Self harm awareness day<3

[Cerys]

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or working long hours, day after day, can all be helping people to numb or distract themselves and avoid being alone with their thoughts and feelings.

That's what I do tbh. I don't want to come home from school as I know when I get home I'm gonna be alone til 7pm, even if stopping later at school doesn't really keep me from being alone either.. atleast it stops me from doing something major i'll regret. and even at 7pm when my mum gets home, she's in her bedroom the rest of the night working so i dont see her. my dad has run off with my brother and a different family and he has cut off all connections with me so i dont ever talk to him or my brother anymore. every day in school i sit in lessons with tables full of people who laugh at me and call me stuff until the bell goes, but im not brave enough to ask to be moved as i know it'll cause more problems which i dont want. my best friend has replaced me and only talks to me when she wants to complain about stuff. luckily, i suppose, i have got a new friend who has so far been there for me, but now what seems like my only friend is getting more distant from me, not wanting to talk to me anymore or sit with me. i dont really want to go much more into the school situation as it hurts too much to talk about it.
i have been getting panic attacks for three years now - it feels like i am being strangled and everything goes blurry and dizzy, like i am about to collapse. it's freaking scary.. feels like you could die at any second.. but then again, would anyone care? i have only just told my mum about the panic attacks, but i dont think i could ever tell her about the self harm.

when i get home from school i go on the computer til the early hours to try and escape it all. but that never happens. everything ends up following me, even gets worse some times. for example last night.. i logged onto habbo for the first time in ages to be greeted by three boys from this forum laughing and taking the pee out of my dog who died recently, repeatedly saying my dog is probably fake and never existed, that i should cut him up into small chunks and just laughing at me in general about everything and much more for about 2 hours non stop. they just wouldn't stop... i dont understand how they could get entertainment out of making someone breakdown. by this point i am in tears, shaking, struggling to breathe and going to the kitchen for a knife and whatever is in the medicine cabinet.
i finally get to bed, looking for free spaces on my arms or legs then occupying them. then the cycle continues the next morning. you may not think that everything is that bad, but trust me, after years of this happening, its now unbearable. i just have to get out of here.

[Catchy]

no-one mentioned about anyone being mentally stable? :S there are lots of reason. someone may do it because they have no feelings in themselves so cut themselves to try feel something, its been quite common in sociopaths. other people do it because they have too much feelings that they can't express themselves and its the only way they can personally rid of that feeling. you've never been in that situation therefore you don't understand and pass it off as being weird or idiotic. anyway, i don't like to talk to people without basic empathy so i wont. id say im more emotionally stable than many as in i don't care about what others say no longer nor care about fitting in, so i wouldn't do it because im being bullied. there are other personal reasons i do it. all i know is it makes me feel better and that's enough for me.

eugh adam seriously your opinion is fine, i hope no-one you're close to is struggling from a mental disorder because if you were to say that to someone you'd make them feel a lot worse.

what.... if people are doing this they're OBVIOUSLY mentally unstable or just begging for attention. My question is, if people really hate their life that much why don't they jus top emselves and be done with it? Harsh but it's my opinion sorry.

[Adam]

what.... if people are doing this they're OBVIOUSLY mentally unstable or just begging for attention. My question is, if people really hate their life that much why don't they jus top emselves and be done with it? Harsh but it's my opinion sorry.

greed and selfishness is why it is done. although they're idiots because if they kill themselves it's like beating yourself at sports. who wins? nobody. idiots.

**** it, turn to drugs if it's that bad. life isn't that bad. it is what you make it.

[Catchy]

greed and selfishness is why it is done. although they're idiots because if they kill themselves it's like beating yourself at sports. who wins? nobody. idiots.

**** it, turn to drugs if it's that bad. life isn't that bad. it is what you make it.

didnt understand a word of that.

[Adam]

didnt understand a word of that.

me neither, I can't be arsed to write coherently when dealing with situations like this.

short version: man up, ******s.

[Cerys]

You lot honestly disgust me. You probably have never been in most of our situations, so how can you comment. To be honest, some of you even make our situations worse yet you're telling us WE'RE the idiots? Yeah, sure.

[Adam]

You lot honestly disgust me. You probably have never been in most of our situations, so how can you comment. To be honest, some of you even make our situations worse yet you're telling us WE'RE the idiots? Yeah, sure.

i've been a victim of long term bullying, close family dying etc etc but that is life, you deal with it. if you accept defeat then what's the point? like i said it's like beating yourself at a game.

[sex]

greed and selfishness is why it is done. although they're idiots because if they kill themselves it's like beating yourself at sports. who wins? nobody. idiots.

**** it, turn to drugs if it's that bad. life isn't that bad. it is what you make it.

no its not, you really have no clue about anything to do with the topic so maybe you should stop voicing your WRONG ignorant views

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i've been a victim of long term bullying, close family dying etc etc but that is life, you deal with it. if you accept defeat then what's the point? like i said it's like beating yourself at a game.

not everyone can deal with it.... how can you not understand that. lol :S

[buttons]

what.... if people are doing this they're OBVIOUSLY mentally unstable or just begging for attention. My question is, if people really hate their life that much why don't they jus top emselves and be done with it? Harsh but it's my opinion sorry.

what? Adam said 'which sane person would self harm' and i said no-one said they were mentally stable..

cause self harm is nothing to do with killing yourself, it's more to do with getting a relief, can be something done in the moment and as i say self harm comes in many forms, can be taking drugs and alcohol to forget problems work long hours so they don't have to be alone with their thoughts etc. you can self harm cause of one problem in your life doesn't mean you don't have many other things to live for. could self harm cause they have so much repressed feelings ie struggling to cope with feelings of homosexuality, can be based on a specific problem at that moment that you can't deal with so you self harm only then, not because an underlying mental condition has caused it etc. Many self harm and try to commit suicidewhile many self harm and want to live, tis an individual case not everything fits all.

it's nice that you let things go so easily adam, wonder if you'd do the same if you were constantly abused as a child and not allowed to speak out so that's how you deal with, everyone has a different way of dealing with things.

[Adam]

it's nice that you let things go so easily adam, wonder if you'd do the same if you were constantly abused as a child and not allowed to speak out so that's how you deal with, everyone has a different way of dealing with things.

i don't doubt it, one bit. I know it happens it's not like i'm turning a blind eye to it. my girlfriend is an ex-cutter or whatever you want to call it so i have a little insight.

the fact is, your bullying and hurting yourself ALONG with the pain you're already putting up with (or not putting up with) doesn't make sense. you're essentially double downing yourself.

it's idiotic. yes there should be more help/services/charities w/e for people like this to realise how much of an idiot they are being to let something anger them that badly.

i feel sorry for them, you, w/e but self harmers are idiots.