Poem about J

[CursedHeart]

Its Called Get ****** (i starred that ) and its about something that happened to me.. the ....'s is where i took out large sections of swearing.. the rest of the edited bits i made make sense.

you think that your so important
with your water stained ceiling
and your room
it glows orange when the sun comes up
you wouldnt know
your always asleep
snoring away
like a little angel
youd whisper that you loved me
but when you were finished
i didnt fall asleep
i faked it
i lay so still i could hear my toes move
and waited
and when you fell asleep
do you know what i did?

i ran downstairs
and into that bathroom on your second floor
the white one
with the shelves
of lauren, your flatmate, of her make up
and cotton wool balls
and i cried
i was desperate
i was drowning
you had a water fetish
you sick ....
you had a me fetish
i was 15 and you made me think we were gonna get married
and why
so you had your fun
and your real real sorry
but i was 15 you ....
and you were 27
and it wasnt just once was it
dont you remember
i said no
and you convinced me
or did it anyway
and i would turn my head
with that fixed doll smile
think of england
you .....

im tainted now
im broken
im sick inside and uncurable
and when he touches me
your touching me
and when his breaths on me
i feel you
and when you die
ill cry
but not for you
the man you told me i love
but for my self
what a waste

[CursedHeart]

sorry if it upsets anyone

[dementedpixel]

Wow.....................

[Victimized]

CursedHeart i deleted that part of the sig that offended you. Sorry.

[CursedHeart]

dw as i said its not your fault but thank you...

[Snowboarding]

It's brilliant and I completely understand it. Brilliant poem Calisse