i've been feeling pretty bad the last few weeks. i think it kinda stems from the fact that like, my best friend of a couple of years abondoned me in november, pretty much didnt contact me, avoided me & never contacted me. and then when i finally got a reply (three months later) he told me avoided me cus i was too clingy and i made him feel trapped.
it kinda scrapped my self confidence, cus i proper loved that guy & sometimes it was more than just 'best friends' but nvm.
now we never speak & i'm having a proper hard time adapting to life without him because he promised me alot of things & now i've gotta make plans over plans we had made & it just makes me feel really bad.
& i also like this other guy but i'm almost certain he doesn't feel that way about me, & uh.. i'm just bored with everything. i'm bored with myself but i don't have the motivation for an image change, which is weird... because i'm always up for change but now, nar.
heh. i just really needed to rant. end.
any suggestions to anything? xo.






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