Depressed.

[Kittyness]

Hey,

K so I've had a pretty bad life. Which only my closest of friends know about, because if I told someone they could take it the wrong way.

But anyway, partly because of this bad thing we've had to move house. And now I live in a tiny village, where there's no shops or anything. Just fields, a few houses and sheep.

So anyway, I had to move school because of right, and this school is so crap you would not believe it! Yeah, so I don't fit in this school, and I seem to be failing every subject since I joined it. And I'm sort of like an outsider at this school. I have a few friends, but none of 'em are in my lessons and I don't think they like me that much. I'm basically a follower of them, but I just don't fit in with them. At my old school, I was more well known. I was friendly with everyone and everyone liked me. But here, it's the opposite. Everyone hates me. I don't know why 'cause they don't even know me. And my school don't even give a damn about our education. They just let everyone mess around and let the kids own them. Which I find is funny sometimes, but not when I'm doing my GCSEs. I don't wanna fail and have a dead-end job.

I just feel really depressed. I shouldn't be. I used to be happy and even though on the outside with my friends I seem happy. On the inside I'm full of so much hatred and sadness. I swear, before all this bad stuff happened I was a much happier, and brighter person.

I feel so depressed and lonely. I don't wanna do anything. I'm 15. I should be happy, going out with friends and be interested in boys. Not sat up here lonely in my room. I wish I wasn't like this. And the worst thing is. The thing that's added to the pressure is that my mum almost definately has cancer. I don't know what to do or who to talk to... I'm so lonely.

EDIT: Sorry about the depressing thread lol

[:Edzy]

i feel your pain

gcses are craaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaap

i'm gonna fail french and german

i just have a mental block with languages

sorry to hear about your mum

i'd say you're doing the right thing letting it out how you feel is right. what i do is look foreward to the summer when everything will be over.

[Kittyness]

Aw, bless. Good luck with yours. I wanted to take French. But my stupid school have this thing where you have to choose subjects from these box things. Pretty crap LOL

[risque]

Well I don't think you'll be failing English any time soon. Personally, if I was you I'd just think positive when there isn't anything to be positive about (as you say), because you can manipulate your conscience into believing you're not unhappy and can eventually conquer your depression. No, I'm not a psychiatrist - it's just a wild guess and stories from my friends & their past experiences.

Maybe you should invest more time in trying to hang out with these friends of yours, even if it means travelling a little longer than you usually would, because it'd probably be worth it. I don't advise joining anything online though, like forums for teenagers in general because they tend to be full of depressed people and that surely wouldn't make you feel any happier.

Just keep your head held high and try and establish the positive things in your life.

[:Edzy]

Aw, bless. Good luck with yours. I wanted to take French. But my stupid school have this thing where you have to choose subjects from these box things. Pretty crap LOL

i'm doing 15 GCSEs which sucks so bad. i was Forced to chose at least one language by my school because i was good at it in year 9

[Kittyness]

Aw, thanks for the advice. I think I'm gonna try and meet up with them more. And go on this dreaded computer less.

I'm gonna try and think more positive too.

Thanks.

[Toughened]

Hey,

K so I've had a pretty bad life. Which only my closest of friends know about, because if I told someone they could take it the wrong way.

But anyway, partly because of this bad thing we've had to move house. And now I live in a tiny village, where there's no shops or anything. Just fields, a few houses and sheep.

So anyway, I had to move school because of right, and this school is so crap you would not believe it! Yeah, so I don't fit in this school, and I seem to be failing every subject since I joined it. And I'm sort of like an outsider at this school. I have a few friends, but none of 'em are in my lessons and I don't think they like me that much. I'm basically a follower of them, but I just don't fit in with them. At my old school, I was more well known. I was friendly with everyone and everyone liked me. But here, it's the opposite. Everyone hates me. I don't know why 'cause they don't even know me. And my school don't even give a damn about our education. They just let everyone mess around and let the kids own them. Which I find is funny sometimes, but not when I'm doing my GCSEs. I don't wanna fail and have a dead-end job.

I just feel really depressed. I shouldn't be. I used to be happy and even though on the outside with my friends I seem happy. On the inside I'm full of so much hatred and sadness. I swear, before all this bad stuff happened I was a much happier, and brighter person.

I feel so depressed and lonely. I don't wanna do anything. I'm 15. I should be happy, going out with friends and be interested in boys. Not sat up here lonely in my room. I wish I wasn't like this. And the worst thing is. The thing that's added to the pressure is that my mum almost definately has cancer. I don't know what to do or who to talk to... I'm so lonely.

EDIT: Sorry about the depressing thread lol

I've recently moved house and it's so stressful. Money problems (for your mum and dad obviously) which somehow end up coming back to us and lots of other things as well can add extra stress on us.

I've never moved school, never want to and make sure I never well. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you. Trying to make new friends but still keeping in touch with you old friends. Just trying to fit in must be difficult. I know when new people come to out school we're not very welcoming and they always seem to get pushed into the background.

Maybe being pushed into the background might be a good thing and help you get your head down and study instead of being distracted by friends. If you are in the background look at it as a positive thing and don't worry about friends and just worry about your education and work. Also if you're still getting distracted you could try doing some studying at home which may help improve your grades and keep you away from the computer. You could listen to music or something while you do this which might also cheer you up. You could also try something completely different and get a hobby which will also let you mix with new people, as well as doing something you enjoy.

Just keep thinking, you may have a hard 2 years ahead of you, but get the grades and you can go to college/university and make alot of friends there. Then you can also study the subjects you like and share the same interests with other people and hopefully not get stuck in a "dead-end" job and end up with good qualifications.

I hope you start feeling better soon and don't worry too much. Just keep your head held high, get good grades and you'll soon be in college or a new job, meeting and mixing with new people and hopefully you will make some good friends and start enjoying life more !

[Kittyness]

Wow! You totally understand how I feel!

And you're right. I need to knuckle down. Right, school work comes first. Friends second.

Thanks, you really helped me.

[Ras]

At my old school, I was more well known. I was friendly with everyone and everyone liked me. But here, it's the opposite. Everyone hates me.

are you evil to people now? lol - since youre the opposite :b

[chilloutrich]

where abouts are you living? what school is it? i found it hard when i moved where i am now.