My experiences

[bam..its..abbz]

My experiences - health


Some people will think I'm an attention seeker, some people may disagree, I'm not.
At first I didn't know weather I should post this or if I was confident enough to post this, as you can see I chose to post this :) I was actually inspired by jazz's post , since she posted that I new that hopeful no one will judge me , thank you jazz x


I thought it would be helpful for you guys if I posted about my experiences.
I've always felt like I can't tell people, I now feel like I can.
I have and still do have anxiety problems and depression, with my anxiety I have really bad paranoia, I have o confidence in my self at all, if you know me , you won't notice this because all the time I've kept my feelings inside, also I just can't sleep on a night it takes me 2-3 hours lying still to get to sleep, it still does I haven't fully recovered yet , but I think I'm on my way. When I was 12 I had a minor cancer cell in my neck which was in the lymph nodes , I had an operation at 13, I was one of the lucky ones who survived, I'm just so thank full for everything


Depression , Last september ive had my GCSE's which made me so stressed , it got worse when would he do u , and would he ever get back with uI had arguments with parents, I just got stressed all the time, I felt very depressed. One of the days I did something wrong I just still regret it so much I don't even know why, I self harmed just once though. Sometimes I'd just lay down and cry some times I was ok, it changed all the time.


I'm not very good at explaining things, because I have DCD (dyslexia / dyspraxia) I find it hard to understand things, and explain things, I get right and lefts mixed up, I have bad hand eye coordination. At school people thought i was playing dumb because I'm blonde . I wasn't. I just find everything very hard to do and I just have no self esteem, I'm a really shy person.


All this time I've hidden my thoughts and feelings away from everyone,. I'm on the verge of recovering. Recently at school I decided to speak to the school guidance councillor about m problems she was amazing to was so helpful, she helped me through a lot, and so did my friends. Ive realised how much better I'm doing now, I've never really told anyone about this, I just thought my experience could maybe help others. Also dj ing now on habboxlive has actually helped its improving my confidence when I'm on air I feel like I can forget everything, so thank you for giving me the chance.


I hope everyone should know if our going through hard times there's always going to me someone there for you at some point a teacher, friend , family, strangers. I hope no one goes through what I have, the good news is I'm recovering. I'd just like to thank everyone who's helped me through everything.


If you don't know who to talk to , you could pm me , I will understand everything I won't judge you, I'm a nice person :)
If not there's always
NHS
Childline
And always count on your friends


Thanks for reading this took so much to type this <3

[bam..its..abbz]

I'm sorry my spelling is really bad correction-
Depression , Last september ive had my GCSE's which made me so stressed , it got worse when i had arguments with parents, I just got stressed all the time, I felt very depressed. One of the days I did something wrong I just still regret it so much I don't even know why, I self harmed just once though. Sometimes I'd just lay down and cry some times I was ok, it changed all the time.

[Jazz]

It takes a big person to post in here about this kind of thing, a lot of people can judge a person because of mental health and get it way out of line. I would suggest just keep your head down and get on with life, and confidence building is a great thing as that will eventually build up more self esteem!

Keep at it girl, if you need anything.. message me, i'm here to help! x

[bam..its..abbz]

It takes a big person to post in here about this kind of thing, a lot of people can judge a person because of mental health and get it way out of line. I would suggest just keep your head down and get on with life, and confidence building is a great thing as that will eventually build up more self esteem!

Keep at it girl, if you need anything.. message me, i'm here to help! x

Thank you jazz, and yeh people get judged about. It everyday, someday people will realise and hopefully stop. And will do x

[Plumpeh]

It must have took a lot of confidence to write them up and show a lot of people who you don't know, very brave! I'm happy to see you're recovering and helping people that have similar problems, that's so lovely.
Always here for a chat if needed.

[bam..its..abbz]

It must have took a lot of confidence to write them up and show a lot of people who you don't know, very brave! I'm happy to see you're recovering and helping people that have similar problems, that's so lovely.
Always here for a chat if needed.

yeh it took alot, i was scared whta people would think of me :/ But now its not that bad, im now recovering and my confidence is building, and yeh thank you, alot i just dont want people to go through what i have been through it isnt very nice x

[Rachel]

I agree with others you are very strong girl. I have had this problem when I was around 12 years old and I manage to get out of this from the help of my friends and family. If you want to talk just send me a pm or a message on skype xxx

[bam..its..abbz]

I agree with others you are very strong girl. I have had this problem when I was around 12 years old and I manage to get out of this from the help of my friends and family. If you want to talk just send me a pm or a message on skype xxx

Thank you for the support xx

[zombies]

well done on having the guts to post this! i found it rather inspirational. i wish you good luck

[bam..its..abbz]

well done on having the guts to post this! i found it rather inspirational. i wish you good luck

Thank you