My excuse for a life. Part 2.

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30-11-2005, 08:14 PM
Revis

My excuse for a life. Part 2.

http://www.habboxforum.com/showthread.php?t=113951 - Hmm, thats part one of my excuse for a life, I decided to update you.

I wrote that 2 weeks ago, I haven't cut myself for 4 weeks and haven't smoked for 6. Of course that has all ended today. After having a ciggie with a girl I used to go out with, we kinder kissed, I got home and regretted it and took a knife to my arm...

This was because, on monday, I split up with my girlfriend. Sure we loved each other but we we're making each other depressed. She started it by finding reasons to hate herself and I got ****ed off when I couldn't help her. So I ended it, I hope we stay friends though. Another reason we split was because I was talking to someone else who was making me happy, stayed up till 1:30 talking. I hated myself for liking her more than my girlfriend.

I told this girl what I thought on Tuesday, she felt the same and we kinder agree'd that we'd wait a week then we'd go out. I felt like **** after kissing my ex because I didn't want to upset her, but I didn't want to upset my ex either.

This really ****ed with my head earlier, I really hated myself for potentially upsetting one of them, and if any of my other mates found out they would probably think I was an utter ******. So I explained what happened to the girl I liked (maybe not the best of ideas, but better to be honest.), I just don't know what to say to my ex.

Apart from that my life has been pretty sweet, I haven't been throwing up, I had a huge snowball fight on monday night. Just I'm in the same position, liking 2 girls and not wanting to upset either one...

Don't think i've missed anything. I think my best mates girlfriend likes me, which isn't my fault but he probably thinks it is...
30-11-2005, 08:32 PM
Rebuild

I feel sorry for you. <3

Your story shows that your a caring and honest person. You shouldn't harm yourself in any way though. You just need to decide who you would be better with.

As you can tell, I'm not good at giving advice, but try and cheer up and do what you think is right, :)
30-11-2005, 08:54 PM
Revis

I think i've sorted some of it out, atleast I hope I have. Just alot of people will be disapointed at me because I went 4 weeks and *****ed it all up...
30-11-2005, 10:17 PM
Ziploc Bag

stop swearing
01-12-2005, 05:39 PM
Revis

Quote:

Originally Posted by Ziploc Bag

stop swearing

Why do you have a problem with it, it's blanked out so you can't read it. We're old enough to be able to use what language we want...
01-12-2005, 05:43 PM
beth

Eurgh mate seems like you're having a bad time right now.
Just remember whatever happens, it's not always gonna be your fault.. so don't hurt youself.
And although Im just a username behind a screen if you ever wanna talk/ need help just pm me <3
01-12-2005, 06:01 PM
Revis

I think it's all sorted itself out today, nowhere near as bad as earlier in the school year...
01-12-2005, 06:38 PM
Adam$

Meh. I know how easy it is to do something stupid when you're in a bad mood/upset. I've done it many a time. Anyway hope you're alright Lee.
01-12-2005, 07:17 PM
FrozenWhisper

Quote:

Originally Posted by Propergander

I think i've sorted some of it out, atleast I hope I have. Just alot of people will be disapointed at me because I went 4 weeks and *****ed it all up...

Awww good luck with everything. I haven't cut myself for atleast 5 months and it's great. If you must take an ice cube and put t on your head or somewhere when the feel like cutting yourself.