lookin at old threads to recreate some and bring some life to this BORING forum... apparently i made this one in 2012
i have changed SO much i have so much anger towards everyone and it's so unhealthy i have been hurt more in the past 12 months than i will be for the rest of my life, indirectly by family and directly too like the fact i've managed to stay sane is already an achievement for me lol i think i have got stronger as a result however as it forced me to grow up about four years worth within a matter of days as i was essentially left to defend myself and my siblings the day my exams started and i still came out with better results than 3/4 of the year. i've learned to not put up with **** from others and to be forgiving for people's mistakes. i cry so much now over the smallest things too like at least 3 times a week over small little things i have a short short patience span and still don't know how to handle being upset
i rely on my bf so so much to be ok with my feelings and calm me down/make me happy that if someone took him away from me i'd probably run away because i wouldn't be able to cope it just sucks to know i'm so reliant now as he was there for me to depend on all last year. we're in such a good place now that i slowly think that everything bad between us made us stronger like he does SO much for me i don't know why he even wants to care for me 24/7
tldr: hurt last year, cry all the time now and i rely on bf to FUNCTION but happier than ever with him and i'm angry to everyone else





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