Okay well i know you guys always hear me going on about my eczema, but i just cant take it anymore. I dont care about comments really, i just need to vent. Basically ive had it for like 4 years now as 'bad', and i finally thought it was getting better but now its back and i just can't handle it. I didnt go school on thursday coz it was bad, i didnt go school today coz it was bad.
Im not really sure what to say really, it was REALLY bad a couple years ago, to the point of not wanting to move, but now its at the point i can't actually get ready and go out. I wake up, it feels like crap, hurts to move, i just don't bother. If i do manage to get out, im constantly putting cream on my face, worrying about whether its dry or if people notice. IF it is dry, u can notice people just staring at it, and its so god dam annoying. I just can't get out and it annoys me so much. Most days i just think about ending it, but i think no since i've got so much to live for, but whats the point when i feel like crap.
Then theres the one place i actually feel alright, the pc. I dont have to move loads so it doesn't hurt as much. people can't see me, i dont have to worry how i look, and overall its just a huge distraction so that i can just feel 'normal' and don't have to worry about anything. But ofc, im not allowed to stay on it 24/7, so my life just feels generally crap.
But then i have my good days, i feel fantastic and i dont want them to end, but then the next day its back to being horrible and i dont wanna do much and end up sleeping the entire day (like today, woke up at 4pm).
Thats all that i wanted to say really.





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