Feeling blah

[Bef]

Grr i hate my brain, seriously i need to stop thinking.
I got soooooooo much crud going round and round and round that its driving me even crazier. Iv gone back on my meds because my mate told me iv been a total feef past couple of weeks when i aint been taking them.
It sucs cos i feel like the real me is the total feefed up loony and the medicated me is just a mask.
i dont want to wear a mask and it hurts when my best mate turns round and says something like that. I know shes looking after my best intrests and i know iv been out of control since i stopped taking them but meh. I had such a crud childhood that i dont want to get in to but i just wish life could go great now, that i could be normal and have normal thoughts and not always feef things up.
This is just me ranting, doubt anyone can help me but ust wanted to open up somewhere, helps sometimes.
I feel like my best mate hates me, shes being really iffy with me. i can understand cos i have been a total *** but i rang her up earlier and apoligised and said id start takin my meds again and i think she felt it was all just excuses.
I duno, blah.
Someone pass me a screwdriver ;o

[Nemo]

what kind of problems do u have with ur brain that u need to have medication for if u dont mind me asking... and just give ur friend time and hopefully u will end up going back to the way things were and also wen ur older or later in life or w.e u will probaly have a normal life.. so just think of others for now that have it worse than u, just whilst ur trying to get through this :]

[Bef]

sumthin called bipolar.

[Nemo]

sumthin called bipolar.

my mum has that.. im not really sure wot to say right now.. wot kind of help are u looking for?

[le harry]

Sleep dear child.

[Bef]

CANTTT SLEEP. Seriously theres a dog in my bed

[PS2.]

sumthin called bipolar.

My friend suffers from that, i'd suggest visiting a Psychiatrist if you aren't seeing one already. Don't quit taking your meds when you feel you're ok. Because often people that do have their symptoms come back. Your doctor will tell you when its alright to quit the meds