Ever since i began to realise that i had feelings for boys, i accepted my se'xuality and so did all of my friends. But now i've come to the stage where i just want to be straight - and not have all of the questions on my back as i do now. For example if i see someone whispering or laughing when i walk past people in the street - i think "There doing it because i'm bi".
I've become really self conscious. Last year i didn't really care about what i looked like or anything like that, now i can't go out without straightening my hair and i'm always on the alert 24/7 for spots - and i've always got to wear the right clothes when i go out. Basically i'm just getting worn out from all of the pressure to look good.
I'm starting to wish i was straight because i don't want to think that everytime i hear people whispering, they're talking about my ***'uality. I might sound pathetic to some of you, but i just feel so hated for being who i am sometimes. Not by all my friends, they love me for who i am, but for all of those who don't know me.
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