Am I Crazy?

[Zample]

Well, I guess I have to tell someone.

So post it on a forum were nobody knows me! Yay!

Okay, well, it all started in June this summer (2006)..

My parents took me and my two brothers to New York City (Manhattan) and we explored all kinds of landmarks and such. Then we went on a carnival cruise from NYC to Canada. It was only a four-day cruise, but I liked it. But on the first night of the cruise, I went out to look for entertainment. In one of the lounges there as a comedian (and a very funny one at that), so I took a seat on the steps that leaded to seating. A guy came in, probably 1-3 year(s) older than me. I thought he was hot.. Lol. But then when I saw him I thought he was cute and handsome, not something I think much. I didn't say anything, I just kind of stared a bit and admired him a bunch. Cause I'm that much of a loser. And then I followed him back down to his cabin, pretending to go to mine. Miraculously, it ended up that we were on the very same floor and our state rooms were not too far apart. I never got the exact room number, though...
From there-on-out, I went cruising around the ship. Up the deck to get Ice Cream, to the lounges to find entertainment and music, or just walked around mindlessly. Everywhere I went, I hoped I would see him because he made me feel like I was in love... I really don't know how to explain it. I dunno. Well, I saw him a lot, and whenever I saw him around my parents I would try to say something funny just to see him laugh but I'd end up saying something ******ed that I now kind of laugh at myself over for being such an IDIOT. But whenever I saw him, he looked at me and didn't say a word.. and I did the same.
I remember on the final night of the cruise, him and I went to the same show, "Vroooom" or something like it. I hated it, but I spent most of my time looking down a couple of rows, where he was. But one time when I looked down I saw a face looking up at me.. that looked an oddly lot like his, and it was looking right at me. We both turned away immediatley. Eventually in the show, he and his mom came up and sat behind me, up at these tables. So I went up there too, becuase my parents were there. I saw him leave and wanted to leave as soon as possible. When I finally did leave, it was before my parents did. I went down to the state rooms and my heart fluttered when I saw him walking towards me. It was such a slim hallway that I had to turn myself to let him pass. When he did, I watched him and he seemed to be forcing himself to keep his eyes ahead of him. I felt awkward.
I never talked to him.
Not once.
I don't even know his name
but I remember his eyes and everything about him
I still have his picture in my mind and I want to keep it, but i don't know.
I feel stupid for feeling like this but I feel like he and I were meant to be or something pointless like that.
Am I just crazy, or what? :S

Help me out here..

[Kymux]

COol wanna trade +reps ?


Catzsy (Forum Super Moderator) - Please stay on topic.

[Zample]

.. you didn't even read it, did you?

[clar_xo]

its a teenage crush, it'll pass..

[Zample]

if you insist...

[clar_xo]

if you insist...

:s err.. what kinda replys are you expecting to get off people btw? :s

[infatuation]

its a teenage crush, it'll pass..

if you insist...

roflmaooo.

"if you insist". Literally, I lol'd.

Clarissa's right, it will pass.

[Billay]

you shioupldve made dirty love t him on the bed.

[i luv rosie]

you shioupldve made dirty love t him on the bed.

wot he sed

[Eamonn]

Its a crush like Claz said :] you can't expect yourself to be actually in love with someone whom you don't even know their name.