Originally Posted by
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i've never really disliked someone let alone 'hate' them, i'm more the type to ignore them or forgive and forget. that was until this past year where i've grown to really despise my brother. he truly is a disgusting, vile creature and i let the whole world know because that's what he deserves. i wouldn't wish for anyone to be within 1000 miles of him. people say to move on but i honestly will never forgive him and i want to make his life hell but he continues to live the life he wishes while i'm the one who suffers. i have literally pulled my hair, screamed and given up whatever i'm doing just at the sight of him. he repulses me. if he was out my life for good, which he never will be, then i don't think anything would hold me back but it does. some days i'm just so full of rage at him that it takes over every other thought i have. living with him is enough to drive anyone crazy but i wouldn't ever leave my mum alone with him so i have to learn to deal with it. /lifestory
also i would never wish death on someone or let someone else die even if it mean i would, even if you hate someone the ones who love them don't deserve that pain. & that's why i usually suffer in silence to keep everyone happy. i just hope it's worth it :) at least its given me motivation to not be a **** up and taught me to appreciate people around me so i can actually say "thank you" to him which he really hates