Heartbreaker

[Pyroka]

Hi,

I just wanted to share this in an effort to get it out of my system (weird mind ano), but I'm quite literally half the man I was thanks to a girl. I met this girl on the internet, and I swear that I had no idea it would turn from love to.. well I'm still uncertain on what. We talked more and more on MSN, and then eventually we met up in November this year. Probably the best weekend of my life to be truly honest with you all. It was hard though because she lives up north, i live down south (250 miles >_>!)

Thing is though, we always argued. I have a few reasons why we did, like how she was so stubborn and I was so stubborn, and how I wanted the best for her and she just wanted to be with me (at the time). I guess though, the main reason was me, and for a pathetic sad reason, it was me trying to keep her attention on me. It sounds sadder than the Titanic, srsly...

Anyway, time flied and we met up in December again, and I stayed at her house. I thought she was the one tbh, I had all money betting on it. Damnit, I was even planning to move colleges and rent a spare bedroom somewhere, maybe even her house because her sister had moved away recently. When we had to leave eachother, I felt like dying but I thought I'll only see her again. When I get home, I'm so distraught that I actually start shouting at her, I start saying things, because I'm so bloody upset about everything. On last Sunday night, I texted her the bane of all evil, and I told her we didn't have a future together despite I never meant it. I'm not kidding, when I say I started hyper-ventilating once I realised what I had done, which didn't take long really to realise. She still thinks I meant it.

On friday, she decides there's "no future for us" and it "doesn't feel right". I try and try and try to bring it back from the dead, upset as I was. Even my ex-girlfriend had to help me because I thought I lost the will to live... I gave up yesterday upon telling my parents what had happened. I actually thought I may be ok after yesterday was pretty good, and my friends comforted me when I was crying inside. However, I get home in the early morning on this Sunday, and I log onto MSN, and what do you think I find? The girl who I thought loved me, after 3 days of breaking up, is now, yet again, with her ex-boyfriend.

I shouted at her so much last night, nothing I'm proud of but something that had to be done. It's like she couldn't say no to him, however she can say no to me so much. I eventually decide to just get out of her life, to stop giving her grief as yknow, she don't need it and neither do I. I wake up this morning now, and I think to myself "No future for us" and "doesn't feel right" (the only things cycling through my head at the moment) and then I realise:

If there was no future for me and her, then why the hell is she with her ex-boyfriend who lives just as far away as me, and is only a month older than me? :S She's 14 by the way, which did make a considerable thought when she said "no future" but seriously, her and her newly ex boyfriend are in the exact situation me and her were for 6 months. :S I just don't see how she can say "We have no future" because if anything, I had it all planned out for sooner than she thought. -.- Confusion, innit.

Now I feel like I'm going to be sick, I feel so many emotions it's hard to tell whether I love her still, or hate her for breaking my heart and then grinding it up. I can't even decide whether I want to be friends with her, despite I thought she was such a nice person. >_<

I don't know why I'm posting all this on HxF, but I just am, maybe for advice on what I could do to somehow cope, or what people think of the situation... Ugh. I didn't wanna mention any names, but some will know her name. Just don't mention it, nor her boyfriend's name who nearly everyone will know if you say their Habbo Name. :rolleyes:

... I dunno

[Breakfloor]

not being nasty or anything, but shes off the internet. from what i read you met 2/3 times?

go out and get a girlfriend you can meet everyday. it will make you feel better and happy when you see her. just dont think of her or her boyfriend and block her on msn. finished.

and unblock me on msn btw (im [email protected])

[Pyroka]

I know she's off the internet, but it just felt right to me. >_< I've always wanted to have a girlfriend I can see everyday, but I'm a sucker for a long-distance relationship & I'm nervous enough... Plus, I can't ask a girl out especially after breaking up with her so soon. >_<!

I'll add you now.

[Breakfloor]

i had a girlfriend who felt right but turned out a total ***** that was taking the ****.

and long distance relationships.. damn, if i thought it would work i would be in one now with this girl i know. and yeh, take your time. nobody expects you to go out straight away after a breakup. long distance or not. it hurts i know. and if your nervous about asking a girl out.. EVERYBODY IS but most people dont show it. everybody thinks "i hope she doesnt turn me down.. i dunno what ill do if she does."

just jump into it. do it even if all senses youve ever followed say NO DONT DO IT!

[WarezKid]

I anit gonna read all that, but i suppose your not over her and you still care for her?


Dude, go out and try and have fun, it helps


I like to go out with my family if i had a problem like this

[Pyroka]

It feels like she was taking the **** now, but she says she wasn't... I just don't know anymore. >_> Long distance relationships can work, just they need backing from both people. She wasn't willing to come visit me down south tbh, so like my parents say "It would've been a one-way relationship". I can relate to that, since it went to the dogs.

I anit gonna read all that, but i suppose your not over her and you still care for her?


Dude, go out and try and have fun, it helps


I like to go out with my family if i had a problem like this

No, I'm really not over her. I'm just not sure what I care for her now. :S I tried to have fun last night and I actually did. It's just when I'm by myself it sucks so much. I can't even go out with my parents because they just screamed at my sister. I think my mum threw the phone at her, lolz.

[velvet]

I can relate to your situation as I was in a long distance relationship for three years, the guy treated me like crap, and I see that now. We used to argue every day for pretty much the same reasons you gave, he also lived up north and I lived down south, and if I wanted him to come down here, my mom would have to go all the way up there and pick him up
He lied to me about everything, about his age and height, but I stayed with him because I was infatuated and naive. But yeah, it all ended after three long years and I felt like I had nothing.
Then I started talking to my friends more, and after days and days of crying I started to see what a **** he was. And after a month or so I was completely over him.

I think she got back with her ex because she was hurt, and didn't want to be alone. She knew if she got back with you you'd carry on arguing, but maybe if she got back with her ex he'd be so happy that things'd be perfect for a while. Generally people who meet thier partners online don't have a lot of confidence and self esteem, (that wasn't ment to be offencive, i'm like that myself) so maybe you're just clinging on to something hopeless, trying to see a future in it because you like the stability of knowing there's someone there.

I advise you to not have any contact with her until you're over her, it'll make things easier, and I don't think you should try and win her back, I don't think it'll do either of you any good.
If you don't have the confidence to meet someone in real life, why not try and find someone online who lives nearer to you?
Since your girlfriend was only fourteen, I gather you're not that old. So don't worry too much about relationships at the moment, you can get by without one as from what you've wrote, you have some pretty good friends there
Sorry about the essay aha.

[buttons]

you may think you "love" someone from the internet, you could be wroong. I guess you did meet up with her, but if she doesn't want to be with you just MOOOOOVE ON.

[Pyroka]

I can relate to your situation as I was in a long distance relationship for three years, the guy treated me like crap, and I see that now. We used to argue every day for pretty much the same reasons you gave, he also lived up north and I lived down south, and if I wanted him to come down here, my mom would have to go all the way up there and pick him up
He lied to me about everything, about his age and height, but I stayed with him because I was infatuated and naive. But yeah, it all ended after three long years and I felt like I had nothing.
Then I started talking to my friends more, and after days and days of crying I started to see what a **** he was. And after a month or so I was completely over him.

I think she got back with her ex because she was hurt, and didn't want to be alone. She knew if she got back with you you'd carry on arguing, but maybe if she got back with her ex he'd be so happy that things'd be perfect for a while. Generally people who meet thier partners online don't have a lot of confidence and self esteem, (that wasn't ment to be offencive, i'm like that myself) so maybe you're just clinging on to something hopeless, trying to see a future in it because you like the stability of knowing there's someone there.

I advise you to not have any contact with her until you're over her, it'll make things easier, and I don't think you should try and win her back, I don't think it'll do either of you any good.
If you don't have the confidence to meet someone in real life, why not try and find someone online who lives nearer to you?
Since your girlfriend was only fourteen, I gather you're not that old. So don't worry too much about relationships at the moment, you can get by without one as from what you've wrote, you have some pretty good friends there
Sorry about the essay aha.

Nothing like a womanly touch. I have a knack of going for girls who live in a certain location, all my long-distances were in a certain region of the north which is tbh, rather... weird. I think I have the confidence, but I'm not one to go up to someone and say "hai, i like you." or do some corny chatup line. Way I do, is it takes time and I actually know them through like a club, a job or something else like that.

Sorry about your bf... that's gotta suck. Mine was only 6 months, so that must've hurt pretty much, but you must've felt something for him to stay with him that long under the circumstances. I'm only 16 btw, so I can earn money to go see her and everything. I'm not offended by what you said about confidence, since I'm really not a confident person. When I get confident, it's noticeable. Maybe it is what you said about not feeling alone, but who knows. :S

you may think you "love" someone from the internet, you could be wroong. I guess you did meet up with her, but if she doesn't want to be with you just MOOOOOVE ON.

She was actually the first time I think I experienced love, and my parents told me that you will feel like she's the one forever... God damnit, they're always right. >_< It's hard to move on, as much as I do want to.

[WarezKid]

To the people who are gonna say,

"MOVE ON"


Trust me girls

it ******* hard ;/