Im confused (not a gay/straight topic)
well, today we went to town (me, and 4 of my mates) and a few hours later we met up with the others. there was this party at this boffins house, and she said there was food so i went.
and we was like having a good time, doing a bit of karaoke, and that, like dancing and stuff, and someone asked me "do you fancy harriot" and i said "i dont fancy her, but she is hot" so we like carried on, then about an hour later that croppd up again, and the girls (5 of them) went out, and i think it was something to do with harriot, and i was like uh oh is it something i've said, but my mate (who is like one of her best mates) said its nothing you've done, so im like thank god lol, and a few minutes later she took me to a corner and said dont say anything, but harriot like, likes you, and im like what. the. ****. like she is the most beautiful girl you will EVER meet, shes 16 next month to, im 14 and a half, so like we went like dancing to the music again, getting somewhat physical, then i sat on the sofa, sylvia (shes like the one who asked me and the one who took me to the corner) sat next to me, and she like done that girl thing where they talk about you, ninja style. and harriot came over and lyded down opposite me, and like took my hand and holded it, i was like oh my god is this real? sylvia was saying she likes your personality because your funny im like woah :8 then sylvia got up and harriot lied next to me on the sofa, i had my arm around her, and i was thinking like, just like, confused.. i dont get it, im nothing compared to her, she is just so dam beautiful. a bit small (height) but wow, and like syvlia said loudly, "right - i think mike and harriot should kiss" im like whaaaaaaaaaaaaaat, and shes just like laughing a bit, but like, syvia asked me do you like her, i went like yeah she is pretty nice and all, and harriot was smiling and all that, and sylvia got everyone out of the room and we had to like get off lol, so i was like.. "hiiii" and she was like "hii" (this is like still lying down on the sofa) but another girl walked threw and harriot was like stay here! and eventually they all came back in, then nik (my other mate) said like "its a bit hot in here, wink wink nudge nudge, you wanna go outside?" im like "ok" he pushed me out the door and sylvia and harriot came out, and we was just like chatting and all, then 10 mins later sylvia went in and again i was like "hii" to harriot and like chatting about stuff, then eventually i just like said it "d'ya wanna like break the ice" and she was like "ok - not like infront of the door tho" smiling aswell, so we went round the corner, and then it just happend. it was a weird kiss, i think she was going straight into tongues :P, im sure i like done bad though lol ( i got an allright when someone asked her, but i think she was like a bit all over the place, in like nerves and all), woow. i can not beleive it. then like we came in hand in hand and we was like you missed it! so they didnt beleive it so we done a quick one again, then soon after, again, and again...
but what i dont understand is,
why does she like me?
like we never ever ever speak at school (i never see her)
shes just beautiful, i dont compare to this
she is superior to me
i dont understand.
and has anyone got any tips on like making and keeping conversation, because im quiet the quiet person on the phone :(
cheers for reading guys,
try to point me to the right direction
xx
