I know now not to look up to people as much. Like I really support them and then behind my back they like diss me and stuff. I like help them and everything but they act like I'm just not good enough to be there friend .. *Sighs* I won't get anywhere in life at this rate. It's time for me to depend on myself instead of depending on friends that might just leave you hanging in a tight situation .. Well I guess I'll have to start depending on someone esle .. And I gotta' hang on to my temper .. If I can't do something I get all pished and stuff :(. If I keep doing this I won't get anywhere in life I guess .. Man life's so hard .. and easy when you just enjoy it. Well any advices for me on making some friends that you can actually not worry about getting dissed behind your back? If I let my guards down ONE second , I get dissed or stuff , man , I really have to stop this stuff , I guess I have to be patient in life .. Well , I really need advices .. After I found out someone I was supporting and looking up to doesn't even care about me .. Well send your advices in please! :) .
