Remember That Newb I Mensioned In 'Did I Do The Right Thing?' ?

[Fez]

Today, I was angry. Very angry.

I was stook without lunch in the libary because I had to wait for my year manager to come and calm me down... something happened today that hurt
me so much, I wanted to kill him, kill Mattew.

After coming to school I hadn't a worry, if Mattew tried to hurt me again or gotten a gang of friends on me, I would've been fine. I went to a boxing club for 5 weeks so they should be running for the hills.

Anyway, at registration my best friend was ignoring and avoiding me, he kept moving tables and the moment the register had finished he rushed to take it back. Something werid was going on.

After a few lessons I went to the libary to check a few things, my group of
friends walked in , and sat on a nearby table. Mattew had come in today, his entire right eye was red and he had his right arm in a cast, I was still not in trouble, he deserved it.

Anyway, they sat down and another one my friends came over to me, I was still angry from yesterday, I was actually about to get up myself and see if he said anything to annoy me.

He came at me very quick and said
"You alright?"
"Yeah...why?" I replied (I will be in purple)
"Just well I heard about yesterday"

I showed him my plastered knuckles from punching him at that moment

"Yeah, I feel sorry for you"
"What you mean?"
"Well Matty battered you din' he?"
"You've gotta be kidding me, that son of a (MODS will I get banned for not avoiding the filter?) *****!"
"Well you've got a black eye you know"
"Obviously I lost sleep from angry emotions during that day"
"Seriously, you got a black eye"
"I havn't Ben..."
"Stop saying that he's got a black eye, he hasn't!" (Some girl said)
"Look if your gonna believe that lowlife then go ahead, I don't care"
"He also said that he went easy on you..."

After that, I immeadiatly rushed towards Mattew and grabbed his casted arm, my temples were red and my breath had been tainted with anger.

My so called 'friends' rushed by and tried to pull me off him, I simply pushed them away.

"Alright, I went easy on you, but that hurt didn't it"
"Shut up ya gay boy" he replied very faintly
"I swear this will only hurt for a second"

I began strangling him, anger begging my heart for more adrenaline. My fists clenched his neck like a raw chicken bone.

I heard a faint "Please" and due to my decency, let him go. He fell to the floor shaking like a scared insect. His cries of pain only fuelled my satisfaction.

"Good job I'm nice"

I walked outside the libary, only to be greeted by two policemen...

I was interviewed until 1:00pm. They came to a understanding that Mattew was using my anger to get me into trouble, Mattew will spend next term in detention completely....

BUT THAT'S NOT THE END

After my anger had taken over and the interview at stopped, I went to registration again. At registration I saw one of my friends on a computer (twas free period) I went over to him and after a very very long conversation about how 'gay' I am... I finnally admitted to him a few things. Here is the most important about the conversation.

"He pushed me, and pushed me, and pushed me... don't you get it.. he threw the first punch!"
"He was only joking... you gay boy you can't take a joke"
"What is it with all the homophobia around Schools"
"Maybe cos your gay?"
"Now your just been stupid, if your gonna believe that waste of skin, go ahead!"
"Yeah but I've known him longer than you, you gay ****"
"ANONYMUS, I don't want to hurt you like Mattew..."
"Just shut up gay boy!"
This was my best of friends... yet he had taken in Mattew's information rather than mine. I was furious, but I didn't want to hurt him, he was my best friend and I knew even if I was angry at him. I could never hurt him.

"Alright then... if your gonna believe some homophobic, agressive and self-centered little ******* then that's fine"
"Alright then, gay boy"
"Ya know what... I can finnally admit something, if you really want me to be gay then I think this is what will shock you"
"What, your actually gay?"
"No, I was going to tell you earlier today, but who cares. I'm Bisexual Scott... now get over it"

CUT TO 1:30PM
Mattew was at the last assembly, some performances and certificates were given out. We saw a slideshow of our time in Year 7... what really got me was how Mattew had learned nothing from the whole incident...

My picture never showed up, but right at the end, RIGHT AT THE END... his picture showed of him smiling, he cheered himself on with his faint voice, somebody told him to quiet while it finished but he resorted to calling them gay again with his grogy and inhuman voice.

So... I've got no friends.. I've got a new form.... I'm angry at everything that hurts me, I can't take a joke... I'm litterally insane (low-level).

What to do next?

[Concentric2]

No offense but this is quite entertaining; it's like reading a book, especially with all the

...my temples were red and my breath had been tainted with anger.

...anger begging my heart for more adrenaline.

He fell to the floor shaking like a scared insect. His cries of pain only fuelled my satisfaction.

I can see why all this is getting you angry but it's hard for us to tell whether they were joking or not to make that judgement because we're only hearing your side of the story.

Personally i'd just keep cool for a while - maybe go chat to some other people that you're not normally friends with and move on from the group that's annoying you.

[Fez]

I've discribed it more to let you know how much I am angry with him.

[Concentric2]

Well it's working - i hate him now too

[Fez]

I guess you've seen the other topic?

[Concentric2]

Yea, i replied in it

[Fez]

Hopefully I'll see my mentor the first day we get back from School

[emobusters]

i think you better calm down and just avoid matthew, because fighting is just going to scare everyone away, especially if he is stirring it up.

and if its the summer holidays soon then everything will settle down and you'll be able to go back in september with a fresh start.

[e5..]

I feel well upset for you tbh, all you were doing was sticking up for yourself and your sexuality... So you've got no friends? and your in the most trouble...? typivsl.. the bully always gets away ;/. I don't really know what to say apart from goodluck and I hope your friends return to you, or you get more or whatever, with it being the 6 week holidays, it might give them time to become your friend again... although I suppose you having the fight has scared everyone off as said in the post above.. they will be your friend still just scared on the inside...

[cocaine]

my advice would be to smash his head in harder next time