Just started my new job - feeling down

Feel like i need to vent some of this cause im feeling extreemly crap and no one i talk to seems to be listening to me.

I started my new job on monday as a care support worker in a mental health hospital and it was all good on monday but on tuesday i started feeling down and generally not happy.
Now working my second night shift tonight and I really don't want to go in, I don't even know why i feel like this.

I think the thing thats getting to me most is the fact that as it's a Hospital i've got shifts for all times of the day, and it's really messing up my social life, i'm having to miss thing's i do on monday and wednesdays (rehersals for the panto im in - Aladdin) fridays - when i go out with my Mr, I've not got no time to see my boyfriend, and thats really effecting me aswell as the fact i've got this feeling im going to loose him cause I'm not going to be able to see him, and if I did loose him I really wouldn't be able to bare it, I don't know what I'd do.

I've lost him before and it tore me apart, the weight dropped off me, i began drinking on a daily basis, and it wasn't small amounts, it was in excess, and I was just generally ready to give up.
I really don't want to get like that again, I don't want to loose him due to a job and if I did i'd never forgive myself, i've suffered from depression before and it kinda feels like im falling back into old habbits and I don't want to go there again, it was the worst time of my life, but i know if I did suffer from it again, this time i'd be ready to just quit and give up on everything and everyone.

I've really no idea where im going with this tbh but I just need to get it all written down, get it off my chest like.


URGHHH i just feel so damn crap :(

If your job is making you feel this down, then i'm sure you know what to do, leave. But maybe your boss supervisor could change your shifts or something?

well quit then :S

if you're a gay teenager and that dependent on someone, mentally and socially, then you may as well commit suicide now chick xx

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Originally Posted by Virgin Mary

if you're a gay teenager and that dependent on someone, mentally and socially, then you may as well commit suicide now chick xx

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Aye, so much for the "Virgin Mary".

seriously, there is being in 'love' and all that, but when its at the point where you practically want to kill yourself, drink excessively and crap like that when you aren't with someone, you really need to take a look at your life :\

Well, its down to you, you can ask for your shifts to be changed to hours which are better for you or leave but if you are going to leave then I would find a job and then leave so that you are not left without and money, so therefore you will always be working. Stop working 2 or 3 days before you start again. Hope this helped.

Lol. hahah

Edited by Wayne (Forum Moderator) Please don't post pointlessly.

quit

or

continue with work.
maybe u can make some time to see ur bf over the weekends.
jobs does that to everyone. u just need to reschedule and get used to it.