for some people and I think it's good to find someone to talk to/get help.

xx