I hate it. </3

[Bef]

I have had enough, nothing goes right for me.
Everybody looks down on me, treats my like ****, makes things up.
Now theirs a whole bunch of rumers flying around. Im on my pills but whenever i feel slightly better i get cut down again.
I feel nobody would care really if i died. Not many people no about my depression and suicide attempts and today iv had the boys saying to me Go and die andd stuff like that. They dont realise that i hate me aswell, i dont want to be me. To them its all jokes and messing round and i put on a smile and play along but i hate it, i just feel like ripping my skin to pieces. I hate being me, i want to be someone else. I just want to be happy, i want to be accepted, i want to be able to walk down the streets without being called ugly... Iv had too much of it now. I dont want to die but i dont want to live either...
Now my good guy mate hates me because of some silly rumers. He doesnt no about my depression.
He believes these silly rumers... I hate it, i hate me.
They don't know what happens when the only thing you can think about is the best way of suicide. When all thats running through your head is bad memories, when you want to rip your own face off.
I dont know what to do. I hate me.

Edit by Saurav. (Super Moderator) - Please dont avoid the filter.

[Jordan3]

I really can't help you, it's annoying when everyone turns on you, and to be honest, I am yet to find anything possible to escape from it bar death.

[Bef]

I just smashed a mirror, im so ****ed off. Another 7 years of bad luck.

Edit by Saurav. (Super Moderator) - Please dont avoid the filter.

[Rawr]

The only thing i can think of it's try to explain to your mates that these are only rumours.

[Mr.Kylee]

People that do suicides are really selfish.


If those people were your mates they wouldn't believe the rumours in first place.

[Bef]

Exactly thats what pees me off Kyle...
And saryv i didnt avoid the filter, they both came out as stars :\

[Bimbybecca]

I don't know how old you are, but I'm guessing you're still in school.

When you're young you're going through many changes both mentally and physicly and you're entering adulthood. You begin to realise that life isn't as easy as it was for you as a child.

Rumours come and go, but soon their yestardays news and nobody cares, they'll find something else to chat about. They obviously don't have lives if all they do is talk about others all day, don't they have other things to do?

As for self harming and suicide, everybody goes through it. I talked to some of my mates the other day (i'm 18) and we all agreed that we hurt ourselves when we were younger, you think that you're the only one going through these problems, but you're not, they'll be loads of people like you at your school. The best thing to do is talk to someone that you trust or to write it all down and let it out.

As for your friends who arne't talking to you, they're obviously not good mates if they believe some silly rumours.


Does this help?

[Craig]

Gah my life seems to be like this atm. Rumours being spread about me and chavs jipping my mum. Oh how cool it is! It's mainly this one kid who has a high voiced laugh who is getting on my nerves and thinks he's hard[he isnt] but has hard mates. His mates are sort of friends with me so I don't think they would do much,if so I'm sure I could get Lynch involved. I'm seriously on the verge of hitting this stupid chav a good un.

You should try and show people your not like that and you've changed and listen to people.

Interested is interesting

[Bef]

Im not still at school Bimby but ye you kind of helped.
Thing is the rumour is about me and my mate and meh...
Nenywho, Craig i feel like that all the time. I just want to jaw soo many people but i have to stop myself because it just causes more rubbish in the long run. I try and listen to people but i kick of soo easily. Gahh, whats annoyed me is its a so called mate that started off these rumers.
My new years resoloution is no fighting and im going to try and stick to it but some people really deserve a smack in the face.

[littlewilsy]

Shut up emo kid. Go hang yourself, ill provide the rope.