Is this the end?

[LewstherinII]

Firstly, I want to say: Sorry all. If you're content with that, click "Back" on your browser. I might be leaving. I might not.

I apologize for my rude and unacceptable behaviour on the forum yesterday and last week. I was having a bad one - and I'm not going into why because it's personal.
I would like to say thanks to 2hd. *cough* backstabber *cough* for accepting me as Competitions Staff after 11 ideas, more work than anyone else has put in. No I'm just kidding - I don't actually want to say thanks.
All issues aside; I said some actually really rude and mean things about Habbox. All of them I meant, I won't take them back - but all of them should not be put on the forum. It was unacceptable for me to be rude - though as I understand it a lot of other members were in turn, quite rude to me. As they don't have jobs, they have nothing to lose.
I have PM'd Seacat many times but his decision is final. Although I wasn't warned - it was straight off job to nothing - he has decided my work does not merit another chance - and that no one can change from having a few bad days to feeling better again. And this dissmissal is not helping.
So in the next few weeks; you can look at the homepage where I once posted news, go back through the Competitions Ideas forum and check out the work I put in. You can compare it to other Staff; you could just reply and say how happy you are to see me fired, or you can find someone else and shout "WRONG SECTION" or "YOU'RE ABUSING YOUR POSITION".
As for the Lottery...I will explain my anger, as I feel you all deserve an explanation. I thought the Lottery would be a nice little event that involved for less 'richer' members of Habbo to have a chance for someone to win. I was flamed for it, and I got a bit tired of the constant people on Habbox trying to find fault. After all that has been happening to me personally, I exploded.
Apparently, according to an unnamed member, I was 'abusing my position' by posting it in Habbox News. I don't know what to do here. I thought it was Habbox News. Seacat explained later that I wasn't allowed to post there - though this detail must have slipped through my mind as it isn't possible that I wasn't told that.
I'd just like to say a real thank you to Shabbs, who took me in to post News. I hope you feel I did a good job; though as long as one person in power feels I am not worthy, it doesn't matter if you do.
Continuing my negativity over the past few weeks, I am debating. Why bother being polite to the very members and society that have made me upset? I tell myself, for the friends I have made, to name a few, Wolverine, Catchetat, Micky-Blue-Eyes, Katrina, Han (Started out as enemies but we worked it out ), Neversoft, -Dannie, Stealth, Ymo (He came round - sorry about jumping on you!), Organized, D3stroyer, Hiet, that strange penguin fella that could convert source code to linux, and JoeyK. So I apologize for naming my thoughts on the forum, but you know what?
I am also sorry for Habbox. What it has become. It's a society where I see people at each other's throats, who run a mile to name a fault, and a society based around the power of reputation. On occasion, a jewel like the friends I have made will shine through, and until now, I thought that jewel was worth it. It still has the same value - but the smog that covers it is far too thick to get through.
I am not sure where the road goes from here. It's splits into two, you see. I can take the road that seems easier - leave Habbox and its forsaken jewels and search for another place, or I can take the Road Less Travelled, and head back in a circle, ready to post 11 Competition Ideas and six months of News before I am recognized again.
I doubt 2hd. cares. I doubt Seacat does. But one this is for sure I wanted the community to know that I cared about those jobs. I did well at them. And because partially due to other members - and partially to myself, which I have apologized for, I have...er, how did Seacat put it? I left.
I suppose I have one more thing to ask of those metaphoric jewels, to leave opinions.
And I will say one last thing: I overstepped myself far. It was inappropriate. But you just look at other members besides those who like to do a nice little Easter lottery next time - and look at those that put in work - and rep them. Give the green. It's free. One thing Habbox doesn't seem to get. Whether you have 10 rep, or 7, or 1. For the smallest contribution to making our world a better place, rep them.
I apologize for any contraversy in this speech - but by my life it is true. I am sorry for any hurt feelings I may have caused. It was unacceptable. I encourage you to post your thoughts. And I will keep impartial this time.
In dedication to DJ-3000, who saw through the smog too.

[Proof!]

Hmm what can I say.You did what you did thru your feelings, and now your moving on using your brain.Im not having a massive go at you or anything just my thoughts.And I think this time you might have been using your brain.Im sure you have heared the saying 'Mind over matter' I wish you good luck in the future, it is your choice and I respect that

Good Luck,
Matt
(HotelMental)

[sarey]

What he said ^^

[LewstherinII]

Thank you.
Is it good that I'n moving on with my brain?

[Proof!]

Thank you.
Is it good that I'n moving on with my brain?

Ye, your using your brain more than your fellings.Mind over matter like I said I had to leave my fansite aswell.Didnt want to but I needed to move on.And it was great because I moved on to HabboFM I was able to do more stuff with Habbo and come to Habbox aswell.

[LewstherinII]

Aw, good for you. Good luck

[Proof!]

Aw, good for you. Good luck

hehe well it's worked out better than I expected.

[LewstherinII]

Thanks Hotel.

[Piipp]

You were abusing your position, you posted in the wrong section. Why have rules if those whom are supposed to lead an example don't follow them themselves? Is it a wonder we have so many spammers?

[-mad-monkey-]

Not big headed at all...

I would like to say thanks to 2hd. *cough* backstabber *cough* for accepting me as Competitions Staff after 11 ideas, more work than anyone else has put in. No I'm just kidding - I don't actually want to say thanks.

You sond like a delightfull person to work with...