Originally Posted by Will
I'm sorry to hear about all them. I lost my mum in 1994 through heart cancer and my dad in 2000 to a car crash. My Grandma on my mum's side died in 1992 and my grandfather on my mum's side died in 1970 so I never knew him. I felt suicidal for years on end but my uncle was my lifeline. He took me in, aware of my mentality (after the crash in 2000 which I was a part of). For 3 years I never understood why he died and I didn't. What was really upsetting though was when in 2001 when I was 10 I was going through some of my dads things that he'd left me via the will and I found a letter from my mum to me saying "See you in heaven". I found that upsetting but thanks to my uncle who's done a lot for me over the years, he's given me the will to live and I'm 14 now, 15 in 2 months and as happy as ever, even though pieces of my life are missing. You get over it eventually, but you never feel happy about it. It was my mum's 11 death anniversairy not long ago and that was upsetting too. Anyway I wish you all the best and hope it doesn't affect your life as bad as it did mine. Remember you still have your mum. Hang onto her for as long as possible.