Self harm awareness day<3

[Brice]

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Okay so yeh, today's self harm awareness day by writing this i just wanted to make you aware if your out there thinking your all alone, your wrong, your never alone.

Before you self harm in any way, you should probably know what you’re getting into.
Before you make that cut, please keep in mind that you will find the pain release and blood strangely addictive.
You may think to yourself that you’ll be able to control it, that you won’t let it get out of hand.
You may think that you can just stick to a few small, shallow cuts here and there that won’t be deep and that will heal quickly and easily.
But you’re wrong.
You can’t control it, it’s impossible to control. It controls you. It’s an addiction.
The cuts will get deeper, they’ll scar. They’ll take weeks to months to heal and years for the scars to actually begin to fade.
You’ll find that soon, you depend on it. You can’t go more than a few days without cutting. You’ll go crazy as your skin itches and burns, your hands shake, your head pounds, your vision goes blurry as you try to keep your mind off of it, try to hold back from giving in. But you will.
If you think you can limit the cuts to just one area of your body, you better think again. It’ll spread slowly but steadily, like a deadly virus. It’ll spread as you run out of skin, from your wrists to arms, past your elbows, up your shoulders down to your stomach, across your hips and waist and soon will cover your every inch of your legs right down to your ankles.
I hope you’re prepared to withdraw from others and live in a constant state of shame and guilt. Even if you have been the most honest person to ever live, you will lie to your friends, family members, everyone around you who you care about.
You’ll find yourself jerking back from the touch of someone, as if their fingers and hands have been bathed in a toxic, burning poison. You’ll be terrified that they will feel a scar or cut from beneath the fabric of your shirt or because it just plain hurts so much to simply be touched.
Be prepared to become your own worst enemy. You’ll fear yourself, your head, the urges that taunt you every minute of every day. You’ll come to fear the next time you cut because you don’t know how bad it’ll be.
Wait for the 10 cuts to turn into 20 then 50 then 100. You’ll be covered in scars and cuts.
Your entire life will begin to revolve around your addiction. You’ll constantly be thinking about cutting, covering up your cuts, how you’ll hide your blades, scissors, bobby pins and the other objects you use to destroy your body.
And then..the first time that you cut “too deep.” The bleeding won’t stop and you’re gasping, shaking, panicking, fear takes over you. You pray and hope that the bleeding will stop. Your purpose wasn’t to die, you won’t ever go that deep again. Right? Wrong. You’ll go there again, and deeper.
But don’t worry. You’ll learn how to take care of your cuts so you don’t have to take a trip to the hospital every night. The better you get at treating your wounds, the worse they become.
You’ll lie to yourself and try to justify it when you go to the pharmacy and drug store, finding yourself spending 20, 30, 40 dollars on dressings, gauze, alcohol wipes and sterile strips.
You’ll tap your foot impatiently, hoping that no one stares and asks you why you’re buying all of these things. But at the same time..you hope someone asks, so you know they care.
Be prepared to spend even more money on an entire new wardrobe. Long sleeved shirts, hoodies, long pants, boots, bracelets, wristbands. The list goes on forever.
You’ll keep scanning other people’s bodies for signs of self harm, hoping that there is someone else out there who feels the same way you do. Hoping, praying that they will be like you. But that will never happen. You’ll see clean, uncut, unmarred arms and feel even more alone and ashamed than before.
You’ll do a lot of things alone, be prepared to kiss your social life goodbye. You’ll always be doing your laundry, always in private so no one sees the blood stained towels and clothes. You’ll be spending hours scrubbing blood from the bathroom floor, and wiping dried blood off of your keyboard.
You won’t be able to make it a day without cutting. You’ll carry an emergency kit in your wallet or purse. A key, safety pin, a needle, a paperclip, even a pencil. Everything around you will become a weapon. It doesn’t matter what it is, as long as it gives you that feeling that sends you reeling.
Next thing you know, you’re in the bathroom stall at your school or work, picking open the scab of an old cut with a needle.
Say goodbye to all of the things you took for granted. Shorts, sandals, tank tops, swimming in the summer, going to the beach. All of these things will be a far off memory.
I hope you like itching and scratching non stop. You will itch and itch and itch. It’ll be so much that it’ll look like you have some sort of flesh eating disease.
You will become an expert on your body as you carefully destroy it, taking it apart piece by piece.
You will dream of cutting, dreaming of getting caught. It will haunt you day and night, in your dreams and when you are awake. Cutting will take over your life. It now has it’s hold over you, it controls you.
You’ll hate yourself, hate yourself for making that first cut that threw you into this vicious, never ending cycle.
You’ll wish you never made that first cut.
You’ll wish you had read something like this, or that someone had told you what would happen.
But as much as you hate your addiction and self harm, you love it and can’t live without it. You’d rather die than go just a few weeks without cutting.
Love, don’t make the first cut. Don’t get sucked into this deadly addiction. Talk to someone, talk to me. Blades can’t comfort you, only make you weaker. You’re stronger than this and you aren’t alone

We can get through it together

Edited by Bolt660 (Forum Moderator): Thread moved here from 'Discuss Anything' as its more suited here.

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can completely relate to it becoming addictive because you know whenever you feel sad it will ALWAYS make you feel better so you use any excuse to do it and turn to it every time, it is like an addiction. also i didn't self harm for 6 years but i still had my blade in my jewellery box and on a particularly bad day i found it again and got an adrenaline rush. you start to make the associations, self harm = instant relief and happiness, well maybe happiness isnt the correct word but you at least feel 'okay' again.
its all a control thing, when i'd be unscrewing my sharpener for the blade or cutting around the blade of a razor with the knife, id accidently cut myself. even though they would be the least painful and only leave a little mark, they'd be the worst cuts because you weren't prepared for it, you weren't in control of your pain. + when you cut the deepest and panic, you think that's the last time you'll ever self-harm but its not, you do it again because it IS like an addiction, the relieved feeling you get afterwards is the addiction... but this time you'll be more careful, more in control of it. but it also controls you too because its always in the back of your mind, reminding yourself that all you need to do when you feel bad is pick up the blade. its like your best friend and worst enemy.
"hoping no-one asks but the same time hope they do" and "buying long sleeved shirts, hoodies, bracelets" etc i know the feeling too well. the worst part is when you see people notice and they don't say or do anything. sometimes you see them checking your arms when they're talkin to you and you want to scream out "self harming isn't only done on the wrists" but you dont. you cover it up in embarrassment. self harming isnt just slitting either. when you have a bad day, you get drunk. you self harm your body in order to feel good. that's what self-harming with a blade is too. but still, self-harmers are looked down on. and it makes me so mad that people tell you you're an idiot for it. well, you're a hypocrite. we all do things that make us happy. (not telling people to go out self harm if they feel bad no way as it can become like an addiction, just realize you probably self harm in many ways too.) going shopping, seeing a cute top or dress but not buying it because it will just be covered up by the jumper or shirt you're going to wear to hide your scars..
i feel sick knowing i don't have my 'safety net', my blade, in my room. whenever life gets really bad i need it to be there. and if its not, i replace it with something else. if i dont have a blade in my room, as ive thrown out many thinking i can get through it, then i can simply go to the shop to buy some alcohol. self harmers are no different to anyone else. we've all done something similar to ease pain.
i agree, i wish i never made the first cut. was 13 when i did. didn't do it for 6 years (guess i replaced it with alcohol ) until i remembered it would make me feel better, not sure ill ever get over it. such an easy way to get relief..

uhhhh i wrote this cause i like to put into words how i feel about a topic. tis another sense of relief i get. debated on posting it but i will, so you know you're not alone. i know people who look down on self-harmers or would rather not be my friend if they knew. guess we really don't like what we can't understand. also hope they're not stupid enough to air these kind of opinion such as "idiot. attention seeker" in real life because they have no idea whether one of their friends or family self-harm. you really have no idea who does it but its a lot more common than you think. remember if you do say it to someone who self-harms, they'll feel more ashamed than they already do. worst thing for me is knowing my friends know but don't ask me about it or offer help but at the same time, im glad they dont, cause i feel ashamed bout it and wouldnt want to talk about it.. i fear getting caught, why do humans fear others knowing theyre unhappy? fear of talking about our mental states, our sadness, rejection, fears :S id probably stop if someone did know and acknowledged it at least. why should we be made to feel ashamed for wanting to feel a little bit of happiness? i dont see the sense in making someone feel worse than they already do and im very hesitant to admit something like this because people use it against you but never explain why its an insult. so i won't allow myself to be insulted by it. nor should you.

wootzeh, i'd rather be an idiot than a narrow minded fool. you can have your opinion all you like but i really hope you're not stupid enough to say that to anyone irl when you have no idea whether they self harm or not. im gonna guess you haven't been in the situation to understand why someone would do it and how they feel about it. @Samanfa; thats my reasoning for it. im so angry sometimes that i cant express it, i won't throw things and i won't hurt another person for it. id rather hurt myself so i do. way i see it is self-harmers hurt themselves rather than someone else so why are they looked down on so much?

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wootzeh, i'd rather be an idiot than a narrow minded fool. you can have your opinion all you like but i really hope you're not stupid enough to say that to anyone irl when you have no idea whether they self harm or not. im gonna guess you haven't been in the situation to understand why someone would do it and how they feel about it.

What reason could there possibly be to self harm for any mentally stable person, if you do this you should go see a psychiatrist.

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What reason could there possibly be to self harm for any mentally stable person, if you do this you should go see a psychiatrist.

So based on your earlier quote, you've just called all mentally unstable people idiots lol. how nice of you!

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So based on your earlier quote, you've just called all mentally unstable people idiots lol. how nice of you!

tru dat

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What reason could there possibly be to self harm for any mentally stable person, if you do this you should go see a psychiatrist.

no-one mentioned about anyone being mentally stable? :S there are lots of reason. someone may do it because they have no feelings in themselves so cut themselves to try feel something, its been quite common in sociopaths. other people do it because they have too much feelings that they can't express themselves and its the only way they can personally rid of that feeling. you've never been in that situation therefore you don't understand and pass it off as being weird or idiotic. anyway, i don't like to talk to people without basic empathy so i wont. id say im more emotionally stable than many as in i don't care about what others say no longer nor care about fitting in, so i wouldn't do it because im being bullied. there are other personal reasons i do it. all i know is it makes me feel better and that's enough for me.

eugh adam seriously your opinion is fine, i hope no-one you're close to is struggling from a mental disorder because if you were to say that to someone you'd make them feel a lot worse.

[dbgtz]

Raise all the awareness you want, I'll never understand why people want to hurt, or on a related point, kill themselves (with the exceptions of the terminally ill and severely disabled) nor do I really sympathise for most.

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Raise all the awareness you want, I'll never understand why people want to hurt, or on a related point, kill themselves (with the exceptions of the terminally ill and severely disabled) nor do I really sympathise for most.

ER CAUSE SOME PEOPLE DONT WANT TO LIVE WITH THE **** CONDITIONS OR UPBRINGING THEY'VE HAD. THE CONSTANT REMINDERS THAT DON'T ALLOW THEM TO MOVE ON WITH THEIR LIVES. EVERYDAY FEELINGS OF WORTHLESSNESS THAT DON'T GO AWAY JUST BY TALKING ABOUT IT. IT'S REALLY AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OH MY GOD
I AM SO DONE WITH THIS FORUM

as for it being an awareness day well if it helps change even ONE persons mind then i am happy with that. unfortunately we are stuck with brainless *****. and you wonder why we don't want to live in a world like this.

[Calum0812]

I have a friend who used to self-harm. Managed to get him to stop after referring him to the local doctors.
He is so much happier in himself now

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ER CAUSE SOME PEOPLE DONT WANT TO LIVE WITH THE **** CONDITIONS OR UPBRINGING THEY'VE HAD. THE CONSTANT REMINDERS THAT DON'T ALLOW THEM TO MOVE ON WITH THEIR LIVES. EVERYDAY FEELINGS OF WORTHLESSNESS THAT DON'T GO AWAY JUST BY TALKING ABOUT IT. IT'S REALLY AS SIMPLE AS THAT.

OH MY GOD
I AM SO DONE WITH THIS FORUM

as for it being an awareness day well if it helps change even ONE persons mind then i am happy with that. unfortunately we are stuck with brainless *****. and you wonder why we don't want to live in a world like this.

If I could rep you Jen, I would.

I remember the last time this topic came up majorly in a thread (think it was self-harm or suicide idk), but people's attitudes towards it... and generally anything... on this forum are horrific. It's surprising some of you lot don't have black sludge pumping through your veins instead of blood lol.