Remember That Newb I Mensioned In 'Did I Do The Right Thing?' ?

Today, I was angry. Very angry.

I was stook without lunch in the libary because I had to wait for my year manager to come and calm me down... something happened today that hurt
me so much, I wanted to kill him, kill Mattew.

After coming to school I hadn't a worry, if Mattew tried to hurt me again or gotten a gang of friends on me, I would've been fine. I went to a boxing club for 5 weeks so they should be running for the hills.

Anyway, at registration my best friend was ignoring and avoiding me, he kept moving tables and the moment the register had finished he rushed to take it back. Something werid was going on.

After a few lessons I went to the libary to check a few things, my group of
friends walked in , and sat on a nearby table. Mattew had come in today, his entire right eye was red and he had his right arm in a cast, I was still not in trouble, he deserved it.

Anyway, they sat down and another one my friends came over to me, I was still angry from yesterday, I was actually about to get up myself and see if he said anything to annoy me.

He came at me very quick and said
"You alright?"
"Yeah...why?" I replied (I will be in purple)
"Just well I heard about yesterday"

I showed him my plastered knuckles from punching him at that moment

"Yeah, I feel sorry for you"
"What you mean?"
"Well Matty battered you din' he?"
"You've gotta be kidding me, that son of a (MODS will I get banned for not avoiding the filter?) *****!"
"Well you've got a black eye you know"
"Obviously I lost sleep from angry emotions during that day"
"Seriously, you got a black eye"
"I havn't Ben..."
"Stop saying that he's got a black eye, he hasn't!" (Some girl said)
"Look if your gonna believe that lowlife then go ahead, I don't care"
"He also said that he went easy on you..."

After that, I immeadiatly rushed towards Mattew and grabbed his casted arm, my temples were red and my breath had been tainted with anger.

My so called 'friends' rushed by and tried to pull me off him, I simply pushed them away.

"Alright, I went easy on you, but that hurt didn't it"
"Shut up ya gay boy" he replied very faintly
"I swear this will only hurt for a second"

I began strangling him, anger begging my heart for more adrenaline. My fists clenched his neck like a raw chicken bone.

I heard a faint "Please" and due to my decency, let him go. He fell to the floor shaking like a scared insect. His cries of pain only fuelled my satisfaction.

"Good job I'm nice"

I walked outside the libary, only to be greeted by two policemen...

I was interviewed until 1:00pm. They came to a understanding that Mattew was using my anger to get me into trouble, Mattew will spend next term in detention completely....

BUT THAT'S NOT THE END

After my anger had taken over and the interview at stopped, I went to registration again. At registration I saw one of my friends on a computer (twas free period) I went over to him and after a very very long conversation about how 'gay' I am... I finnally admitted to him a few things. Here is the most important about the conversation.

"He pushed me, and pushed me, and pushed me... don't you get it.. he threw the first punch!"
"He was only joking... you gay boy you can't take a joke"
"What is it with all the homophobia around Schools"
"Maybe cos your gay?"
"Now your just been stupid, if your gonna believe that waste of skin, go ahead!"
"Yeah but I've known him longer than you, you gay ****"
"ANONYMUS, I don't want to hurt you like Mattew..."
"Just shut up gay boy!"
This was my best of friends... yet he had taken in Mattew's information rather than mine. I was furious, but I didn't want to hurt him, he was my best friend and I knew even if I was angry at him. I could never hurt him.

"Alright then... if your gonna believe some homophobic, agressive and self-centered little ******* then that's fine"
"Alright then, gay boy"
"Ya know what... I can finnally admit something, if you really want me to be gay then I think this is what will shock you"
"What, your actually gay?"
"No, I was going to tell you earlier today, but who cares. I'm Bisexual Scott... now get over it"

CUT TO 1:30PM
Mattew was at the last assembly, some performances and certificates were given out. We saw a slideshow of our time in Year 7... what really got me was how Mattew had learned nothing from the whole incident...

My picture never showed up, but right at the end, RIGHT AT THE END... his picture showed of him smiling, he cheered himself on with his faint voice, somebody told him to quiet while it finished but he resorted to calling them gay again with his grogy and inhuman voice.

So... I've got no friends.. I've got a new form.... I'm angry at everything that hurts me, I can't take a joke... I'm litterally insane (low-level).

What to do next?

No offense but this is quite entertaining; it's like reading a book, especially with all the

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...my temples were red and my breath had been tainted with anger.

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...anger begging my heart for more adrenaline.

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He fell to the floor shaking like a scared insect. His cries of pain only fuelled my satisfaction.

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I can see why all this is getting you angry but it's hard for us to tell whether they were joking or not to make that judgement because we're only hearing your side of the story.

Personally i'd just keep cool for a while - maybe go chat to some other people that you're not normally friends with and move on from the group that's annoying you.

I've discribed it more to let you know how much I am angry with him.

Well it's working - i hate him now too :P

I guess you've seen the other topic?

Yea, i replied in it :P

Hopefully I'll see my mentor the first day we get back from School

i think you better calm down and just avoid matthew, because fighting is just going to scare everyone away, especially if he is stirring it up.

and if its the summer holidays soon then everything will settle down and you'll be able to go back in september with a fresh start.

I feel well upset for you tbh, all you were doing was sticking up for yourself and your sexuality... So you've got no friends? and your in the most trouble...? typivsl.. the bully always gets away ;/. I don't really know what to say apart from goodluck and I hope your friends return to you, or you get more or whatever, with it being the 6 week holidays, it might give them time to become your friend again... although I suppose you having the fight has scared everyone off as said in the post above.. they will be your friend still just scared on the inside...

my advice would be to smash his head in harder next time :)

Well, I would just let them believe what they want. I wouldn't care. I can hang out all by myself. I can entertain myself, I don't need him. Also, you can try & make new friends, people who actually care about you then those annoying little beasts.

Get a knife and stab all of them.
And break Mattew's other arm.
And slit Scott's jugular.
It seems like the only thing you can do.

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Originally Posted by Jõnathan

Get a knife and stab all of them.
And break Mattew's other arm.
And slit Scott's jugular.
It seems like the only thing you can do.

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I don't want to kill the guy...

Though I would hurt him again if he hurts me emotionally.

The fact that you're having to resort to violence is pretty sad. Sort your anger out. I'm not sure how old you are but it seems like you're pretty young, and as such I'm inclined to not only think you're an angry little kid but also that the bisexual thing is just a phase (which myself and many friends went through a few years back), and so the fact that you attacked a kid TWICE over it is just stupid. If you don't like what he's saying then don't talk to him, and as for your friends they clearly aren't your friends and never were so get over it.

Are you classed as a 'hard' guy?

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Originally Posted by FlyingJesus

The fact that you're having to resort to violence is pretty sad. Sort your anger out. I'm not sure how old you are but it seems like you're pretty young, and as such I'm inclined to not only think you're an angry little kid but also that the bisexual thing is just a phase (which myself and many friends went through a few years back), and so the fact that you attacked a kid TWICE over it is just stupid. If you don't like what he's saying then don't talk to him, and as for your friends they clearly aren't your friends and never were so get over it.

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I've always thought of your advice as been very usefull, and that's what I still think.

I've decided to have a mentor over the 6 week holidays to sort out my anger management, and my emotional feelings towards these kind of relationships. During next term, I shall stay away from everyone I have known and proberly find a new group of friends.

EDIT : No, I'm barely a violent child. Just over the past few weeks i've began to change

I know how hard it is to turn away, but it seems like you showed Matthew and others that he really is weak. If your "friends" don't like you, and want to be with him, there's honestly nothing you can do about it. If my friends acted that way to me, I'd be like "F you, goodbye, rot in hell, and never speak to me again".

Though, it sounds like you have some people at the school who can see through the facade Matthew has put up, like that girl who said you didn't get a black eye? Start to look for new friends that are comfortable with themselves, and are more mature overall (basically, look for friends that are girls. Hah.), and let their good qualities rub off on you.

Let go of all the anger you have towards people like Matthew, and his followers, and realise that in the end, you'll be the one living an honest life, and having better friends. If that's not insentive to let your anger go, I don't know what is.

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Originally Posted by Purpleness

I've always thought of your advice as been very usefull, and that's what I still think.

I've decided to have a mentor over the 6 week holidays to sort out my anger management, and my emotional feelings towards these kind of relationships. During next term, I shall stay away from everyone I have known and proberly find a new group of friends.

EDIT : No, I'm barely a violent child. Just over the past few weeks i've began to change

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That seems a good idea, and sorry just read back over what I put and it looks a lot harsher than I meant it to be lol. However I stand by my point that your actions seemed to be going too far, and so yeah I'd completely agree that counselling of some sort will do you good.

I am bare confused.

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Pffft, what I have learnt from this is that this Matthew/Mattew boy is some low socialite chav with loads of self-dignity, yet has no respect from anyone other than other low socialite twits. You have nothing to be worried about, you are dignified, more so than this twit. If your friends take his word, then they're just cowards, scared of either you or him and don't deserve your friendship. A new term and a fresh start is all you need. Good ridence to them.

The fact they call people gay shows they're either hopeful or have the mental word list of an ant.

What I normally do in these situations is just ignore. I go into a selective hearing state and ignore anything going on around me. I find it works, it does when I have to put up with annoying people, like the drunk person on Sunday who I believe was trying to get my attention "/ Maybe that could work for you?

Well, i got a very short temper myself and one thing iv lernt is that thers some people who purposly try and wind you up to see you go off on one.
Maybe thats what your "friends" and this matthew guy were doing.

It sounds hard and i no how stressful it can be when u hav someone in your face and u just want to rip them into pieces but u no u shouldnt and then u just see red and go for them.

Sounds stupid but in these situations now iv just lernt that i got to walk away and be by myself for 10 minutes or so (and usually punch a few walls) but thats better then punching someone in the face.

The thing that opend my eyes is that my cousin who, like me, has a very short temper was out one night and some jerk was calling my other cousin gay and stuff and so his brother just lost it, punched the guy in the face a couple of times. The guy lost his eye and my cousins currently serving 2 years in liverpool prison for GBH
That was a real eye opener to me, he didnt mean to really hurt the guy and even thou the guy he hit is a total jerk whose a known bully round the area. He didnt deserv to be blinded in one eye.

U think that it could never happen to u and that ur in control of ur own fists but it can happen to anyone.
Just last weekend a guy in a near by town to me died in a fight. Just a drunken brawl that sent him topelling and he banged his head in the wrong place and was completely brain dead.

What im trying to say is it does happen and you need to realise that and you need to change.
Like i said, technique that works for me is just to walk away and be BY MYSELF for a bit.

Hope this helps u somehow.

I suggest moving to a new school. It seems like in that school almost everyone is so unreasonable, not just Matthew himself. You will do better in a better learning environment than where you are now.'

You shouldn't have beat him up, but I don't blame you, if I were you, with all the anger in me, I will definitely do the same thing, even worse. Anyway, come to think of it, he deserves it ;)

Woah, that must had took you time, i found it entataing too.But i can undersand why you feel this anger on your plate, i can see you being a lay'd back person. Keep geting it and getting it. and then once being pushed over the top you go mental, This is in a way like me.
Im a and people take the **** out of me, and i take it and take it untill thy push me over the limit that can take and i lash out, and i use my weight too help me and well its them that end up crying.

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Originally Posted by Metric.

I am bare confused.

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I was confused, I was asking for help..

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Originally Posted by Concentric2

No offense but this is quite entertaining; it's like reading a book

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That's what I thought on the first one too.
I won't be reading any more of your stories because damn they're so full of such over the top children's squabbles. He sed dis bout u, omg yh he sad dat bout u nd i dnt lyk u nemor he woz onli jkin u noob!!!!!
That's what it's like. Your school, your friends, your year is proper sad.

Next chapter please... lol this is really likea book! Well detailed ;] and entertaining.

And yeah, Matty sounds like a *****!

"School" By Purpleness.
One boys biography. lol joke.

But yeah, mabye moving schools is a good idea?

Havee you parents not complaind too the school?
Tey must know what have they said about it.

I have moved Schools too many time, I'm not gonna run away from problems anymore. Lol at the Biography joke,

I can manage without friends, I find friends distraction and purposeless.

EDIT : I'm actually not trying to entertain you, but detail my hatred towards Mattew Cave

Also the next 'chapter' should be when I return from School.

If you want entertainment, I suggest you keep watching Articles And Stories section next week, as I finish Enter The Alphabet and begin a chilling horror.

You'll get some friends :) - You will need them.

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Originally Posted by e5

You'll get some friends :) - You will need them.

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Yes but in a School full of skippers and jokers, theres no-one I can relate to.

give me a fight??

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