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[Lycan]

Ok,



i am writing this because i need to tell someone, about 40 minutes ago i started crying and to be honest its just got too much, now your thinking that ... oh just another perosn whos found depression but i found it years ago

of course its related to relationships


when i was 14 i had a girlfriend called laura. , laura meant the world to me but she did the following,

- we went out for nine months.. maybe 10 this all happened 3 years ago...

first of all.. he told me she had a mental condition.. several times i had texts at 2 am telling me her parrens weregetting her put in te hosptial . (she had lots of cuts down her arm)

she also cheated on me several times with random stories like

'this guy forced me to kisss him and slipped his email into my pocket' of which i yelled at the person and threatened to kill them

laura was sex obsessed i must add

one time she told me i was dumped, finshed with... several hours later ( begging of course because i find it hard to leave people i really just want to love someone)
she would have me back, she later explained to me that she had a guy downstairs, once she dumped me she went downstairs ... had sex with him came back iup and asked me out again .... that night i recieved a text from her phone from her parrents saying she had killed herself .. or rather tried and was going to hosptial... and that she lovd me... the net day we met up.. and i stole her suicidenote form her bag without her knowing i was mentioned on it of course, the guy she cheated on me with was on it and so was another guy who i hated... she played kissing games with him and i just wanted to kill him

a month on from this i learn that she went out with me for a joke to beguin with but now 'liked me' a week after that ilearned she planned to ditch me by christmas...


few months on she told me she was pregnent, i paniced of course saying test his go to the docotor... abortion this, abortion that .. i wanted the thing gone my problems gone

i hate myself for this know the idea of killing someting like that

finally, when it came to the end of the relationship she was constantly telling me she hated me andcheating on me.. the thing that ended it was somthing lie this


she spent ore time with other boyz , or rather theese 2 boys both had crush's on her.. i told her to choose me or them and she choose them loads of times, one time i got so stressed at her so paniced i threw her to te ground.. which i instantly told her i was sorry for ...

a few days later she got one of the boys to attack me on the way home with a metal chair leg


what you need to no about this is the following she faked it all.

sh was never pregenent she lied to me , she nevr had a mental condition , she lied .. he never cheated on me she lied, she never tried killing herself SHE LIED!!!

EVERYTHING A LIE!!!


i talked to her about 2 month ago and she told me it was all a joke to her


next is a gf called nikki

the basics behind her was she told me she hated me everyday and dumped me once aweek





the reason i'm telling you this is i find it hard to talk about it and never been able to tell people without trusting them to the full

i want to tell you this not for attension but because i just need to let it out, i need to tell smoene, i need to get it out my system and over the last year i've writtent this a thousand times and never clicked submit


ive put this in health and tips because maybe you can tell me the simple bit of advice that can make it all better. i've never seeked any help and i have cut myself before ...


recently ive met a girl called sian, shes on this forum and lives in the same town as me and she means the world tome, i don't thinks he knows how mich she means to me


i spose i'm treating this more like a blog thenanything but i wanted people to no and i don't want them to judge me and to be honest after spending around an hour crying this morning i thought i should tell people,

i'd like to add that i'm always smiles, i never let problems hurt me , i brush them off, i always try making my friends smile and be happy, friends i lost after laura told them i raped her and to be honest its finally dawnd on me that maybe i'm pretending it never happened


so overall habboxers... thats me or rather the edited highlights

Thread moved by Nixt (Forum Moderator): from "Health Tips and Advice" as it actually has nothing to do with Health.
Thread moved by 8Freak8: from "Teen Life".

[Cixso]

chris, put the past behind you, forget about them ******s, and concentrate on sian, your a good freind of mine, i dont like to see any of my freinds like this,

you will find somebody chris, who will love you. and will mean it

[RNelson!]

Chris mate never thought you was like this all the times we have fun ripping noobs and you was depressed when I read this I got goosebumps anyway cheer up you got Sian (nice name it's unusual) anyway ye get on with life *Text Removed* the past!

Edited by Mattps22004 (Forum Moderator): Please don't avoid the filter.

[NekkLe]

Relationships as a teenager can be heavy when you have break ups, you sometimes go too deep into the relationship and its difficult to counter that, you just go with the flow.

Havn't you thought about leaving relationships for a while? you don't have to have one, if you feel there making you feel depressive afterwards you should really steer clear of them.

Enjoy your life for what it is and your own way, at our age we should be enjoying ourself and not caught up in relationships.

[Ostinato]

Well it's all over and done with now, so you need to put it in your past where it belongs and move on. You managed to survive it all, so just try and forget and be proud of yourself for being able to cope with so much going on in your life and acting so maturely about it.

I think you should maybe just take a bit of time out from the whole dating scene and concentrate on yourself for a bit. That will allow you to basically sort your head out and decide what it is you really do want. Most impotantly though, find someone who treats you the way you deserve. I'm sure when all that was happening to you with your first girlfriend you knew it was wrong and didn't deserve it - therefore make sure the person your with respects you and doesn't treat you badly.

Also don't worry about posting here. If it makes you feel better by getting everything out - then it's worth it. A lot of people just store things up and never get round to telling people about them, and this way the forum provides a barrier between you and the people you are telling but at the same time allows you to get that weight off your sholdours.

Good luck with your future.

[Lycan]

Thanks, means alot to me that i can tell people ,

the people that they take a break from the dating scene...

Laura was in June/July 2004 to ... Valintines Day 05
Nikki was Summer 2006

and the problem that i've just relised is, i don't think can let it go i mean i bottled it up for so long trying to tell friends and being unable to that it just didn't happen, when i did try and tell friends they didn't belief me

and now its been so long its still bothering me... will it bother me in each relationship i have will it be the downfall of them

love means alot to me, i always feel i need someone to love but i must be one of the shyist 16 year olds about... i'm a big joker and always trying to make people laugh which acording to the bbc site means i'm not dealing with my problems properly


when i was going out with nikki it was during my gcses and i didn't revise and i stayed up all nights just talking to her.. i choose her over gcses and she left me.. i was lucky enough to get 13 c's and a B still , but think of what i could of done!!

i think that i'm not depressed thats i'm just being stupid and i can put a smile on my face again to keep going because of course i'm not depressed. then when i posted that last post it just hit me ... i am, i was pretty much drunk when i posted and i was hoping to let everything go by 2007 and i'm not sure if by talking about them i'm remdining myself of it or finally letting go

anyway, thanks again people.. means alot

[Elequance]

Chris babes, you need to try and move on, and I am here at any time for you.
We've been friends for what? 3 years now? Hopefully you can trust me fully now so you can just share what your feeling with me.
Try not to keep things bottled up, it really doesn't help.

What those girls did you was.. terrible, but don't let them get the better of you.
Sian is a lovely girl and I know she won't hurt you if you two do get together.
Take it easy though, don't go headfirst into a relationship, take it slowly.

Please don't be upset anymore =[
Come and talk to me.

x

[Fonejacker]

They Dumped you... so when they asked you back out why did u say yes tbh alot of girls can be like that, Try to monipulate you and use you... The best thing to do from now on is to just hang around with your mates and have a laugh.

[YoManGo!]

It's your own fault for always agreeing to go back out with them?

[DiscoPat]

It looks like you've been through alot mate.
However hard it is and I can imagine it - all I can advise you to do is forget about all the bad things that happend and just concentrate on the positive things which are in your life, such as Sian.

Now you got me all hyped up to post my life lol. (aint the best you can get)