I just want to 'do something'

[geo]

mm yea I'm interested in getting into sports a bit too really, I've always been dreadful and been made fun of how bad I was though and it always put me off but I needa get fit too anyway tbh, and I just am struggling so much because I am in such a sticky situation that I can't even get out of.

I've started applying for jobs now at least anyway though, only done a Waitrose app so far but gonna be like really looking into it all this half term so at least I have something to do in the holidays and might make a few friends possibly lmfao.

I'm gonna like start writing that thing I was talking to geo about though cause that will definitely help me, just needa like start getting to going out with people a little more I suppose, but I just feel that I am such a boring person with no personality that I don't get why anyone would want to do anything with me really, which is sorta why I'm so reluctant to ask the girl out that I fancy too, even though I think she probably does like me from the way she acts around me.

The NCS stuff Geo was talking about too looks really good tbh but in all honesty I think it's that fear of actually just applying to it and getting into it really, surrounded by people I don't know and not one person I do I would probably just break down completely really and I just would be so uncomfortable.

Also been thinking about writing a diary recently though of just all the things that are plaguing me in life so I can actually start to deal with them really and also anything that's gone well that day so I can actually see how I'm progressing. With no-one to really talk to about everything that goes on irl I sorta just bottle everything up and I really think like a diary would be great to just let my feelings out really

Chances are that a few people at NCS are going to be like you, just trying to get out instead of doing nothing. You're not the only one so I wouldn't think you'd be alone, and people would make efforts to meet new friends I'm sure.

[Zak]

I enjoy some stuff, like I wouldn't really give up the internet fully because, although it is 1 of the main reasons I had no social life, I still enjoy using it. But I don't enjoy the fact I could be out there doing more stuff, gets really irritating doing the same thing every day.

It's unusual because I've felt the same way for a long time. You feel like you're missing out?

My life actually isn't that bad. I do go out quite a lot - that's because I have a girlfriend though. Without her I'd be in your situation (A situation I was in like for years).. It can be hard sometimes.. being on the internet ruined my social life too but would I change what I did? No. I'm a loser, I love the internet and I love the people I know on the internet

[MKR&*42]

It's unusual because I've felt the same way for a long time. You feel like you're missing out?

My life actually isn't that bad. I do go out quite a lot - that's because I have a girlfriend though. Without her I'd be in your situation (A situation I was in like for years).. It can be hard sometimes.. being on the internet ruined my social life too but would I change what I did? No. I'm a loser, I love the internet and I love the people I know on the internet

I love the majority people I've online (mainly hxf) too, but yeah i still feel like I wanna go out and see more haha. You might be used to doing the same thing on the internet but after 4 or so years (my god it's been that long ) I'm irritated from it.

Each to their own I suppose

[Zelda]

I do wonder if I'm missing out on much sometimes really with the lack of social life tbh. Like I've always thought it just seems boring to go out and do something with friends, can't really see anything that would be particularly interesting with that, (not interested in parties or anything and hate shopping etc) while I would much rather sit at home and play through like a zelda game or whatever and do what I enjoy.

makes me wonder like if I should just do what you said Zak and do what I enjoy really, instead of just like trying to make a massive effort to break through my horrible social and mental problems to try and get even a small social life that I probably wouldn't enjoy lmfao

[Zak]

I do wonder if I'm missing out on much sometimes really with the lack of social life tbh. Like I've always thought it just seems boring to go out and do something with friends, can't really see anything that would be particularly interesting with that, (not interested in parties or anything and hate shopping etc) while I would much rather sit at home and play through like a zelda game or whatever and do what I enjoy.

makes me wonder like if I should just do what you said Zak and do what I enjoy really, instead of just like trying to make a massive effort to break through my horrible social and mental problems to try and get even a small social life that I probably wouldn't enjoy lmfao

I think a lot of people on HxF feel the same way. I think just like you, going out with friends? That's jsut effort on my part - and if I do go out I'll only be bored. Even more creepy that I played Zelda on Saturday for 3 hours - completed the Great Bay Temple on Majora's Mask

I eventually just gave up trying to be someone I'm not. I like being on my own, playing Runescape.. watching wrestling in my room. Playing with the dogs, collecting Pokemon cards! I think when you give in you'll feel better.. but don't let that stop you from doing anything. I still go out and do things but that's only because I have Laura .. Like I said.

I'm very lucky to have someone like that.

[Zelda]

I think a lot of people on HxF feel the same way. I think just like you, going out with friends? That's jsut effort on my part - and if I do go out I'll only be bored. Even more creepy that I played Zelda on Saturday for 3 hours - completed the Great Bay Temple on Majora's Mask

I eventually just gave up trying to be someone I'm not. I like being on my own, playing Runescape.. watching wrestling in my room. Playing with the dogs, collecting Pokemon cards! I think when you give in you'll feel better.. but don't let that stop you from doing anything. I still go out and do things but that's only because I have Laura .. Like I said.

I'm very lucky to have someone like that.

o god majoras mask was all i was doing a couple of weeks back tbh LMAO but I halted game playing after I finished it while I do my exams

yea I have felt really tempted to give in at the moment, the thing is for me I'm not lucky enough to have someone like that around me That might change if I can pluck the courage to ask this girl I really care about out but I doubt that'd happen tbh knowing what I'm like.

[Kardan]

o god majoras mask was all i was doing a couple of weeks back tbh LMAO but I halted game playing after I finished it while I do my exams

yea I have felt really tempted to give in at the moment, the thing is for me I'm not lucky enough to have someone like that around me That might change if I can pluck the courage to ask this girl I really care about out but I doubt that'd happen tbh knowing what I'm like.

Today I learned that you're male.

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[Catchy]

I think what you're all going through is completely normal. Everyone has a stage like this in their lives but things DO get better! @mcdonalds; you're still young so you're really limited in what you can do, I was the same at your age but as I got older I started to do more things and then once I went to college my social life really had improved, you meet new people and make new friends it's totally different than your school days. Just try and enjoy the time you have with your friends at school right now because honestly, you'll be sat there in a few years thinking "where did all that time go?".

But yeah, everyone is beating themselves up about not making the most out of life or whatever, instead of doing that take onboard what others have suggested. At the end of the day it's your own lives and you're the only ones who can change them.

[Shar]

I think what you're all going through is completely normal. Everyone has a stage like this in their lives but things DO get better! @mcdonalds; you're still young so you're really limited in what you can do, I was the same at your age but as I got older I started to do more things and then once I went to college my social life really had improved, you meet new people and make new friends it's totally different than your school days. Just try and enjoy the time you have with your friends at school right now because honestly, you'll be sat there in a few years thinking "where did all that time go?".

But yeah, everyone is beating themselves up about not making the most out of life or whatever, instead of doing that take onboard what others have suggested. At the end of the day it's your own lives and you're the only ones who can change them.

Totally agree with you. I bet there's a few people off here including myself who need to sit around on hxf/habbo/laptop etc all day and mope around thinking wth am I doing with my life. It is up to you to take some action and make things better by doing something with yourself. It's easy for people to give advice but the hard part is for you to actually wanting to take it and act upon it and make the best of it otherwise ite just pointless words that won't make you feel better no matter why anyone days.

[Zak]

o god majoras mask was all i was doing a couple of weeks back tbh LMAO but I halted game playing after I finished it while I do my exams

yea I have felt really tempted to give in at the moment, the thing is for me I'm not lucky enough to have someone like that around me That might change if I can pluck the courage to ask this girl I really care about out but I doubt that'd happen tbh knowing what I'm like.

Today I learned that you're male.

Yeh wtf ??????????????????? :S

What - I just looked and your name is Tom and you're a boy. *REMOVED*

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