**** life?

[Kieeran]

Personally i thnk i've had a rubbish life. People probably have had worse but i just wna let it all out cuz its rly getting to me

well in 97 my mom nearly died ( my dad had stabbed her leading him to inprisonment and my mom nearly dead ) i remember waking up at 4 being carried out by a police officer at the age of 5 all i remmeber seeing is an ambulance and 3 police cars then me and my bro who was 3 and has autism was taken off to my nans.

2 years later my dad was released. my mom had moved onto another relationship with someone she used to see back at school they split up in 2002 after having a baby with each other in 2000
Right this is the ****** up bit.
My mom was with him at school then he cheated on her so she got with my dad as a rebound THEN i was born. but i wasnt planned because the person my mom went with at skl. she had a one night stand with him n hence i was made. so i've been bought up thinking my dad was my dad but really hes not my biological dad is the dad to my little brother :S so get you head round that. my mom told me three years ago. apparntly he knows hes my dad but he didn wnt DNA tests cause he couldnt bare to watch me go to my dads every week calling him dad.(this is the one who i think is my biological fathr)

anyway more to the present
2 n half years ago my mom met someone else, hes considered a bit of a 'knock' of the area but hes getting older. i dont get on with alot of his kids although 1 whos my age was my best mate 4 years ago so yh. anyway we moved down there last year but due to arguements we moved back out and were moving back down there AGAIN which i dnt want in like a month.
the reason were moving back is because last year my moms bf daughter gave him a call saying com round for a drink my neighbours are doing my head in (along those lines)
So my moms bf my mom, his 2 mates went round there. And then it kicked off. a few fights but then someone ran into the bathroom and locked themself in. so my moms bf mates tried opening door then they booted it open and no1 was there then the brother of the person who ran into the bathroom says " hes jumped " really casually, now u wudnt be like tht about ur bro would u? so my moms bf n tht ran dwnstairs (its a flat) n saw him on floor, they moved him away n phoned ambulance n tht then they got into taxi, 6 days later the man died. blood clot. now my mom, my moms bf hs daughter n his mates are all on a charge for murder, my mom will most likely get off because she had an injury and was hard for her to get up the stairs. so because my moms bf has a good chance of getting locked. me my 2 bros n my mom r moving down there to help look after the house n his kids while hes away. Which is understandable.

glad ive typed all this up u dnt have to read it i just needed to get it out my system there is more stuff but i spose thtll do. ive missed out big chunks, there half stories but everythings true.

[the wombats]

ok i was going to say there's people who've had an harder life, but after reading it, it seems your life started to **** up when your mam was stabbed. it must be hard for you. specially thinking the person you called dad wasn't your real one. hope it all goes well for your mam. just try and support her in everyway possible.

[Bef]

Bloody hell that is a bit of a mess.
Well, i had alot of trouble wid my mam when i was younger which led to me, my lil bro and sisters being put in foster care.
I felt for so long that cos they wer my family i had to love them and i had to put up with it but thats not true. I NEVER see my ma anymore and have been forced to lose touch wit my little bro and sister and yeh it gets me down but i know that theyv got a better life now and i know i have to.
Im living wit my Ma's half sister now and its so much better.
Guess what im trying to say is, you cant help the familys your born in to. You cant make excuses for there mistakes and you need to try and forget about them and get on with your own life.
You make your own future, dont let your past affect it in a bad way.

[Kieeran]

Yeah well thts wt i remember it startiung from anyway/ it's not that hard the dad thing ive got used to and sort of joke about it im the sort of person who hides things n helps others. ppl always come to me with their probs dno why


im not depressed or nothing. just needed to get it out.

[Breakfloor]

well im not going into mine but i have a pretty **** life.

yeh well, good luck and i hope life gets better for you.

[Kieeran]

Im closing thread, didnt really want sympathy or anything lol more time i look at it, makes me think about it. so ugh why did i post it -.-