Not believing in life much no more

[Fridayz]

okay i am wrote this months ago, And i am still getting replies :p

But i feel alot better so thanks for all your kind posts :)

[:Kimi]

We all know how you are feeling, Infact proberly some people even do feel like how you are feeling. My best friend in the whole world just suddenly freeked one day and we had to do drawings to represent love, And she wrote death all over the page then stormed out the room, I asked miss if I could go to "My music lesson" (I dont do music at school, its just she wasnt my normal teacher so she didnt know) and ran off after my friend. She was in the school toilets, holding a knife to her wrist. I grabbed the knife and chucked it into the bin, The thought of my friend doing this sickend me, why didnt she tell me she felt this way? She compleetly freeked then, screaming at me, saying "why did you do that?" I didnt need to think of an answer, it just came out
"Because I dont want my best friends mum crying, do you want her crying? Your so stupid, your mum has been through enough and now you have a wonderfull step dad who loves you - and you want to throw all that away, and why? cause you want to become a goth. Why is there so many goths in this world when they all cut themselfs, you dont want to become a goth, you just want to be differant, your nothing like a goth. You just want a cover!" I screamed it out, my true feelings, blurted out, she seemed to understand. As she broke down crying I walked out the room, putting the knife in my bag...

I feel what I did the other day saved me the hassle of loosing my best friend. And if you need anyone to talk to, I am always here if you want to PM me or anything

Love Kimi x

[Mined]

You just have to wade through your troubles :)

[Ciaran]

Its never easy but remember there is always someone who is worse off than you even though it doesnt feel like it.. i think if you try to belive your life is a missery it will be but just try to find a good side to things... like a light in darkess you can slip your way thought the problems of life

[Jamie]

aawww you'd be ok, you're just going in a rough patch.
We all have them

[Anti-Frizz]

Dont worry, I've been through what you're going through at the moment...Sometimes Im on a real high, that I have the best mates ever, get good marks at school etc...And then theres the times when I on a low, suddenly Im feeling left out, unfairly treated, unhappy with life, family matters getting too much!
These things can be sorted out though! Dont let things that arent important get to you. Maybe you could contact a helpline, but dont do anything to harm yourself. You were put here for a reason and should stay here for as long as you can!
As Bob Marley once sung... Dont worry, Be happy! :)

[-=rooty987=-]

Ok, my advice is, DO NOT COMMIT SUICIDE, its a rubbish way out :D

[..::Tina::..]

Aww I had that last year, and some of it this year too ;) if you think positive and try hard you'll get through OK like I did :)

[MissAlice]

We all have highs and lows. Believe me we all do!
I've met you and you seem a very nice person :)

So you're doing rubbish at school. Only you can put that right, YOU can stop it getting worse by trying and when you achieve that, you will get the feel good factor. When we feel good we behave differently and it effects how we treat others and this in turn will improve your social life. Your fortunate to see your dad :), some kids don't have contact with both parents, so make the most of every opportunity that you get. As for your love life, I'm sorry your hurting. I know what that feels like. Each day that passes it will get easier.

Try and be positive, think positive, act positive and hopefully life will become positive :)

[Jane]

We've all been through the stage in our lives, where we feel there isn't much point in it. Don't give up. Be optimistic. Things always sort themselves out, and in time everything seems so much better and you can't believe what you were thinking. Keep going, keep trying and you will achieve so much more than you thought you could. If you look at life in the right perspective it's the greatest thing you can imagine.

[partie2]

Mate i know what you are going through. If you wont your life to change its only you that can do it. Also i would advise you to see a counciler maybe about a few of your problems becuase if you bottle it all up inside of yourself then you can get very depressed and upset.

Keep your chin up.

[Ryan]

dont do anything stupid ... ive had a bad life bullied out of school twice, never had a tidy g/f or anything like that

im still here today

life is still **** but things always get better

trust me on that 1 eh :)

Edited by Jacko2kn3: Please do not swear

[Azela]

Fridayz I feel exactly the same at this very moment. But i have realised that things do get better, trust me! Life is a wonderful thing and all that matters for me and you right now is school and fun. Think about it if you get through school with good grades. You can get a decent job and start living for your self. I can't wait till i'm out of school. school really is what depressed me most...

[Jacko2kn3]

Fridayz, do something stupid and I'll get ginger Spectate onto you :P

PM me, and meet up with me on Habbo. It's easier for me to help (I, unfortunatly, have experience in depression) face to face rather than posting.

[Butcher11]

Suicide is for quitters ;)
And we all have waded through hard times at some point or another, keep thinking of happy days.

[-JT-]

i know exactly how you feel, my life has gone completely rubbish :(

[Jacko2kn3]

My life isn't the best, but I mean, carpe dium, sieze the day. You only live once, might as well attempt to be happy, even if your not :D

Go out and have fun. After hearing some bad news about the girl I like (she likes someone else :() I went paintballing. Shooting people does take your mind off it :D

[Fridayz]

rofl jacko :p Might try that

Thanks for this guys, Made me feel a lot better :)

[ttranquility.]

I feel like that all the time. I am totaly failing In math and to top it all my friend started doing crack. Ok. And he is only 13. And he already got beat the **** out of because people thought he was a "cop" or w.e. And now he has this black eye with a slit on his nose. :( But we all have to just hold on and hope things get better. And eventually they will. Look on the brightside. Not the Black side.

Edited by Jacko2kn3: Please do not swear, even if it is filtered

[Luayminator]

There is one thing to say , its only YOURS to fix, no one else can. You have to believe in what you want to happen

[chilloutrich]

In my view, life is one big test! at some point in everyone's life they go through bad parts and good parts- this may be a bad part, but i promise you however dark life is looking there IS light at the end of the tunnel! I can understand why you are feeling down at the moment but unfortunatly this is what life throws at us and we have to live with it :(. With school don't let it get you down, its only school- it gets important when your older, enjoy school. If you make mistakes just have a quiet word with your teacher at the end of the lesson once everyone has left and tell them what you are struggling with and what you can't understand, they will help you. With your parents splitting up, i understand this is a horrid thing to have to go through, although i don't have the experience of this i have gone through it with my friends- it may not be as bad as it seems, you may not see your dad as much but when you do make the most out of it, remember they will both still love you no matter what, if not more! Going back to school, with you being excluded at school, thats school for you- everyone misbehaves at some point, even the boffins! :rolleyes: . You say your life is shatterd- well its not, its just a dip in your life, get through this and you will be on a high! Teachers may get on your nerves, you may think they are out to get ya- mate thats teachers, its one of those things you just have to put up with, remember how ever much you want to yell at them- keep it in, it will just make matters worse. Life is on a low for you at the moment :(, NO way is suicide a way out- do not take this route, you have your whole life infront of you! Personally i have had problems in life since 1999, you get throught it and it makes you a stronger person! Honestly if you ever need anyone to talk to about these things, i will be there for you, i will give you my time if its needed! Life is a test- everyone has problems, its just one of those things :(- be happy, life is too short to be miserable all the time, live life to the full and party hard!

[Butcher11]

I've had problems since 1997 lol and no although we ALL think of suicide, nobody knows if heaven is even worth it ;)

[-JT-]

your right, but personally i dont belive in an after life.

[Max]

I feel the same way as you feel mate.
School is going rubbish, social life isnt good either.
I think its something you need to get. If you get through that stage you'll be stronger, you will feel like you can handle the world.
Life is the most presious thing that is given us, though it can be a bítch too.
Keep on going, don't give up. Thats what I'm gonna do now, I cant just stop neither can you.


We've all been through the stage in our lives, where we feel there isn't much point in it. Don't give up. Be optimistic. Things always sort themselves out, and in time everything seems so much better and you can't believe what you were thinking. Keep going, keep trying and you will achieve so much more than you thought you could. If you look at life in the right perspective it's the greatest thing you can imagine.
Damn right Jane
There isn't anything else then life..Its presious, And you only get it once.
Look at the good things, keep on going and you will get through. Theres so much more to do in life, so much more then whats going on now.
Life is everthing, its hard and its beautiful.

[Jacko2kn3]

Even though Fridayz is feeling better, this is a pretty intresting topic.

I fell out with two great mates (one who I love more than anything) last night, and I was talking to Properclone about it. I wouldn't have the bottle to do such a thing...

...Plus I know EVERYONE would miss me, and it would become a National Holiday of Remembrance, and no one would be able to keep on living without me, therefore the fate of the world rests on my shoulders...

Ok, so I over-exaggurated a bit, and Properclone gave me the "You are only young, you have your whole life ahead of you" speech, then I told him I wouldn't kill myself ever, and he shutted up xD

Then I watched the end of Desperate Housewives and went to bed.

Today is an example of light at the end of the tunnel. I made up with ONE of the friend (not the one I love) which is good, and I'm pleased with myself :D

[GommeInc]

I am legally dead :)

[*.Glitter.Rip.*]

This reason of getting depressed is because of not thinking positivly. Life is hard and thats a fact. No matter how hard it gets you know you need to get your goal. Hormaones are a reason too. Stress is also a reason. You need to think with yourself and think what you would like. Would you like to be a good sucess or another battery chicken? If you got what you wanted that would be brilliant and you could look back and see what to made your way thru. School is a big reason why and meeting all those people with bad attitudes make your contions become worse but never give up. You need to be alone in quiet thinking about all these reasons and what are you going to school for? What could you do to show everyone that you are worth something. Everyone can become something if they try otherwise they are losers. You would rather be a surgen saving lives having good pay than being a cleaner trying to clean up from everyone elses rubbish.

If you need help listen to ambiant music. Never take drugs. Acheive your goals in life! Be someone.

[Fawne]

I've been through your situation many times, and i bet so have other people.
You can't give up, you have to keep going, there is no other option other then that. (There's loads, but this is the best way)
It's not yours nor anyone else's time to give up.
After all we're all on so called 'Borrowed Time', we have to use it to the extreme, we have to live our lives to the best they can be. You may not have found your purpose in life, or maybe even think you don't have one. But there's always a purpose for everyone, you just have to be upbeat and find it somehow. Even I'm looking for mine still, i can't figure it out, but i now believe that there has to be, otherwise there would be no meaning to life. Nothing would make sense. Besides everyone goes through a mid-life crisis, it's a time when you feel there's too much on your shoulder's. You need to fight back, be strong, confident and upbeat. :)

[Convictions]

Many's a time ive been like that but i had a few very good mates talk me out of it. Ive also seen a friend attempt hanging themselves, not nice. Btw it never worked thank god.

Anyway more on topic, almost everyone i know has thought about it, and i bet everyone in the world from possible 1985 + has thought about.Like someone else has said, keep going, you never know whats around the corner.

Dunno if this is relevant but its saved me a few times.


If

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

Ive highlighted in red the bits i find most helpful whenever im down

[G-flow]

I resort to listening to music , it seems to help a lot. I sometimes feel that way but i just have to handle it.

[2hd.]

someone once told me i had nothing to live for. i thinked about. and im still puzzled. i really dnt know what the point of me living is?

[la-ur-en]

It might be a good way out... BUT YOU CAN NEVER GET BACK IN!

Don't waste your life because your going through a dry spell at the moment, you will soon get over it, you will just have to put up with it all until that moment comes, we all have a stage where we feel life is always going to be this bad, but in the end, it wont be, and everything will be just as you wanted it. And knowing that you got through your stress without any serious injurys, will make you feel even MORE better! Trust me, i know!

[:-Mystical.Dave-]

Just go through it, the green pastures are waiting for you :D

[jesus]

I say concentrate on your school work more than anything. Maybe its just a bad time.

[AngJum]

It's these lasts few weeks that things have been getting really bad.

I'm doing rubbish at school, I got excluded for the day, My results are going from bad to worse, By social life is fading away, My love life has just shattered, Not seeing my dad as much (Parents split up when i was 3) and teachers at school are driving me to the limit.

I NEVER would of even began to think of doing, Well you know..

But lifes getting worse and to me, That seems the only way out.

What can i doo, This is the only way i can express what i'm feeling :(

Omg Jake :'( I'm heart broken reading that.. I've been going to the Doctor and Psychiatrist for a few weeks now, to start it was realllly hard, I just sat there in tears.. and they asked me questions which were hard to answer.. I told her about my depression, sometimes for a reason.. sometimes not, I told her I read about being depressed for no reason at all.. in a book I was reading and it said it can be caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain.. I think that might be happening to me, but she's put me on medication, which I've just got from the Chemist.. Fluoxetine, they're still doing tests on it, and it's quite dangerous for me to take it because I'm under the age of 18, and you should be 18+ to take antidepressants or something.. but the government is letting under 18's take it or something. My grades at school aren't that great either, but I try hard.. and even if I don't do as good as my friends may do, I'll know I've tried my hardest.. you should too, and if life gets too much, then cry.. let it all pour out of you. and I know what its like not to see your mum/dad a lot, as my mum and dad are divorced.. and I only see my mum maybe 2-3 times a year, if your feeling depressed a lot, you should maybe go see your GP, I have.. and it's making me see sense in life now.. I was suicidal, but now.. I'm seeing the bigger picture :)

[JackHb]

Jake dude........

Iam a bit like you....
I also am fed up of my life most days. I am constantly thinking about suicide and should i do it and if i did wot do i think would happen etc.....
My grades use to be terrible, but my last grades were great...i always have my mum shouting at me about my school and the stupid head who is always shouting at me also.
Lots of other reasons but i will not say :)
Just pull in there :) i cant wait till iam older and can drive and tell my teachers where to go :p lol

If you ever need to speak iam always on messenger even though iam normally a miserable prat you can always talk to me if u want :)

[TooClose$]

Well.. growing up doesn't always solve things, if anything, it gets worse, there are more responsibilitys, morgages, tax, work, car tax and insurance, student debt.. its all so confusing, but theres no way to escape it. Everybody faces it. i have had many friends that have fealt it was all too much and taken their own lives, it makes me fele even worse about myself, because it makes me wonder whether life really is worth it, but think about it, all those people in other countries poor, hungry and hanging onto life, and they have it ten times harder than us, i've seen it, Look at us, sitting at home in the warm at a computer, with your family or someone that takes care of you.

I'ts a confusing subject, but please Jack, don't do anything silly, it really isnt worth it. If a teacher gets too heavy, i just tell them where to go, and i really do get angry when i've had a bad day, i'm at the age where the stress is starting to kick in.. :) Just try to stay out of trouble, try your best at school, and don't give teachers any excuse to have a go at you. Just smilllllleeeeeeeeeee



:):):):):):)

Mwah!

[JackHb]

Lol its not just teachers, other things but not saying!
Anyway this thread is not about me its about jake so lets get back to him :)

Jakey Boy Iam going to flood u on messenger tonight :) to cheer u up

[TooClose$]

Awwwwrrrrr.. nothing like a good messenger flood to cheer someone up.. :')

"Jack is a Rebelllll"





Lol its not just teachers, other things but not saying!
Anyway this thread is not about me its about jake so lets get back to him :)

Jakey Boy Iam going to flood u on messenger tonight :) to cheer u up

[BlueTails]

well done kimi!

[Escalabar]

Don't even say things like that... I see it like this...

Your life isn't as half as bad as some people in the world. Think of the tsunami victims, victims of 9/11, people who die before they reach their teens etc. Then think, is your life that bad?

When you grow up you feel down a lot, its all part of pubity, it will get better, trust me.

I have no idea how old you are, but I'm guessing your in your teens... It's all part of growing up mate.

But don't think about stupid things like ending ya' life because it really isn't worth even thinking about it... it wont solve anything.

Chin up boy! :D

[:-Mystical.Dave-]

Bad Stuff Always Happens, you need to fix the problems and you will be okay! :)

[Angel-Light]

Hey Fridayz, I do sorta know how you feel as I have suffered some sort of depression because my grandparents deaths took a great toll on me. Three relatives died in 3 years, fell out with my mates at school, got bullied from time to time even by my friends. I truthfully felt like running away from it all, but I come onto Habbo to speak to all my internet mates and that calms me down and it shows that I'm not the only one suffering.

I realised that I should keep my head high and smile my way through it, with tears or not. Ok I admit I do have my down days but I just ignore everyone at school that day so I don't snap at them :) You will get through it, don't worry. maybe telling your parent and having a one on one talk will help? I told my Mum about it and we sat and spoke about it for 3 hours. After it I felt as though a black cloud was gone from hanging over my head.

I hope you get through this :)

[lucyecc]

hayley if your still there hi :) im at school in my last lesson how are you ?

[JT-Fan]

Aw,U R Like My Good Mate =]

[Vause]

Jake, i have been in the same position as you.
I used to suffer with bullies terrible.
I told someone how i felt and kept my head up high.
Just wallk on by and try your best to get on with life!

[Luayminator]

If you not believe in life anymore because somethings didnt go right, then you should have died the day you were born. No one has a perfect day dude. Think of it positively

[Bef]

Life is full of crud, all youve got to do is wade through it and if you step in any crud go back and wash it off and then start walking again. Theirs been a few times in my life i have attempted suicide, when i was really low. But now im so glad i hadnt. It may look like you have nothing and nobody but wait, Things can only get better. Ive now got a massive circle of mates again, and a very hawt boyfriend!! This time last year, id been moved into foster care, messed up off drugs, in an abusive relationship, lost my brother and sisters who i loved. I really thought my life was over but it wasnt.
Think about it. Theres millions of people in this world youve never met, millions of places you havent been, millions of things you havent done! If you ever need a chat just Pm me!

If you can keep your head when all about you
Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;
If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too;
If you can wait and not be tired by waiting,
Or, being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or, being hated, don't give way to hating,
And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise;

If you can dream - and not make dreams your master;
If you can think - and not make thoughts your aim;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build 'em up with wornout tools;

If you can make one heap of all your winnings
And risk it on one turn of pitch-and-toss,
And lose, and start again at your beginnings
And never breath a word about your loss;
If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew
To serve your turn long after they are gone,
And so hold on when there is nothing in you
Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on";
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings - nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you;
If all men count with you, but none too much;
If you can fill the unforgiving minute
With sixty seconds' worth of distance run -
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And - which is more - you'll be a Man my son!

Convictions this poem is AMAZING! Im gunna print it off, i reckon its really helpful! Whats it out of??

[Convictions]

Rudyard (sp.?) Kipling, he wrote alot of stories about animals like 'How the Zebra got its stripes'

When i can find it i'll post a link where i got it from.

[-Soph-]

awww :'( everyone goes through a rough part in life, it'll all patch over soon :)

[Bef]

Rudyard (sp.?) Kipling, he wrote alot of stories about animals like 'How the Zebra got its stripes'

When i can find it i'll post a link where i got it from.

Cool. I thought i had heard extracts of it before like the last line. Its a really inspiring poem.

[cocaine]

We all have rough patches, and trust me, I was close to suicide once, and I'm only 11 :(