Isaac
06-06-2009, 01:27 AM
Alright, so there's this girl I've known since elementary school. We were never GREAT friends, but I went to a few of her birthday parties and what not, and apparently at some point in middle school she liked me, although I never payed much attention to that cause I wasn't interested in girls at that time. (I was like, in 4th grade.)
Well fast forward to now, us both being sophomores in High School. We still talk and I see her every now and then, but here is the thing: I've kind of started to form a crush on her. Actually, I've had something of a crush on her for about a year and a half, but I've never acted on it (for several reasons.)
Here is where my problems begin. Of course, I've told all of my friends about me liking this girl. They all known and have known for quite some time. And while this may sound selfish, I kind of expected them to leave her to me (metaphorically, you know what I mean.) And for the most part they have, as far as I know (or knew), none of them had any interest in her.
Now it's the end of the year, and I find out one of my BEST friends (we'll call him Joe) Joe is planning to ask her out. Now, me and Joe are good friends, but Joe pretty much only cares about himself. It hurts me to say that, but its true. And I'm not just saying that because of the current scenario (although this has contributed to it, which I'll explain) but because he has done many other things which led me to believe this is true.
He just told me, like I wouldnt care. And I mean, I don't want to overreact, but I am pretty pissed off about this. It's not entirely the fact that hes asking out a girl I've liked for quite a while, but that he would do something like that when he knows how I react to this kind of stuff. I don't really ever often go after girls and when I do it's only if I really like them, and he knows that as well.
Now shes told me she doesn't like him. Apparently this has come up in the past between them. But the one thing that really gets me is that I feel like she is just telling me she doesn't like him to not hurt my feelings (she knows I sort of like her) and that if he does ask her out, theres a small possibility she would say yes.
Now every part of me wants me to be happy for them, they're both people I care about, but I just can't help but feel upset about it. Am I being too childish about this? Theres a lot of conflicting feelings between me, I really don't know how to react now. And in advance, I'd just like to say I know I'm a mess and this post is probably hard to read, but I'm just... bleh right now. Sorry.
Well fast forward to now, us both being sophomores in High School. We still talk and I see her every now and then, but here is the thing: I've kind of started to form a crush on her. Actually, I've had something of a crush on her for about a year and a half, but I've never acted on it (for several reasons.)
Here is where my problems begin. Of course, I've told all of my friends about me liking this girl. They all known and have known for quite some time. And while this may sound selfish, I kind of expected them to leave her to me (metaphorically, you know what I mean.) And for the most part they have, as far as I know (or knew), none of them had any interest in her.
Now it's the end of the year, and I find out one of my BEST friends (we'll call him Joe) Joe is planning to ask her out. Now, me and Joe are good friends, but Joe pretty much only cares about himself. It hurts me to say that, but its true. And I'm not just saying that because of the current scenario (although this has contributed to it, which I'll explain) but because he has done many other things which led me to believe this is true.
He just told me, like I wouldnt care. And I mean, I don't want to overreact, but I am pretty pissed off about this. It's not entirely the fact that hes asking out a girl I've liked for quite a while, but that he would do something like that when he knows how I react to this kind of stuff. I don't really ever often go after girls and when I do it's only if I really like them, and he knows that as well.
Now shes told me she doesn't like him. Apparently this has come up in the past between them. But the one thing that really gets me is that I feel like she is just telling me she doesn't like him to not hurt my feelings (she knows I sort of like her) and that if he does ask her out, theres a small possibility she would say yes.
Now every part of me wants me to be happy for them, they're both people I care about, but I just can't help but feel upset about it. Am I being too childish about this? Theres a lot of conflicting feelings between me, I really don't know how to react now. And in advance, I'd just like to say I know I'm a mess and this post is probably hard to read, but I'm just... bleh right now. Sorry.