okay well

[Keri?!]

this is gna be quite long so +rep to anyone who replies with a decent answer
I've posted something like this before but srsly now i have no idea what's going on.

okay well, since my grandad died (he died 1st feb) i havent been feeling myself, like at all. I'm always feeling like either really down or completely stressed. now, i'm generally quite a happy person, I laugh alot at stupid things and I'm generally really happy but over the past couple of months I just feel it's been gradually getting worse, I'm starting to cry more and like random times and i have no idea why. I've been having like reaaaaaaallllllllly big mood swings which are really affecting my relationships with people, mainly my mother. It's also affecting my relationship aswell, I just get these stupid feelings out of nowhere and get jealous and upset for no reason :\ I'm seriously beginning to think there's actually no benefit in life cause it just seems to be like dragging on and every day just feels like it goes on forever and i hate it. I can hardly sleep lately, which explains why im posting this when i have an exam in like 8 hours. Anyways, I really feel distant from like everyone and I feel like everyone's against me, I don't really have any self esteem either, so I feel people are always looking at me or talking about me or something and that's been getting much worse lately. I don't really like going out much cause I feel uncomfortable with loads of people around.
Anyways what I'm trying to get at is just generally feeling so down and upset all the time, I'll have moments every now and then when I'll be happy but that's for only like a hour/two at max and the mood swings are really sudden like if i see one thing happening, that will change my mood instantly.

but yeah, any ideas? cause i really have no idea what's going on and I don't know what to think or feel anymore cause i cant think straight. If anyone could think of any ideas to help me sort my stress out that would be great and im not just doing this for attention, I'm generally wanting help here lol

[Soy]

At first i thought you were driving at something sexual. Shoulda changed the wording of the first line lol.

you need to find something that you generally get enjoyment out of that will take your mind off all the negative aspects present.

we all feel like **** sometimes but life would be boring if every day was super duper awesome.

I'm the same sometimes, if im having a good day it can flip completely because someone has pissed me off or i've got an exam.

Just battle it out and try and find an aim in life after education.

[Shar]

I went through that all when my granddad died too
Nothing really helped and it got worse until I opened up to someone and just talked about my stress and life and how to handle them and also the things that were making me all upset and stuff
Use distractions to help you so: loud music (which I'm sure you already use ) , reading, going out with your mates and chillaxing and manage your revision schedule well so you don't get overly stressed about that cos that's probably adding a lot to your stress and mood swings cos I know it's adding to everyone's at the moment!

[Keri?!]

At first i thought you were driving at something sexual. Shoulda changed the wording of the first line lol.

you need to find something that you generally get enjoyment out of that will take your mind off all the negative aspects present.

we all feel like **** sometimes but life would be boring if every day was super duper awesome.

I'm the same sometimes, if im having a good day it can flip completely because someone has pissed me off or i've got an exam.

Just battle it out and try and find an aim in life after education.

I suppose, the only thing I really enjoy doing is something to do with music. My mother was going to try and get me to try ang get some work experience with a local radio station but I don't know if I can do it cause I'm really shy when meeting people at first and I don't want to look like a idiot. I know what I want to do after school and like I really want to be a radio DJ but I just don't think I have the talent that the actual DJ's have so it's just a bit like do I do it or not? loll

I went through that all when my granddad died too
Nothing really helped and it got worse until I opened up to someone and just talked about my stress and life and how to handle them and also the things that were making me all upset and stuff
Use distractions to help you so: loud music (which I'm sure you already use ) , reading, going out with your mates and chillaxing and manage your revision schedule well so you don't get overly stressed about that cos that's probably adding a lot to your stress and mood swings cos I know it's adding to everyone's at the moment!

I find it hard to talk to people, hence why I'm posting this all on a habbo forum ;p
I've tried talking to my mother but I just can't get everything out I want to say cause I'm scared she'll think I'm weird or something anyways, the distractions, I'm always listening to music, even before I go to sleep I do x] I read every now and then but not alot, so I'll try and read some more I do go out, not alot though cause I said above, I feel uncomfortable going out and I do need to sort out my revision timetable, I've been doing so much revision over the past couple of days but only in exams I want to actually focus on, I'm not stressed about all my exams, I'm actually looking forward to some of them loool

[,Rachyy,]

Well I mean your grandfather must have been an important part of your lifetime, because this is how you are coping with his death. I am going to give you my straight opinion and advice on this. The way you are dealing with it is not healthy Keri, you are too good of a person to let yourself feel like this. I understand it is hard to lose your grandfather, I lost one when I was in 8th grade, and things have been different ever since then. Have you maybe tried having a journal where you can write all of your inner feelings? I mean, writing things out usually helps me, and yeah. I know this is going to sound cliche, but what you are feeling is part of growing up. I will sound like an old fart, but when I was your age, I felt the exact same way. Like I was making everyone angry, and that anywhere I turned, I had a pair of eyes following along with some whispers in the dark. You just have to learn to look that feeling in the face and say, "Hey I don't need to feel this way." It's unhealthy for your body to put the extra stress on, and it's not a good habit to have. If there is something that makes you happy, say like playing a guitar try expressing your stress and frustrations out on that. Letting those thoughts sit in your head is no good, you need to get them out because they shouldn't be welcome in your head. All I can really say is, take a big breather and just find what makes you happy. Don't dwell on the bad, because Murphy's law will apply itself, and it will make everything worse. Have a good mindset, and things will get better. But they do say that things get worse before they ever get better. Hope this helped love.

[Andeeh]

I felt exactly this for a brief period after my mum died. If i were to give you some advice it would just be to set goals for yourself that your Grandad would be proud of. Also after all your exams and stuff make plans with your friends of what to do for the months off you have. I remember I used to go through days of just feeling like total and utter **** - and to be honest I still get that occasionally now. However you just gotta look at the positive outcome on life and move on but not forget.
All the best x

[Nicola]

Aww Keri

Nothing's going to get better if you let it take over you, I think it's just taking you a while to come to terms with it.

Remember that you've got people around you that will always be there to listen. I know you said in another post that you find it hard to talk to people so as suggested, maybe write it down in a book or something? I've done that before when I'm feeling pretty down and it's such a relief to get it all out. I find it's even better though when someone is there to actually listen so they can share the feelings with me because it's always nice when someone else understands how you feel. That way you don't feel completely alone.

If you get that work experience btw then I think you should go for it. It'll be a fantastic opportunity for you and hey you never know, it may just take your mind off everything and cheer you up

[Shar]

I find it hard to talk to people, hence why I'm posting this all on a habbo forum ;p
I've tried talking to my mother but I just can't get everything out I want to say cause I'm scared she'll think I'm weird or something anyways, the distractions, I'm always listening to music, even before I go to sleep I do x] I read every now and then but not alot, so I'll try and read some more I do go out, not alot though cause I said above, I feel uncomfortable going out and I do need to sort out my revision timetable, I've been doing so much revision over the past couple of days but only in exams I want to actually focus on, I'm not stressed about all my exams, I'm actually looking forward to some of them loool

Awww Keri you cutie
You'll be fine you freak who is looking forward to exams lmao
Just be your usual cheery self and try to see the brighter side of life