I have a real problem with school.

[NIKKEE]

NIKKEE

To tell you the honest truth mate, ive got exactly the same problem.

Right a couple of years back the school i loved and i was fine Closed down
because basicly it was a **** hole.
This was in year 9, i first went to another school. The first day i was there it was o.k i knew 50% of people in my year because the school was close to my area
when i got out at 3pm i hated it, i told my mum i couldnt face going back there.
so i had alot of time of school, and the education got me a place into ANOTHER school.. except i went there for around a week and hated that
its weird its like i have a phobia to the whole place
i know alot of people there and the teachers supported me.

in the morning i just couldnt get out of bed i felt so sad and kinda angry i even flipped out and got mad at my family.
i went to see a psychiatrist and they couldnt help me, i took anger management classes and that didnt seem to help either

now i aint going to school, ive got to find a job (like a part-time work placement) other wise my parents are going to get fined

idk whats up with my head or so on
they said it might be the mass amount of people in school
but its not that as i can visit malls with thousands of people and be absolutely fine.
The thing that bugs me is im not going to get any gcse's as ive missed alot of education, they said im a clever boy, i could catch up easily and get decent grades.. but i just cant (my school are trying to make out just because im 'clever' i cant have other things wrong with me... *****)

idk what to do either tbh. i just hate school.

me too it's really the little things that get to you
I didn't go to school today, I asked my mum if I could stay off, it's not like I need to be there, i've got my grades, and she understands I hate it so much so she said I can have today and tomorrow off
I'm staying off on Monday, as we're getting school photos and I don't want to be there and get one done and feel lonely
I'm really isolating myself, but I don't care, today was finally a half decent day all because I wasn't there
I hope things work out for you cuz I really know how crap it feels

[NIKKEE]

I found that quite weird to read because all of what you've been saying has happend to me, and it all started when my parents got divorced. I started to hate everyone and everything. I would always say no when my friends asked me to go out because I just wasn't in the mood. I always thought that everytime I went out with them they'd be thinking "Oh is she okay, she seems really upset". I didn't want to put a downer on their fun and I hated talking about it because it made me upset. This obviously caused us to drift apart and I started to hate them because they'd stopped ringing me to ask me to go out. I'd then refuse to ring them because I'd somehow convinced myself that they'd given up and lost interest in me.

My parents are fully divorced now but they hate eachother and it's so hard for me - So I still have all these feelings you're experiencing but I'm starting to try and move on now. I'm starting College and I know I've got to move past this. I'm never going to meet anyone new if I just assume that everyone hates me.

I've spoken to the friends I mildly lost contact with and they understand. We still hang out now but I can feel like an outsider to the group because they all seem alot closer. I'm not very open and I often refuse to talk about my feelings - it's something I'm working on and I know it takes time. Even this is a big step to me, I'd never have thought about talking about this on here but when you find people in the same situation it's a lot easier.

Just remember you're not the only person who's feeling this way and hey, look how many people have offered to help you and out and talk about this with you?
That's got to feel good I hope it all works out.

It does feel really good, I was very worried when I first posted that people would think I was attention seeking, that's why I never tell people things about me! I never understand how some people can talk about themselves and it doesn't seem as if they're attention seeking, cause I feel that's how it sounds on the rare occasion I do.
My parents split up when I was 4, they're divorced and stuff, and my dad wasn't very consistent, and he still isn't. But when my mum got together with my stepdad, I really liked him, but my dad - and I wasn't aware of it at the time, my mum told me recently - he would say things to me about my stepdad, that he was ugly, and a pervert if he ever hugged me, and it's really affected our relationship, so my dad has basically destroyed our own relationship, and I've also had no chance with my stepdad. My dad is really selfish.
It was less about them marrying, and more about when we moved away. I never saw anyone, yet I was at the same school.
It's a horrible feeling when your friends give up, and so easily, it's really, really horrible.
Yesterday I was walking home and my friend was infront of me, her sister turned round and said hi, and she turned round and went to say hello as well, but her boyfriend looked at her and whispered, "no, don't," it was really obvious, and she was like wha...? and she just ignored me and walking like a metre infront of me and didn't turn round and I was so upset and embarassed and she was walking infront of me for ages whilst I was crying behind her. I haven't done anything to deserve it, but they've obviously gone off me this group, so basically I've got no-one, maybe one girl who I'm better friends with, we talk a lot, but that's really it.
It's cause I isolate myself, but now I don't care anymore, I told my mum and she said I can stay off school. And I'm really glad.
Thanks and I really feel for you feeling weird with friends, I've yet to see that girl and find out what happened, it was all very weird, and it's not exactly going to strengthen our relationship.
I hope you feel better though, it's a terrible feeling I know.