Feeling that im meaningless...

[Ostinato]

Has anyone ever felt like that? I've been feeling that latley. Today i went out to eat with my dad and his friends family and they all thought i was mad but i wasnt i was just thinking and they kept calling my name. And now my dad thinks that im mad at him and that i feel uncomfortable living at his house (recently i moved in). Im not that social and i dont like to talk very much. But i just think that "why am i here? Im so useless. Theres no point in me living. No one wants me." I havent had any thoughts of suicide but in the future if this keeps up i fear i will. Has anyone felt this before? I want to stop feeling liek this. I want to be happy with my dad. What can i do to stop this? And if i start feeling this way, what could i do to feel positive so i dont rub it off to others.

Okay well. There may not technically be an 'official problem' for you to discuss with your dad or thats making you feel like this, but theres definetley something up and you need to make sure your dad knows before it's too late. If your maybe not comfortable speaking to him, or don't know exactly what to say, why not write him a letter? Just write down all your thoughts and feelings like you have here and let him know what's on your mind.

Also, don't worry. When your growing up your hormones are crazy and a lot is happening in your body that sometimes causes some confusion etc. without you noticing it, and because of this you can slip in and out of different moods quickly. I think a lot of people go through a stage when growing up, wondering what there purpose is on earth and why they were born in the first place, but trust me - it happened for a reason, just like everything does!

Just stick it out, and when your down and thinking of these thoughts, just think of the good things in your life, like your nice new home, the love from your father etc.

Also, try coming out your shell a little. Just start of with your dad even, and just get talking to him. It's much easier than you think, and the more you do it the better and more comfortable you will become doing it for later life! :]

[foxyfox00]

Its called professional help! and its just a teenage thing you'll get over it