I'm thinking of finding my mum..

[e5]

Say "I'm here, do you remember me?" or if she remembers you, she'll be like and you won't have to say anything. I always think of something I might need to say, but I end up not needing to because of specific reasons, so you never know.

[J0SH]

She didn't just decide to walk away over night, she lost custody of you :rolleyes:

[FlyingJesus]

Personally going by how you said you just want to see what's become and all that, and the fact you're saying you hate her, I wouldn't go through with it. If you've spoken to your dad about it and he doesn't want you to go, there must be a really good reason - he's brought you up since she's been gone and he's probably scared that he'll lose you again after all this time. Perhaps if you could convince him to go too it would be easier, but either way I think it would most likely end in a traumatic scenario for all involved. It would be a very different case if you were looking for her with good intentions, but I can't imagine how you would benefit in any way from what you're thinking of here.

[.Zi]

I would go and see her. If you hate her so much do not go and see her but if you are anxious then i'd be going. If it was me i would find my mum, I love my mum and no matter what she has done to me or somebody else i would always want to see her and love her. What did she do that was so bad you had to live with your father but i would go and see her!