i can't seem to enjoy life

[Hollyish]

Iya bbbbzz. long time no see.

[buttons]

oh holly as caring as ever shame your logic makes no sense and you're still dumb as ****

[Stephen]

Wats goin on in ere

[Chris]

Can you guys stay on topic please, or this thread will be closed!

[e5]

I used to have an OCD where everything had to be straight like mats and carpets... still have to do it a tiny bit now if I see it but i'm not as thorough... I used to lay in bed thinking oh god are the mats straight.. then went down to straighten them :| noone knew... I just naturally sorted myself out... Now its more I have to have keys straight in the lock... not like twisted:/ Normal to me when I don't think about it... But typing about it now, makes it seem so weird!

[Wig44.]

(I know I'm probably recapping some of the thread)

Not eating and drastically limiting what foods you eat to the point of nutritional deficiencies and fainting is more unhealthy than the people who regularly eat junk. They may have worse skin than you but comparably their mental health is far better. It sounds like depression, possibly perpetuated by OCD. Also, it was interesting that you think food eaten before sleeping is wasted/unecessary. While sleeping you still use energy & food eaten before sleeping replaces fat reserves diminished during the day.

I can relate to some of what you're feeling though, I am pretty sure I'm a narcissist and should probably try and get counselling but I know I would just wind up the therapist/take the piss.

Striving for perfection is one of the most destructive things you can do, it's not even possible to become perfect.