My life at the moment...

[Londonboyz]

Well, I was thrown out of my house last April, and I was put into a hotel, I stayed there for three months and was moved into my own property. My dad helped me out incredibly with everything, and gave me all the essential house old items.

On October 20th, I found out my father, had died... I just right now feel really alone. My mate moved in with me the 21st. I have his funeral on Monday and I haven't been upset as much as I should have, although I am thinking of my dad all the time, I don't think right now I am grieving, I read somewhere I am just indenial his dead.

The day before he died, I was round his and I told him I was pissed off with myself and life at the moment, immediantly without question he took me out, and spoke to me and really made me feel happy. I went round to his the next after to say thanks and to give him something and my step-mum told me on the door he died, I burst in and felt in really bad shock.

I just don't know what to do with myself right now, I just need someone to talk to, but I know I have everyone to talk to... : (

My dad saved me, inspired me, and helped me so much in my life, I just don't know what to do...

Damien, Earthquake.

[Blinger1]

If you are feeling really bad (which you sound you do) then maybe you should visit a psychiatrist (i think they are the people you tell your problems to). They will listen to what you have to say

[Nixt]

and to top it all off, you're banned!

I joke..

Your first point of contact would be your GP or Counsellor. You're rarely able to just go straight to a psychiatrist unless you pay for one privately

[Accipiter]

is he full on perma banned?

harsh if he is, i think he should be given another chance, seeing as he is highly stressed & confused atm.

I don't think seeing a psychiatrist for this would help really, in the future when other love ones may die it might effect you more by not getting through it by yourself, and you may just think, screw this i can't handle it and you dunno what could happen.

I think after the funeral the confusement you probaly feel will easy off, but you will most probaly miss him in your heart for the rest of your life which is normal, i know i would never forget or never let go of it.

But just think of all the happy times, if you have photographs look through them, they'll probaly give you the strength to pull through it.

[Meree.]

I see how your feeling. This has happened to me a wide amount of times. I mean, I never got to meet either of my nans, because by the time I realised who they were, they were gone.. Im sure there is many people you can talk to, and alot of them WILL listen to you. I'm a very good listener myself, so if you ever wanna talk, you can talk to me? But i'm sure your dad is looking down on you and making sure your safe right now. And I know for sure, he'll be proud of you. Best of luck with your speech at the funeral.

[Accipiter]

I see how your feeling. This has happened to me a wide amount of times. I mean, I never got to meet either of my nans, because by the time I realised who they were, they were gone.. Im sure there is many people you can talk to, and alot of them WILL listen to you. I'm a very good listener myself, so if you ever wanna talk, you can talk to me? But i'm sure your dad is looking down on you and making sure your safe right now. And I know for sure, he'll be proud of you. Best of luck with your speech at the funeral.

i was born with only 1 nana and grandad left, i was still crawling when my nana died but she was that much of a person i can still remember scenes from her house and toys i use to play with, and even the way the house looked, but she died soon after, i didn't grieve cause i was that young, but i wish i could have spent more time with someone who can implant memorys in my mind from when i was around 2.

my grandad died when i was in year 4, I was being baby sat by my cousin cause all the family where round the nursing home, i got hit in the face by a tree twig i pulled back and got a huge black eye, he died that night and i can't remember much of it, but i still miss him.

i've been affected quite alot from family deaths but not alot of them seem to affect me, probaly because i was to young to remember, but my cousin also died of a brain tumour and her mam and dad and sisters do charity nights, she would have been in my year at school but i never really got to know her.

i think thats why death hasn't affected me that much because i didn't know them that much, my nana i was to young to know, my grandad had alzheimer so what i did get to know of him was very little, but i still miss not having grandparents, my dads dad died the year before i was born i think and my mams mam died about 4 or 5 years before i was born, and i remember when my mam said "she'd have been proud of you" and she made me feel so upset D:

So im not really good on self expierence of it, but if i was truly effected by it and was in a state of depression i'd pull myself through with memorys.

[Meree.]

i was born with only 1 nana and grandad left, i was still crawling when my nana died but she was that much of a person i can still remember scenes from her house and toys i use to play with, and even the way the house looked, but she died soon after, i didn't grieve cause i was that young, but i wish i could have spent more time with someone who can implant memorys in my mind from when i was around 2.

my grandad died when i was in year 4, I was being baby sat by my cousin cause all the family where round the nursing home, i got hit in the face by a tree twig i pulled back and got a huge black eye, he died that night and i can't remember much of it, but i still miss him.

i've been affected quite alot from family deaths but not alot of them seem to affect me, probaly because i was to young to remember, but my cousin also died of a brain tumour and her mam and dad and sisters do charity nights, she would have been in my year at school but i never really got to know her.

i think thats why death hasn't affected me that much because i didn't know them that much, my nana i was to young to know, my grandad had alzheimer so what i did get to know of him was very little, but i still miss not having grandparents, my dads dad died the year before i was born i think and my mams mam died about 4 or 5 years before i was born, and i remember when my mam said "she'd have been proud of you" and she made me feel so upset D:

So im not really good on self expierence of it, but if i was truly effected by it and was in a state of depression i'd pull myself through with memorys.

Awww, im sorry. Mine's kinda the same. Have so many memorys and everything. I can't remember it exactly, but my mums mum died, and due to that from all the stress, and being upset her dad then died. My other grandad was in a carehome and they didn't look after him properlly, so I blame them for him becoming ill like he was. I was mostly upset about that grandad of mine as he was in World War II. Made me feel so proud, and he's someone i'll always look up to.

[Accipiter]

if i ever had to put my parents in a care home, which i hope i don't have to.

i would be so mad if they didn't look after them, i'd try to take them to court for it tbf, and move them out of it.

[Meree.]

if i ever had to put my parents in a care home, which i hope i don't have to.

i would be so mad if they didn't look after them, i'd try to take them to court for it tbf, and move them out of it.

I might try and do that.... >:]