not wanting to be here

[-:Undertaker:-]

how often would you say you have the feeling of not wanting to be here or indifference. or do you never feel it

i'd say it depends but often it's 50%+ and rarely below that where i really couldn't care if i woke up tommorow or not. maybe that's because i've accepted like death and am not scared of it like a lot of people are?

anyway wbu

[Nick]

nope

[Empired]

I often get passing thoughts of wishing I would die but I know perfectly well that I don't actually mean that at all and what I really want is just for things to be different.

I'll be ok with dying one day but I want to actually do stuff with my life before that happens.

[scottish]

Never,

[Elegance]

yeah i have a lot of days where i wake up n just don't want to be here probs like two/three days a week

similar to empired really, i think about death a lot but the reasons why are things that can be changed and in the long run are (?) temporary (?) (????) like whilst they aren't permanent, they aren't exactly things i feel like i have the ability to personally change, they're mostly dependant on actions/feelings of other people so i just wish things were different but hey ho nothing i can do

the thought of death is awful and i know there are things that i'd like to achieve and places i'd like to go first although sometimes i get caught up in my sadness and completely forget about all of those things

[Jurv]

Never! Life is too precious

[buttons]

used to be constant now it's just an occasional fleeting feeling sometimes for no reason at all

[-:Undertaker:-]

yeah mine usually is just when i'm not occupied with anything

if my mind is on something/i'm doing something then i don't think of it

[x-s-x]

I used to be like this from 14 - 17 but now my 19 and life seems to be getting better so it's very rare for me to feel that way now

[Artpops]

Life is too precious to have such grim thoughts!

[Catchy]

never... i think if you think this you could probably benefit from a bit of support from somewhere

[Chris]

Never :0

[FlyingJesus]

Loads yeah that's what some of my delicious pills are for

[Kyle]

Ye I've been indifferent about death at points n I think anybody in this thread that has denied it is lying for fear of coming off as a sad or negative person.

It's perfectly normal to have these thoughts on occasion but if ur having them every time ur not occupied please start to consider where they're stemming from and that they can become damaging if u continue to allow them to crop up. Talking about ur thoughts with someone will almost always help towards overcoming or reducing the frequency of them so pls consider it guys x

[Catchy]

Ye I've been indifferent about death at points n I think anybody in this thread that has denied it is lying for fear of coming off as a sad or negative person.

It's perfectly normal to have these thoughts on occasion but if ur having them every time ur not occupied please start to consider where they're stemming from and that they can become damaging if u continue to allow them to crop up. Talking about ur thoughts with someone will almost always help towards overcoming or reducing the frequency of them so pls consider it guys x



no kyle am genuinely not lying i have never thought to myself "i dont wanna be here anymore" but i am terrified of death and do often think "whats it gonna be like" but then i get really worked up from the thought of it

[scottish]

Ye I've been indifferent about death at points n I think anybody in this thread that has denied it is lying for fear of coming off as a sad or negative person.

It's perfectly normal to have these thoughts on occasion but if ur having them every time ur not occupied please start to consider where they're stemming from and that they can become damaging if u continue to allow them to crop up. Talking about ur thoughts with someone will almost always help towards overcoming or reducing the frequency of them so pls consider it guys x

similar to Jake i can honestly say i've never thought i've not wanted to be there, I'm not afraid of death cause if it happens it happens but I've never had the thought that I didn't want to be here.

[Shar]

Yeah, quite often recently. It's a really hard thing to explain. I am totally grateful for my life but I'm just going through a difficult time. Just waiting for the light on the other side of the tunnel or whatever.

[-:Undertaker:-]

Q.

For those who have them, how often/if at all does added thought of ending it come into play?

[thms]

Q.

For those who have them, how often/if at all does added thought of ending it come into play?

the idea of having to go through with it and inflict pain on myself to do it scares me and is probably what has terrified me the most in the past when i've felt suicidal. from research i've made the idea of it hurting or it failing is one of the things that makes people not go through with it and i 100% relate. i don't have these thoughts as much as i used to anymore, i was really having a hard time for a few years and felt very isolated and alone but the internet was my escape - this year has been a turning point in the sense that i've started to communicate more with my mother about my mental health problems, i've gotten a job, made a lot of new friends and i've been seeing someone who has genuinely made me happier and more confident and ~~~~find~~~~ myself more. there are still times when i feel down where i am like 'ohh what if' but it passes. i've also went to the doctors recently because it got bad again to begin seeing someone for counselling, if it ever gets that bad again, i have a number to call because i'm so much more appreciative of who i am, my life and the amazing people i have in it, whether internet friends or rl or family

[FlyingJesus]

I don't usually think about having an active part in my demise, more about not wanting to have existed in the first place rather than wanting to die now

[buttons]

similar to Jake i can honestly say i've never thought i've not wanted to be there, I'm not afraid of death cause if it happens it happens but I've never had the thought that I didn't want to be here.
if you don't do the dishes you'll be fucking hoping you were dead!!!!!!!!

[scottish]

if you don't do the dishes you'll be fucking hoping you were dead!!!!!!!!

they do themselves if I don't, it's fine.

[whoeful]

ah this is a sad thread, i am here for u all xxx

[thms]

if you don't do the dishes you'll be fucking hoping you were dead!!!!!!!!

shook

[Alkaz]

Yes, quite a lot and its normally down to someone else acting like a **** around me or towards me.

I was talking to a doctor about this before and he said 9/10, people who do commit suicide just get up and do it. If you think about it too much and the pain it will inflict on others, what if you dont do it properly and end up a vegetable etc then you are less likely to ever commit to the act.

[-:Undertaker:-]

true but depends if people have worked out a plan or not. that's a Q in itself have people thought of methods/location etc

i'd say i get thoughts of doing myself in maybe 75% for everytime i actively feel don't wanna be here

[Empired]

Yes, quite a lot and its normally down to someone else acting like a **** around me or towards me.

I was talking to a doctor about this before and he said 9/10, people who do commit suicide just get up and do it. If you think about it too much and the pain it will inflict on others, what if you dont do it properly and end up a vegetable etc then you are less likely to ever commit to the act.
Yes. There's supposed to be a fog sometimes as well which is like some sort of trance and sometimes ppl snap out of it halfway through like wtf am I doing!!!

I had a friend who attempted suicide who described it like that and it must be so scary to suddenly wake up and be like ???!?!?!?!?!?!?

[Matt]

can't say i've had any thoughts like this

[despect]

I have before in the past but then I started to focus on doing more things that I get enjoyment from and slowly I started to get better. I wouldn't say I never get those thoughts now but not as much.

[Drew]

I just stumbled on this thread and it genuinely saddens me to read about the stuff so many of you are going through. I'm very lucky and can't say I've had these thoughts before - I'm not afraid of dying, just afraid of pain and what's gonna happen to the people I leave behind. I have a best friend who suffers from depression though and I often get texts in the middle of the night when she feels suicidal. It's happened 6 or 7 times now and I've managed to talk her out of doing anything silly so far. She's been seeing a lot of different doctors and she's getting better, but it still terrifies me that one day she might relapse and I might not be able to help her anymore.

Sending love to everyone xxx

[cammiee.]

tbh i have a lot of these thoughts but i love my life so idk why, guess life is just hard sometimes n people have to deal with that!!