Everythings gone wrong :(

[NIKKEE]

Lmao thanks. ;P

Ya welcome

[Tyed]

Awww I Dunno If Other Has Said This "Cba Reading Hole Of The Thread"

Awww Some People Are So Attention Seeking FFs Ur Mum Has Enough On Her Plate ,,, U Dieing Eint Gonna Fhking Help... Geeez..

If U Say "Ur Commiting Suicide Or W.e And No1 Can Help U... Why Post On A Forum Just Go Fhking Do It" [ Which U Probly Eint Got The Gutts To Obviously If Ur Life Is Soo Rubbish..Geez... This Eint Being Nasty Or Enything But Sometimes People Are There Own Enimies

[NIKKEE]

Awww I Dunno If Other Has Said This "Cba Reading Hole Of The Thread"

Awww Some People Are So Attention Seeking FFs Ur Mum Has Enough On Her Plate ,,, U Dieing Eint Gonna Fhking Help... Geeez..

If U Say "Ur Commiting Suicide Or W.e And No1 Can Help U... Why Post On A Forum Just Go Fhking Do It" [ Which U Probly Eint Got The Gutts To Obviously If Ur Life Is Soo Rubbish..Geez... This Eint Being Nasty Or Enything But Sometimes People Are There Own Enimies

Huh?
Well the pars I understood made sense.
Though thas what everyone keeps sayin.
But yes... It IS rather attention seeking.
Thas annoying when people do that, GAH LADY/MAN...
Go get help... :rolleyes:

[SupaIGA]

Umm, 2 things written all ovet this;

1. Attention seeking
2. Fake

Ahem,
Hiet

[sarey]

My mom knows now, she was ... understanding.. *that took me around 5 minutes to think of the word and write it* I meant i told her about my selfharm carrying on, she thought it stopped.. ill proberley tell her about my suicide thoughts later on.. like later later on, just what if she puts me in one of those hospitals? i dont wonna go ther, ive always been scared of that place from what ive heard/seen. Im sorry i thrown it in your faces, but yeah im stubborn that way. When i read over the posts, i seen that most of you were using reverse physcoligy.. *doesnt work on me* I always know what someones tryin to do if they use it, i dont attetion seek, ive been doing this for 5 years now, and i DONT attetion seek, i just wanted to talk to someone, and not feel as lonely as i felt. Why do you think i cut myself privatly? Ive NEVER cut infront of ANYONE, only one time on cam when i had auto accept on, and another time infront of my mom which proberley shocked her i was just angry with her and cut my hand infront of her, she looked so scared of me, but u know we made up we hugged, and all that.
So now, ive lost my bestest friends, they hate me.
But after all, its just a pc right? Their not exactly REAL friends like proper real life friends.. Im sorry if this thread made out it was 'fake' and 'attetion seeking', but i never lie, if i did lie, i would of thought of a better lie than this, i dont think anyone would lie about suicide, not even the evilest person on earth, its just sick.. i mean pretending your gonna kill urself, people would be really worried about you if u just said: Im killing myself and then go off the pc and just laugh and u know.. sick. Thanks for everyones support/help/posts im sorry if i wasted your time on this, i suppose i need to find something that keeps me here... I mean if ive been here for 13 years, i can find a reason to be here for another 13 years, ect ect.
Thanks again everyone, im really grateful.
I hope i didnt make any off you give a negative thought off me.

[NIKKEE]

DUDE!
Im so glad you told ur mum :]
And she was understanding?
Brilliant!
Of course you can think of something...
I mean what is it you REALLY REALLY wanna be?
Try thinking about that, it helps ALOT!
and I mean, are you and ur mum ok?
And if ur friends arent ur friends anymore then they werent true friends to begin with and you dont even need them. :]
You sorta sounded.... happier in that post?
Or was that just me?

[-:Undertaker:-]

Things can only get better - remember the song !

[sarey]

She was understanding.. i couldnt believe it though, i just wanted to hug her and cry cause the truth finally came out, she said to me:
She would be extremley upset if i had commited suicide, she asked me if i would of commited suicide like would i do it, i said.. yes..
she almost started crying, and she said please dont do it, i love you, i started crying cause shes never actually said that for a long time, I mean we say it at night cause if something happens the last words she has of me or i have of her is sayin love you or i love you.. (sensative), but recently she hasnt really been sayin it, so i bursted into tears and she said do u wont me to take u to hospital so u can talk to someone? i said no.. but shes gonna get in contact with my social worker, ill tell her the truth.. like in full detail cause i said to my mom:
Mom.. i think i have depression because i keep wanting to commit suicide, and wanting to kill myself
she said its proberley just you at home because its been a long time
i said no.. ive been feeling this way since my first attempt (3 years ago)
her face was almost broken.. she thought id got over it, but when i told her, i felt a vibe.. as if she was about to say go away or something but she didnt, she was their for me and she said she would arrange an appointment with my social worker, so as usual i went in here, played music and just cried, i dont know why.. emotions.. lots of them aswell.
Me and my mom are okay now, since shes got depression she understands what im going through, if i have depression (ill proberley be examined by a physcoligist if i do tell my social worker this) ill get through it.. ill just fight it, i mean my mom has right? and shes gone through this for around 9 years now, and with everything shes been through, im sure i can do it aswell.
I did sound happier in that post as it worked out well.. i was just relieved i told her.
Your right aswell about the friends part, they werent true in the first place, thanks for everything
Thanking:
Depression!, Katrina, JackHB, Onizuka, Chaz-, Nikkee, Habboshost.com, HotelMental, Pulchritudinous and -:Undertaker:- for your care and support through this time. Especially Nikkee, thanks so much!
Sarah

[NIKKEE]

Awww!
You are so very welcome.
I'm glad you and your mum are ok.
Yay, I'm kinda glad if I did actually manage to help :]
And it looks like things are gonna be ok for you now.
Real good.
:]
Good luck with it.

[alexxxxx]

I hate to say this, but I think this is all made up. It sounds too *fake.*

If it isn't, well done for talking to somebody and not taking "the easy way out"