Rant.. needs help about beating && self harming.

[Mitch4?]

Okay so, my friend had a house party, everyone there was 15, this was last night. We all were drinking about 30 of us, and then my friend got upset and thought that everyone only came because they wanted to get drunk, and not cause it was her birthday.
So as i do, i get sober straight away if anything goes wrong, so for the rest of the night i watched everyone having messed up fun, with the expense of my friend. So like the last hour about i sat in the corner and was upset. A few friends came over to comfort me, but i couldnt hold back the tears, because i was thinking about my whole general life. And how i hate my family, just they're really awful and treat me like ****e (This is not a teenage mood thing btw) Then i just hated how everyone disrespected people at the party, So i lied down under the table and tried to get to sleep, next thing i knew my best friend was in the garage with me.

He was helping me alot, and i appreciate him loads for that, but then i fell into more tears and i told him everything. Then out of knowhere he went to me, listen we've all got troubles, thats what the therapists are for. Listen, my dad beats up my mum, and i always try to beat him up for it. Then he showed me his left arm, and it had like 20 cuts on it. I looked in shock for like 10 minutes, i felt lowest ive ever felt. How could i of been blind enough to of missed it all. After hugs and promises with him, he aggreed he'd stop if i told him whenever i get upset i tell him so he can help me fix it.

But then i got home and his girlfriend which hes been seeing for ages was talking to me and told me that she knew about it, and he does have therapists, but he is like the funniest, senseiblist person i know. But i dunno what to do, theres so much stuff in my mind. But i can't help but feel i have to do with this first, i have no idea.

What should i do? I'm going the cinema with him and a few friends today, should i say anything to him?!


I doubt anyone really read all that word for word and i dont blame you, i just felt like a rant.

[Breakfloor]

I read it all.

and dont mention it to anyone because thats personal yeh?

only talk about it if you NEED to. just act normal and the crying bit was probably because you have been drinking and the thoughts are too. (drink does that to evryone) and im not saying you dont have problems or your lying but drink makes it feel worse.

dont say anything about the wrist/arm cutting thing all hes saying is if you need him hes there

[Breakfloor]

i just posted here and now its gone..

ok what i said was drink makes all thoughts feel worse.

hes basically saying if you need him hes there for you yeh

just tell him the same but dont do it around yours/his friends and dont tell anyone about it k?

sorry if this is coudble post but my post is gone

ahh damn it is. merge posts pls (accident)