I have a real problem with school.
I don't know what it is that's wrong with me, but I just hate it. It's not learning, it's not that I don't get on with people. But I don't like the people that I'm around there. They're probably fine, normal people, and I act fine around them but I just hate them and I've no idea why. I mean this has really become a real problem for me, I am sitting here in tears it really makes me fee depressed, it's a real confidence issue and although I'm on the waiting list to see a therapist, I ALREADY talk about it to my mum. I feel so too faced and I don't want to dislike people, but every little thing annoys me about them. I hate being at school, and I hate the idea that I will have to eventually go to Uni. I don't want to live a stupid student lifestyle, and I don't want to do the things people my own age do. Sometimes I don't even want to grow up, I just feel constantly truly uncomfortable wherever I am, it's gotten so bad that sometimes I even stutter, not very noticably, but I used to be fine around people.
I don't really know what I want to gain from writing this, maybe people who also feel the same way. Sometimes I feel I'm made to feel that Uni is my only option in the future, but I hate the idea of it, I really do, but I know I'm smart and I can't let myself down. Does anyone else just like staying in and doing things with their family, like ALL the time? Or feel they still want to be a child - I don't just mean act immature. I feel I've not really explained this well, but this has developed over the past few years ever since I started High School, I just don't bloody know what to do.