By the title yeah, you probably think argg not another depressive emo. The answer to that thought from me is no I'm not a depressive emo far from it.
I come on habbox forum, because really its the only place i can come and I feel not embarresed to say what ever the hell I want or which I will log on and find some decent answers to me not requests but "problems". It may seem that all my posts are about me being depressed but no im not depressed or maybe I am? I tend to be a happy boy when it comes down to it. Anyway here is what i logged on to talk about
My Problems.
Well in the family when I try to put a word in to a conversation everyone always interups me, mainly because they think im going to come out with the biggest load of bull. Which is totally un-true I dont speak unless its something which isnt crap. My dad always says what crap do you want to say now? He thinks I talk to much always critising me. None stop critising me, complaining my hair is too long " It shoudnt be that long get it shaved u puff" Wait a minute sorry I went away for 5 minutes because guess what speak of the devil? Came in "turn the ******* music down" I said ok ok yeah i will and turned it of. I said it nice and carmly. "Dont speak to me like that, open ur bloody window get ur hair out of your face and take the **** to the bin" Then i went ok, he went what are you doing anyway on that bloody laptop I said talking about how **** my life is, because nobody in this family will talk or listen to me he goes good. Now omg? That is what im talking about he can be nice when he wants to but ALWAYS critisising me! Always shouting at me for the tiny mistakes I do, always threatening me. I cant handle it because hes my dad and i love him so much but hes driving me mad and its so annoying i really cant bare him. I want to bare him I drive my self crazy because I want to bare him because i sometimes like his compony but I dont know what to think i really dont. My mum? shes fine just stresses and worrys too much but doesnt really bother me. Also which drives me to distraction is I moved house and tbh i hate the area but the house is nice i guess. my old area was so nice i miss it. I never get skallys round my old area I see some or more every day. after school i have to walk the other way now and bump in to skallys. There are alot of other problems but i cba saying them atm. But if i tell my mum my problems she worrys far too much and gets upset etc. My dad says im talking rubbish and wont listen tells me to get out wit friends and he doesnt understand my friends situation and never will understand and wont bother to listen or understand. And ive told my mum she just says " I cant help you im sorry. " Sisters say nothing they dont really understand either. And please dont say ring the little children line they will help i dont want that kind of help. I want to know what to with my life because every day is " Wake up dad in good mood then argument stars he complains about something, we argue he critisises. break between hes in good mood. Im too scared to retaliate and say why should i be happy with you all of a sudden when uve been a complete totall hypocritical uch i cant say what id say because it blocks out swearing but im sure ull know what Id say. I just want to go to uni and study law like i want become a solicitor earn more money than my parents money put together. but i have to wait years and put up with this horrible annoying life. but when im 18 out the door i go. Ill proove my self to my dad. All i can do now is listen to kurt kobain and wait.
