Selfish as in when he's sick or doesn't feel well, he tries to put the blame on my mother. He usually sick because of his gastric or constipation problem. For example, he blames my mother for not preparing fruits like papaya for him. And then, let's say we are going for a trip. If he is sick, then he would not want all of us to go. I mean he might be worried but my mum is 47 and my youngest brother
is already 15. Why should he be worried? It's absolutely absurd and selfish, don't you think? Then, when I confronted him, he said that I should put him as priority because he is my father and if i don't have him, then I would be dead by now.
And he is very disrespectful and rude because he always use foul words on me, my mother and my brother. He always end a conversation.. a nice conversation with **** you or **** your mum. I mean how could a father say that to his children. Plus, when his mother whom is my grandma called, he would not answer it because according to what he said, his mum is very annoying blah. He would demand us to tell our grandma lies like he's not in the house or he went out. Well, the truth is he is in the house. And there is also once he said I tried to commit suicide when I had an accident. I didn't lock the car door properly and fell out of the car. But, he told his friends and his relatives that I was trying to commit a suicide. I don't understand him sometimes. I've tried to tolerate him a lot of times but he's always too over.
And he is very controlling to me. When we are discussing about a family trip, he only wants us to visit his favorite places instead of asking for our opinions. I confronted him about this problem a few times and he brought out excuses like 'do you know that I went to a clinic for check-up today and something is wrong with my throat'. Well, he's been smoking for years and I told him that this has nothing to do with a family trip. So, he's trying to put the blame on me and makes me feel guilty. God knows if it's true or not. I've been advising him to stop smoking but he doesn't want to. And he is very superstitious. He always tell us about his dreams and how afraid he is that those dreams will affect his life blah blah blah.. I don't understand why he should do that. What should I do now? I feel very suffocated living with him. He makes fun of the littlest thing. When I was a child starting to hit puberty, he used to touch my breasts. And he makes fun of my cousin's appearance saying like how short he is etc. I've had enough of him. And he is violent, irresponsible and likes to gamble. He is very egoistic as well and i really cant think of a good quality that he has except for buying me things that i like and that will only happen when he is in a good mood. What should I do?