I hate it. </3

[Bef]

I have had enough, nothing goes right for me.
Everybody looks down on me, treats my like ****, makes things up.
Now theirs a whole bunch of rumers flying around. Im on my pills but whenever i feel slightly better i get cut down again.
I feel nobody would care really if i died. Not many people no about my depression and suicide attempts and today iv had the boys saying to me Go and die andd stuff like that. They dont realise that i hate me aswell, i dont want to be me. To them its all jokes and messing round and i put on a smile and play along but i hate it, i just feel like ripping my skin to pieces. I hate being me, i want to be someone else. I just want to be happy, i want to be accepted, i want to be able to walk down the streets without being called ugly... Iv had too much of it now. I dont want to die but i dont want to live either...
Now my good guy mate hates me because of some silly rumers. He doesnt no about my depression.
He believes these silly rumers... I hate it, i hate me.
They don't know what happens when the only thing you can think about is the best way of suicide. When all thats running through your head is bad memories, when you want to rip your own face off.
I dont know what to do. I hate me.

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[Jordan3]

I really can't help you, it's annoying when everyone turns on you, and to be honest, I am yet to find anything possible to escape from it bar death.

[Bef]

I just smashed a mirror, im so ****ed off. Another 7 years of bad luck.

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[Rawr]

The only thing i can think of it's try to explain to your mates that these are only rumours. <3

[Mr.Kylee]

People that do suicides are really selfish.


If those people were your mates they wouldn't believe the rumours in first place.

[Bef]

Exactly thats what pees me off Kyle...
And saryv i didnt avoid the filter, they both came out as stars :\

[Bimbybecca]

I don't know how old you are, but I'm guessing you're still in school.

When you're young you're going through many changes both mentally and physicly and you're entering adulthood. You begin to realise that life isn't as easy as it was for you as a child.

Rumours come and go, but soon their yestardays news and nobody cares, they'll find something else to chat about. They obviously don't have lives if all they do is talk about others all day, don't they have other things to do?

As for self harming and suicide, everybody goes through it. I talked to some of my mates the other day (i'm 18) and we all agreed that we hurt ourselves when we were younger, you think that you're the only one going through these problems, but you're not, they'll be loads of people like you at your school. The best thing to do is talk to someone that you trust or to write it all down and let it out.

As for your friends who arne't talking to you, they're obviously not good mates if they believe some silly rumours.


Does this help?

[Craig]

Gah my life seems to be like this atm. Rumours being spread about me and chavs jipping my mum. Oh how cool it is! It's mainly this one kid who has a high voiced laugh who is getting on my nerves and thinks he's hard[he isnt] but has hard mates. His mates are sort of friends with me so I don't think they would do much,if so I'm sure I could get Lynch involved. I'm seriously on the verge of hitting this stupid chav a good un.

You should try and show people your not like that and you've changed and listen to people.

Interested is interesting

[Bef]

Im not still at school Bimby but ye you kind of helped.
Thing is the rumour is about me and my mate and meh...
Nenywho, Craig i feel like that all the time. I just want to jaw soo many people but i have to stop myself because it just causes more rubbish in the long run. I try and listen to people but i kick of soo easily. Gahh, whats annoyed me is its a so called mate that started off these rumers.
My new years resoloution is no fighting and im going to try and stick to it but some people really deserve a smack in the face.

[littlewilsy]

Shut up emo kid. Go hang yourself, ill provide the rope.

[Mentor]

So why do you shape your opionion on you as other peoples opionions on you? you cant please everyone, if thats your goal your bound to fail.
Why are you depressed, non of the reasons you gave are a valid cause, since theres no logical causality link, Your causing your own depersion, being depressed you then take things negativly and get more depressed so it dosnt realy work. Logicly think, whats the problem, And how it effects you, how can a roumer effect you? ive never understood that, people can think what they like, it has no effect on the realty "/. Hell even if you cant solve the problem, just stick it out, everything passes eventaly, being depressed dosnt help and just causes more problems, suside causes even more probems "/

[PonyboyCurtis]

Haha your emo.
Go slit your wrists pls.
MmkThaxBaii lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz+*:eusa_danc

[Corey777]

Haha your emo.
Go slit your wrists pls.
MmkThaxBaii lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz+*:eusa_danc

Stfu, you and that littlewimsly or whatever. ****ing learn a few things about depression before you ****ing speak.

Anyways, I know how you feel Bef. I am kind of the same way. I have good friends and everything - but there are always people to make fun of me.

And, can't go to my parents as they'd try to give me a speech about how God can help - and I dont want that atm. Anyways, don't know really what you should do actually - I think as you get older, it will just gradually stop as I think your like 18 now or something.

Anyways, hope you feel better in the morning.

[littlewilsy]

Stfu, you and that littlewimsly or whatever. ****ing learn a few things about depression before you ****ing speak.

Oh sorry I dont get bullied everyday. :rolleyes:

[MsTanya]

Haha your emo.
Go slit your wrists pls.
MmkThaxBaii lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz+*:eusa_danc
Shush you, and go die somewhere

[camera]

bef, talk to someone you can really trust and im sure he/she can help you. and being someone else doesnt mean that u will be accepted. everyone's unique. even if they dont accept u as what you are, im sure therell be loads other people who will. if ur good guy mate hated u for some false rumours, he isnt ur true friend. but yeah...talk to someone whom u can trust. just dont think about suicide... it wont help you in any ways... and suicide is not the solution to ur problem. oh and no matter what, i love you <3


Haha your emo.
Go slit your wrists pls.
MmkThaxBaii lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz+*:eusa_danc

mmk shut ur trap genius...use ur stupidity somewhere else :/

[Luayminator]

Úmm this happrns alot topeople i know you cant ignore it but thry will find someone else to annoy soon, it happens everywhere.

[Bef]

Yer guys, thank for the help and stuff. I just sometimes need to write down all my feelings and stuff so this was kind of one of those moments. I am extra sensetive to things so blah i duno, <3 you all, thanks for kind words <3 Im just a crazy little tramp :P Im a bit cheerier today, i had a lie in... I kind of realised that if people want to believe the rumers, if they want to take sides its there problem, 3 of my best girl mates aint talking now because of the rumers as they all blamed each other but hopefully that will sort its self out. Im to confused to bother with shouting at anyone or getting revenge. Im just going to make sure if anybody gives me crud, il give it back to them 10 times worse. Aaah, i feel like a **** now. Luckily my guy mate and ex have realised it was all just a revenge story and are talking to me again so thats sorted, im just leaving it out. Il shush now ;) <333

[camera]

Yer guys, thank for the help and stuff. I just sometimes need to write down all my feelings and stuff so this was kind of one of those moments. I am extra sensetive to things so blah i duno, <3 you all, thanks for kind words <3 Im just a crazy little tramp :P Im a bit cheerier today, i had a lie in... I kind of realised that if people want to believe the rumers, if they want to take sides its there problem, 3 of my best girl mates aint talking now because of the rumers as they all blamed each other but hopefully that will sort its self out. Im to confused to bother with shouting at anyone or getting revenge. Im just going to make sure if anybody gives me crud, il give it back to them 10 times worse. Aaah, i feel like a **** now. Luckily my guy mate and ex have realised it was all just a revenge story and are talking to me again so thats sorted, im just leaving it out. Il shush now ;) <333

honey, ure not crazy ;)
and im glad ure ok now :P

[Largo]

That's life, it isn't fair. Breaking a mirror will just make it worst. So just hang on, hopefully it'll be over soon. Just ignore those rumors and enjoy life while you can kid. ;)

[SHEEPY]

Go out on the pulland find someone just as desperate and pathetic as you are and get laid. Problem solved.

[Largo]

Go out on the pulland find someone just as desperate and pathetic as you are and get laid. Problem solved.
0wn3d.

[Rou]

Haha your emo.
Go slit your wrists pls.
MmkThaxBaii lolzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz+*:eusa_danc
Shut the hell up you skinny chav

Your name suggests to me your a puff :rolleyes:

[GJay]

you think you've got problems. just coz some boys don't like you - THAT's NOTHING!

I've got far worse problems than that (which i'm not gonna state coz it's none of anyones business) but i'm not gonna commit suicide over it there's far more important things than a few guys.

[Bef]

:\ Gjay im not just upset about a few boys not liking me, id rather not explain things in detail over this forum. I wrote this to let my feelings out, it makes me feel a bit better when i do... And if you knew my life youd understand its not just a couple of lads who have upset me...
Iv been suffering from depression for around 4 years and theres alot of reasons... so please dont pretend to know me. -Thread closed- And sheepy i was going to do that but somebody told me that you were busy getting set on fire by a group of angry dwarfs :)