Everythings gone wrong :(

[sarey]

Kai so basically this is whats happened:
My parents divorced when i was 4, my nan died 2 years ago, and i so wish i could join her, ive been diognosed with depression, and im not treated, i have had selfharm for 5 years, i havent been to school for a year and i get physically/mentally/verbally bullied at school, everythings ruined, my sisters school is down the hill, my sister cuts herself now, and she is smoking, my mom is drinking alot, she has depression aswell, my grandads gettin engaged to my nans so called best friend, and shes taking my grandad away from me, I JUST SO WONT TO DIE, i mean i get told im a mistake and that i should just go hang myself, and that im worthless, but i dont know, should I? I mean im just a fat physcotic mental child.
I dont know what to do! Has anyone got any advice
My selfharm has got worse, ive started doing it on my wrist now, and last time i almost passed out, jeez can someone help me! :eusa_wall :s :@

[JackHb]

You should go to a doctor and ask them for some proffesional help. Maybe try visiting sites like teenhelp.org where other people with similar problems will talk to you and proffesional helpers will guide you.
Maybe talk to your best friends in real life and tell them how you feel and they should try and help you.

Have you tried visitng websites or calling helplines?

* Childline
www.childline.org.uk
Free Tel: 0800 1111 (24 hours a day, 365 days per year)
Textphone: 0800 400 222 (9.30am to 9.30pm weekdays - 9.30am to 8pm weekends)
* Samaritans
www.samaritans.org
Tel: 08457 90 90 90 (24 hours a day, 365 days per year)
Textphone: 08457 90 91 92
* Young Minds
www.youngminds.org.uk
Tel: 0207 336 8445 (9.30am to 5.30pm weekdays)
* CALM - Campaign Against Living Miserably
www.thecalmzone.net
Free Tel: 0800 58 58 58 (Daily from 5.00pm to 3.00am)

[sarey]

No, ive tried that, iv had pro help before, they just quited on me, so i stopped all help, and now i just so wont to die

[Lycan]

www.suicideforum.com - there very good... very supportive and they don't give up

[VPSwow]

I agree hope you get it sorted m8

[sarey]

Thanks, thing is earlier on i was gonna commit suicide, but my mom came back from my grandads, so you know,i had to put the tablets away and the rope back in my room. :@

[JackHb]

Thanks, thing is earlier on i was gonna commit suicide, but my mom came back from my grandads, so you know,i had to put the tablets away and the rope back in my room. :@

Commiting suicide is pretty pointless, you need to face your problems and deal with them, as soon as you do that they will get better. Imagine all your friends and family who would be affected if you commited suicide.
I assume your only young? You have your whole life ahead of you, to go to college, get a job etc...

[sarey]

Sure, what friends? *Looks down* Ive got NO friends, my family, well lets see if they will miss me, yeah im young, under 16 but over 12. And suicide aint pointless, its the escape key. Its the ONLY key ive got right now.

[VPSwow]

Talk to your parents about how you feel and dnt take the escape route it seriously is pointless

[sarey]

No suicide aint pointless, plus i only have one parent, my mom, who has enuff on her plate already.