Serious lack of motivation

I hate posting personal stuff on here and I rarely do but felt the need for a rant.

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Last year I dropped out of sixth-form during the Christmas holidays so I never went back. Between December and February I wasn't working or at school so I had little to do during this time as my friends were all at sixth-form. My sleeping pattern messed up and I wouldn't be able to sleep until 3am at the earliest. In February I got a a part time job and obviously this gave me something to do but my sleeping pattern was still ****** up. Now i'm back at college and just can't see the point in it.

My sleeping patterns gradually getting worse again (I managed to improve it to a somewhat more reasonable time between September- December) and my college are threatening to kick me out. It's not as if i'm getting poor grades or anything (i'm getting A's and B's) but my attendance is ****, something like 60-70% and i hate going in, the only reason I do go in is so that I can get into uni and move out of my house. Right now I should be writing an essay which is due in tomorrow, but i haven't started it yet, instead I went out to a meal with my friends using money I borrowed off my parents.

My College 'friends' (I don't actually like any of them, only hang around with them so i'm not alone when i'm in college as all my friends go to my old sixth-form or different ones) joke around because i'm never in college and they say that i'm going to fail, but i literally get better grades than all of them when they have 90%+ attendance, this makes me feel even more like i don't need to go in to college because i'm getting these grades with my ****ty attendance so why go in all the time when i can miss days and still get an alright grade? I literally don't see the point in anything now.

I am also facing this, my Xmas holiday started a month ago and I can't go to bed any earlier than 2am.

I just tire myself out during the day, go for a long run or something.

you might think it's alright that you're getting "good enough" grades but that doesn't matter. i know with my college they are constantly checking your progress and that includes attendance, you probably just don't realize that. even if you're doing as well as you should, your attendance is extremely important.we have to have high attendance if we want to be recommended in to university but i'm not sure if that's the same for you. why don't you see a point in going? do you even like the course? if you find it hard to start an essay while in college then you're most likely not going to be able to cope with university. if you really want to start doing well in your course (which doesn't seem to be the case) then i would personally start by giving myself a schedule of when to do work and stick by it but that's me, if you really want to do well then you will. how long is your college course anyway? think of it as being a small amount of time for what you can achieve in the future. that's all i can suggest really, it's what gets me going through, knowing that if i do well i can finish my degree and have no regrets. you say "i literally don't see the point in ANYTHING now" but also say you don't see the point in college so i dunno whether it's actually going to college that bothers you or that you can't be bothered doing anything in general. if that even makes sense.

You won't get far on GCSE grades alone nowadays. Push yourself through college, it's not a long time in the grand scheme of things, and then re-evaluate what you want to do. You'll be in a far better position once college is done with, a lot more jobs will become open to you, heck, you might even want to go to University do a course you love. You should probably work on improving your attendance and overall involvement with your college though, at the end of the day, they'll be the ones writing your reference for a job or University place when you're finished.

And, you're young, sleeping patterns mean **** all. Here at University it's not uncommon to go to bed at 3 or 4am to be up for 9am lectures.

I think you're thinking too long term. You need to get to uni and that's a long time away (even longer if you're AS, sorry I don't know). I think you need to start setting yourself short-term goals that will be able to keep you motivated. Reward yourself and don't do the thing you're going to reward yourself with until you've achieved the goal. e.g. 80% attendance = go out for dinner with friends

Just think getting A's and B's now what your grades could be if you pushed yourself that little bit further. Your friends with their 90%+ attendance getting their B's and C's would almost certainly be getting D's and E's if they had attendance around the 60-70% mark.

The only way to really get any sense of motivation to work hard at college is to have an ambition, something you want to work towards. Do you know what you want to do at university at all?

I agree with Mike, you need short-term goals, perhaps start with attending lessons more or something?

Hahaha. You're just like me. I have serious issues with procrastination, my overall attendance in uni so far must be around 70%, probably nearing 50% for some modules. I just find it easier to work at home and I get more done. I disregard a sleeping pattern. I just go to bed when I get tired, which for the past three days has been 7am. I'm not particularly on top of my work, but I'm not behind either. Somehow I get by though. I had a gap year before uni, and it was just a disaster. I couldn't get a single job I enjoyed and my life was just going no where. Education is so important these days and I never want to go back to those dull days of nothing. Just set yourself a goal, find yourself a dream, and work towards it.